51 pts

im getting an expander next week- and brace sthe next week so theres two reasons to not eat!!! maybe ill "fast" those days.. hmm

well sorry for not updating- again- ive beenreally busy cuz im still in school...

but heres today.... (or rather.... yesterday)

watermelon (97)

chicken (200?)

strawberries (46)

chicken (200?)

cookie (100)

THE EXCERCIZE sad i know...

10 minutes 3.5 speed (-33)

7 minutes 4.0 speed (-23)

workout dvd- light strength training

workout dvd- challenge strength training (-100 for both?)

6 pts today

but tommorow i have this softball sleepover... with pizza and the whole deal. i have no clue how im gonna not eat. maybe ill just not eat the entire day.. then eat like, a slice of pizza. and thats it. and run on the treadmill. and do workout dvds... hmm im just rambling while im basically just so nervous inside. i was freaking out last night because of it. thats why i like to have sleepovers with my good friends who... understand me.. not with sport friends who can eat w/e and still be athletically skinny

jealous... jealous.. JEALOUS!!!

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3:52

well... hmmm. i walked 2 miles. -100. and i ate an apple. +100. so im basically at 0 calories right now.... but then theres the sleepover in an hour.. im totally freaking out. and my stomach looks so fat in this new shirt i got... its like a cropped dark blue henley and a sparkly tank underneath and i think i look ok.. besides the fact that theres this huge lump where my stomach is. just looking in the mirror makes me want to throw up. Or at least not eat. hmmph

i think im gonna go do situps. by next school year... ill have to buy all new clothes cuz ill be super skinny...

&& i weighed  myself on my new scale. im exactly the same. not one pound lost. im mad. do ya think its possible to lost 5 lbs in a week??? im gonna try- starting w. Cuz thats my first day out of school and hopefully i wont have to eat anything.

+3 points so far today

im gonna go run , so this will be a quick entry

uggh- need to go on a fast so badly!!! any tips for making your parents think your eating more than you are???

32

hmm- not much to say today. nothing is really.. happening. besides finals. and worrying. not about finals- becauses however self absorbed i may sound i dont every study and still get a's/b+'s. but for projects, i become a total perfectionist. im kinda a perfectionist, who hasnt come out to the world. ha that sounds weird.... but some of my friends love to rub it in peoples faces. i personally dont think that thats a good thing- but w/e.

B- two cup strawberries (90)

L- one cup strawberries (45)

D- chicken (300?)

Random- gum (15). a bit of a cookie (50)

Excericise

DDR 1/2 hour (-100?)

Kickball 20 mins

Total- basically, i got less than 500. too lazy to do the math...

POINTS

Are now... +5 today

so.. 32! woot

but.. i only have (((((6)))))) more days till school is out! friggen awesome. then i can go on a fast a couple days a week!! no mom to annoy me about eating... just me, the pool, the and the treadmill. plus friends and crap. but they dont seem to care. which kind of annoys me. they eat huge lunches, and i eat wimpy lunches to keep my metabolism highish. they dont even notice.

one of my friends got to meet her the other day.. because her dad is like, the founder of this fundraiser where she sang out. i dont really like Hilary Duff, but the whole time i was talking to my friend in school today i really wanted to ask how skinny she was. like, my friend is pretty skinny, and i wanted to know if Hilary looked super skinny in real life or what. but i decided i didnt want to ask...

Love ya'll!!! stay strong!!

-lizzie-

ahh- sorry about not posting or commenting this ENTIRE week

all the computers in my house... died for some reason. the internet didnt work at all. I guess that i COULDVE gone over to one of my friends houses and updated- but what could i really say if one of them asked what i was doing? so i decicded to wait till my dad fixed everything. plus ive been having lots of finals and essays to do for school... grr

and this past week has gone by pretty fast- i only have this coming up week, then 2 days of school left! yes! then, my INTENSE "losing weight" will start. My parents will be gone alot, not making me eat, and i could work out when my mom is gone, then again when shes back! haha cant wait!

i havent really been counting my points, just eating as little as possible, and excercising alot. so ill just say im at 20 points. my scale is messed up too, so i cant check my weight. everything is so screwed up at my house right now!

well- off to the pool. i absoloutley HATE my swimsuit and everything, but hopefully i wont run into anyone i know. (i wear shorts over it....) then ill run off the the bathroom. thats what happened to me a few days ago- this girl from my softball team showed up with her boyfriend and looked all skinny and pretty in her itty bitty black bikini. so i left. id rather not... show off my fatness.

stay strong<3

b- none

l- soup (150), popsicle (20), gum (20)

D- we're eating out.... so ill go on the treadmill again later or just do a workout dvd

excercise- 40 minutes jogging on treadmill (356)

2 points (for excericsing)

1 point (for water)

1 point (for sleep)

3 points right now(calories for day- to be determined with dinner...)

12 pts

im so.. angry at myself now

sure, i got even sicker this weekend

but that DID NOT! give me authority to eat a sugar cookie my mom made. And another one. And another one. grrr

i know i ate under 1000 calories on saturday and today.... but im just so.... ANGRY!!!!! at my weakness. i want to be skinny so badly.. i want guys to think im the hottest girl.. ever... and i want to be an actress. dont know if i mentioned this, but ive been in about 8 plays. <3. not always the lead, but when my talent was recognized, i was. you have to be skinny to be an actress. or, at least to be an Alist actress

anyhow.... im gonna ignore the food part of the challenge and count everything else. Weigh in is on saturday... i NEED to get down to 162. m-f will be perfect this week. 45 minutes excercise everyday, under 500 calories. i will do it

SATURDAY
softball game (+2)

8 hrs sleep (+1)

a bajillion cups of water for softball (+1)

TODAY

swimming laps (+1)

9 hrs sleep (+1)

water (+1)

omg. i never realized how SKINNY shes gotten. wow.

&& sorry for my intensely..... intense entry. im just mad right now.