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tell me how you gon' breathe without me?

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 04:47:54 GMT

well. today my boyfriend left to go to Ohio.
and i'm sad. i miss him :/

hella drama this weekend. i swear story of myself. Tricia's birthday party at her beach house in IB. i ate a bunch of food. cause im fat. Yeah. Loves glow rings, lots of fun. ending with drama. No need to talk about it. No one's business. But yeah. Didn't sleep till like 2:30 in the morning in the living room with Fran, Jenny, Joanne and Tricia. Woke up at like 10. Ate food. Left the beach house at 1. GOT A FUCKING TICKET. omgosh. that cop was an ASSSSSSHOLE. Went to fran's house, took a shower after jenny. Had debut practice, hated the dance instructor. Got home. Got yelled at by my father. No details. eh. He hates me sooo freaking much. ;[ i dont even understand what i did to make him hate me so much. I'm grounded. :/ wooppie.

she said i said.

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:11:18 GMT

oh em gee.
it has been a long time. lol.
i'll fix this thaang then update [:
<3

happy holidays skeez.

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 23:49:29 GMT

well its almost new years. tomorrows new years eve and i want to go to tim's house. but idk. my mom better let me go. i really really really want to be with my baby tomorrow and i want a new years kiss. [: mm. we'll see waht the new year has got to bring me. well merry late christmas. i'm getting my glasses on the 11th. ha. i had to buy them myself cause my parents didnt want to pay. SO i spent 347 bucks on eyeglasses. but it was my decision. cause they're better. yay marc jacobs. well i got mostly money, victoria's secret lotion and body spray, makeup and bags for my birthday. For xmas i got gift cards to hollister, express and yada. I really really wanted the voyager. ]; but i didnt get it. whatevs. my freaking amazing boyfriend bought me a chanel bag [: wee. i love. <3

Friday, December 21, 2007

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 01:54:11 GMT

happy birthday to me.
i'm legal. yay.
not today sucked ass. :/

Love is all that matters after all.

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 02:40:23 GMT

I've been obsessed with Carrie Underwood & Britney Spears
new cd. [: haha. I love them. Eh life is so complicated. What's new?
No need to complain when its not gonna help me out in the end.
I freaking miss my boyfriend, damn it. :\ Its so hard for both of us.
But I know its hardest on him. The last two arguments we had
weren't so dandy. I know I'm not perfect. And I do try. I do.
But I guess it comes off as I don't try at all and that I don't care
about anything. All the things he said, yeah they hurt, but he only
said it to make me realize because he cared. I love him for sticking
it out with me. For not giving up on such a useless piece of crap like
myself. I know I don't deserve all his love, I don't. I'm super thankful
that I can actually call him my own. <3

p.s new layout [: i was bored.

Without you its hard to survive

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 19:12:41 GMT

Well. A lot has happened in the past couple weeeks.
Last saturday was Tim's homecoming. No need to
go into detail it'll be too long of a blog. I went to his
house around 11 or 12. Hung out. Watched
Little Mermaid. Played Halo3. Got ready at 7.
We ate at Mr.Taco. We didn't really want to
eat anywhere fancy. Went to the dance. took
pictures. Danced. The whole shabang. Got picked
up. Went to his house watched tv. And went to bed.
He woke me up. Super cute. Got dropped off at
12:30. Then the San Diego Fires started happening.
-__- Crazy. If i stayed at his house longer I would've
been stranded up there. All the freeways were closed.
We evacuated tuesday at 12 in the morning. Scariest
thing ever. I was crying. I couldn't. Nasty breakfast.
Went home<3 Just too much to talk about. But
its been one hell of a week.

Give me a moment so I can breathe...Ok.

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 00:39:13 GMT

Wow, do I know how to ruin things or what?
I don't know. Well, its not like I haven't said
anything about it before. I seriously hate repeating
myself over and over again. I guess some things really
are better left unsaid, you know? I always end up
picking fights. But can you blame me? Don't tell
me you'll do something and end up not doing it.
Don't make promises if you aren't going to keep them.
And the more you ignore the fact that I bring it up...
the more I will get upset. Anyway! Other than that...
I slept at two in the morning. Woke up at 6;30
to get ready for SATs. x_X What a total bore.
After Christine and I went to Pat and Oscars.
Ate food. Now I'm home. Monday was Tim's and
I's 6MONTHS. Yay<33333Well Tuesday I was at
Fran's house. Then Wednesday we got picked up
and waited til 6PM and went to Knott's SCARY
Farm. I'll spare the details. Got home at like 1:30AM.
Called Timmy. Got up at 1PM took a shower
and went to Sara's house. Then went to Santa Anita
mall in Arcadia. Loves it<3 Watched The Game Plan,
cute movie. Then yesterday morning went back
to SanDiego. Not a good night. x___X

I'm the one you promised you would love.

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 21:51:00 GMT

well, let's just say i haven't been having good days. ;/
this freaking sucks ass. wow. i guess i'm just being too
emotional. but i can't help it. its who i am. i've cried too
much. and i'm seriously sick of feeling that way. i'm trying
with all the strength left in me to not cry right now. i
couldn't sleep last night cause i was worried over
nothing. I cried for hours. Yeah, I'm pathetic. You don't
have to tell me, cause I already know I am. I just don't
know what to do anymore. *Sigh. I wish life was so
simple sometimes. I just can't handle alla this as much
as i thought i could. Too much. </3

You got so much love in you.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 20:11:44 GMT

Eh, this break just feels like a long asss weekend.
I have got to see my boyfriend. Holey moley. Well
Saturday I hung out with my Tita. We went shopping.
And ate at Cheesecake Factory. Monday, Christine
and I went to the gym. HAHA. I know right. Me
at the gym? Totally unbelievable, but I did go. But it
was pointless. Cause Christine and I are the fattest
people alive. [: Right after the gym we went to her
house and ate fish and lots of rice. Then we went to
my house. I changed clothes. Then we were off to
the mall. Bought my boyfriend something. Then we
ate Cinnabon. x___X then after the mall we went to
Lolita's Taco Shop. HAHAH! Ate carne asada fries.
See, we are too fat. We're always eating. I'm
getting super fat. ];

It's obvious that you're dying, dying.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 00:11:45 GMT

I seriously hate today. OMGAH! I hate today. >:[
The only good thing about today is the fact that
I don't have to deal with school for the next three
fucking weeks. No school, finally. I've been waiting
for this day since we started school. Geez. Well,
I'm disappointed in myself. I am. I've got two bad
grades. Another thing happened today, but I'm
not gonna mention it. THEN freaking after school,
I had to walk home! YEAH, in the damn sun.
Wow. I was pissed. I hate how my parents don't
want to put me in their insurance. Fucking California
and their stupid laws. Our school won't let students
bake cakes anymore! Its funny, cause if we bring a
cake to school then they get suspended. Stupid right!?
I think so. I think the only fun I had today was when
I hung out with Brenzie and Jean Carlo. And we
were talking about animals & jobs. Those boys are
my favorite. They're hella chill<3 But I'm still not in
the mood. I hate today! KAY! I'm done.