Well, I have graduated. It is official. Sorry for my like monthly updates, its not that I'm that busy, just no discipline. Anyways a lot has gone on. The last weeks of school were o.k and kinda sucked.  We had this little graduation practice ansd picnic, the picnic at least went better than expected.  I am so glad to be out of high school, and now the future is what I look forward to. I see so many young recent grads n stuff. they mostly suck, making me wonder what I'll be like in a couple of years, maybe even months.  I will really miss my friends.  I knew a lot of people in high school, but a select few saw the real me.  That is the way I like to keep things.  These are the prople I want to keep in-tuch with. (If you are reading this you are one of them).  All of them were so cool, I'm like an I meet people this cool in the real world.  Or were they once these people but forced to "grow up".  All of my friends, please stay the same, only maturein the right ways.  But I know I don't wanna become the typical adult, cuz half the ones in my life are real messed up.  I wish I could go into more detail but I havent written in so long I have to cram my thoughts and feeelings, and my brain is goin a gazillion mph. 

 I just got some little letter I wrote myself in the beginning of the year in my english class.  I wonder if that teacher actually cared enough to put a stamp on it, cuz i didnt. mind you this is the one that almost made me not graduate. anyways it was so insightful and inspirational.  its like the litttle me from the past knew how i would feeel in particular that yesterday.  so many things i needed to hear. and it was all optimistic like i always am at the beginning of the year. so young. aww i was so cute. im gonna save it.

it was so funny watchin all my friends grow up and hearin their stories of their parents wanting them to remain kids and grow up overnite at the same time.  some of my closest ones are goin of to a camping job today, damn i just realized that.  well kiona,tomi,ndumbi try to keep in touch.  its funny to me how these people and others have kinda molded me into who i am, whether they know it or not.  times is hard here at home, irealize how i HAVE TO BE successful.  that was always my motivating factor in school.  it sucks, but ill make it. damn summer is beautiful. sorry my thoughts are so random and all overt he place but thats how i think.  anyways i will try to be more discipline, and write more often.