I really have not been taking care of myself at all this semester - physically, emotionally, or psychologically.

It's mostly because I've been so busy. Maybe I should shut myself in my room for a day like Ying and have a lot of self-reflective thinking.

I wish I could just through school and work out the window and go to Europe alone by myself, where I don't know anyone, and just let myself go. Let go of all self-inhibitions, and enjoy life like there is no tomorrow. I would go anywhere I like, and meet new friends that I'll never see again, and try crazy things with them that I would never do (skinny-dipping anyone?)...oh of course there's the nude beach as well. I could be Lucia in that spanish movie. I would not care if I become broke. I would packpack anywhere.

It is a place where time has no meaning, where I can relax bathing in the remaining rays of the sun at dust with the tide nipping at my naked toes, savoring the passage of time rather than dreading it.

The next day would find me wearing a white eyelet day dress with a sunhat and matching sandals, sitting at a quaint cafe being mesmerized by the crisp serenade of a solo Spanish guitarist, and dipping my vanilla hazelnut biscotti into a steamy cup of dark roast coffee. I would browse local bookstores and find vintage little treasures, talk and laugh aloud with the locals, and be subject to their generous hospitality. I would not know where tomorrow brings, nor would I worry or even think about it. Tomorrow would only be tomorrow.

1st day of Organic Chem lab today. It wasn't too bad. I hate how its all basically busy work though. Luckily i managed to get out 1hr early. I was THE 1st person out of the door I think lol. That goes to explain how much I hate labs

My pimples seem to be subsiding at last...about time! It must be because I run regularly now (for the last 2 days at least), or less stress/anxiety, or maybe I'm eating more healthy?

A friend recently asked me why I'm always so happy and smiling all the time, I must be high or something. lol I don't know...maybe I'm high on life? Funny how much I've changed since high school. I hated life back then and was dark and brooding. Now I'm happy  ...all without antidepressants! I think it's because I appreciate all my wonderful friends and family a lot more.

Like what the old people say, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade (except that I would suggest enjoying the lemons au natural [no sugar added please], or be creative and make lemon chiffon cake )

Yum!