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Thursday, May 29, 2008

Thu, 29 May 2008 13:14:49 GMT

the end.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 00:53:22 GMT

x

i don't wanna wait another minute
put me out of my misery
i can read your mind
baby you're not in it
we're not what we used to be
no you wouldn't have to lie to me
if you would only let me go
and i don't wanna wait another minute
to hear something that i already know

you're gonna miss this
you're gonna want this back
you're gonna wish
these days hadn't gone by so fast
these are some good times
so take a good look around
you may not know it now
but you're gonna miss this

i don't know why i keep thinking that
one day i'll turn around
i'll see your hand reach out
i'm only fooling myself
oh but maybe when you smile
it means you'd stay awhile
i'm only fooling myself

why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart
why would you wanna take our love
and tear it all apart
why would you wanna make the very first scar
why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart
it's not unbroken anymore
how do i get it back
the way it was before

i'm sorry i'm bad
i'm sorry you're blue
i'm sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i can't take it back
i love how you kiss
i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say
i'm sorry

if there's one thing i've learned
it's that we never feel the heat
until we get burned
but we try so hard not to die
sometimes we forget
to appreciate life

so everyday i find a little something to remind me
no matter how hard i try
i can't put the past behind me
the trouble is i can't get him
out of my mind when i close my eyes at night
who's gonna save me now he's gone
the trouble is there's a part of me
that still can't let go of his memory
now i know what it is
love is what the trouble is

sometimes two hearts just can't
dance to the same beat
so i'll pack up my things
and i'll take what remains of me

and every night you cry yourself to sleep
thinking, why does this happen to me
why does every moment have to be so hard
hard to believe that
it's not over tonight

and i just wanna show you
she don't even know you
she's never gonna love you
like i want to
and you just see right through me
but if you only knew me
we could be a beautiful miracle
unbelievable, instead of just invisible

i'm a new soul i came to this strange world
hoping i could learn a bit about how to give and take
but since i came here, felt the joy and fear
finding myself making every possible mistake
see i'm a young soul in this very strange world
hoping i could learn a bit about what is true and fake
but why all this hate, try to communicate
finding just that love is not always easy to make

wish i could hold you up in my arms
keep you safe and sound from any harm
i can't seem to function from this far away
and every little moment looks so dull
without your color in my day
oh it feels so good to hear you speak
this is where i start to miss you more than i can bear
i hate this distance in between us
i don't think it's fair
all my time spent wondering
how to stay true to you
but you're not here
and now i fear i'll never get back to you

cause love will keep you up all night
it's not something you can decide
one day you're all alone
the next you're crying on the phone
love will keep you up all night
you've got to taste the sweet divide
take you to the other side
love will keep you up all night

all i'm asking for is love
but you never seem to have enough
i gotta feel you in my bones again
i'm all over you
i'm not over you
i wanna taste you one more time again

built a wall around my heart
i'll never let it fall apart
but strangely i wish secretly
it would fall down while i'm asleep

i've got a picture of you in my bedroom
and i hope it never falls
i hope i never lose that feeling
i used to get when you called
and i wonder to myself
who were you? where are you?
were you ever here at all?
i don't wanna lose your face
i don't wanna wake up one day
and not remember what time erased
i don't wanna turn around
cause i'm not scared of
what love gave me and took away

i'm falling apart
i'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
in the pain is there healing?
in your name i find meaning
so i'm holding on
i'm barely holding onto you
i'm hanging on another day
just to see what you will throw my way
and i'm hanging on to the words you say
you said that i will be okay

i've been watching while you sleep baby
hoping i'm the only one
that frequents your dreams
i can't take another breath without feeling
the regrets of my jealousy
horrified that you might have really lied
tell me, is it a possibility
overwhelming proof that you're nothing but a fake

i hear the sound of my own breathing
it makes me miss you more
wake me up when it's over, after the ending
when the damage has all been done
i don't wanna be somewhere
where you can watch me as i bleed
just leave me here in pieces

x

sorry again for the long absence.
hopefully i'm back for good now...
school and all is almost out.
comment and subscribe?
love you girls!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 00:07:54 GMT

x

i don't know anyone who isn't haunted
by someone or something.
and whether we try to slice the pain away
with a scalpel or shove it in the back of a closet
our efforts usually fail.
so the only way we can clear out the cobwebs
is to turn a new page
or put the old story to rest...
finally, finally to rest.

i can't waste time so give it a moment
i realize nothing's broken
no need to worry about everything i've done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
i loved you once, needed protection
you're still a part of everything i do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo, i'll always have you

when i thought he was mine
she caught him by the mouth
i waited eight long months
she finally set him free
i told him, i can't lie
he was the only one for me
two weeks and we had caught on fire
she's got it out for me
but i wear the biggest smile

this is the bottom line, it's true
i gave my all for you
now my heart's in two
and i can't find the other half
it's like i'm walking on broken glass
better believe i bled
it's a call i'll never get

i'm sorry, i'm just thinking
of the right words to say
i know they don't sound
the way i planned them to be
but if you'll wait around awhile
i'll make you fall for me
i promise, i promise you

you didn't love her.
you just didn't want to be alone.
or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego.
or, or maybe she made you feel better
about your miserable life.
but you didn't love her.
because you don't destroy the person you love.

there was a time when i was so afraid
i thought i'd reached the end
baby that was then
but i am made of more than my yesterdays
this is my now
and i am breathing in the moment

i wonder, how am i supposed to feel
when you're not here
cause i burned every bridge i ever built
when you were here
i still try holding on to silly things
i never learn
oh why all the possibilities
i'm sure you've heard
this is what you get
when you let your heart win

when you love someone
and they break your heart
don't give up on love
have faith, restart
just hold on, hold on
cause an empty room
can be so loud
there's too many tears
to drown them out
so hold on, hold on

have you ever heard a word?
rather be lonely in love
than alive with you and dead
have you ever heard a word?
hear me out this time
where does one start
to pick up the pieces
of a gasoline heart
when all she has is driving away?

the thing about addiction is that
it never ends well, because eventually,
whatever it is that was getting us high
stops feeling good and starts to hurt.
still, they say you don't kick the habit
until you hit rock bottom,
but how do you know when you're there?
because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us,
sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.

if i should die before i wake
it's cause you took my breath away
losing you is like
living in a world with no air
i'm here alone didn't want to leave
my heart won't move, it's incomplete
wish there was a way
that i could make you understand

and oh, oh how could you do it?
oh i, i never saw it coming
oh, oh i need the ending
so why can't you stay
just long enough to explain?
and when it rains
will you always find an escape?
just running away from
all the ones who love you
from everything

you left without a single word
not even sorry
it might've hurt worse to hear you say
"i'm leaving, goodbye"
but your smile still makes my heart sing
another sad song
i can't forget it, won't regret it
cause i'm still in love with you

is this the end of everything we know?
this is the end of everything i am
is anybody out there?
hello, hello?
broken hearts like promises
are left for lesser knowns
is anybody out there?
alone, alone
because the coldest winters thrive

forgive and forget.
that's what they say.
it's good advice,
but it's not very practical.
when someone hurts us,
we want to hurt them back.
when someone wrongs us,
we want to be right.
without forgiveness,
old scores never settle.
old wounds never heal,
and the most we can hope for
is that someday,
we'll be lucky enough to forget.

but somehow i'm still alive inside
you took my breath but i survived
i don't know how but i don't even care

you were finished long before
we had even seen the start
why don't you stand up
be a man about it?
fight with your bare hands
about it now
i never wanted to say this
you never wanted to stay
well did you?
i put my faith in you, so much faith
and then you just threw it away

i don't know what hurts worse baby
seeing you with him or being alone
on my own
i know he doesn't love you baby
not like i did
oh, what's the point
you're not listening anyway

i'd take another chance
take a fall, take a shot for you
and i need you like a heart needs a beat
but that's nothing new
i loved you with a fire red
now it's turning blue
and you say sorry like the angel
heaven let me think was you
but i'm afraid it's too late to apologize

x

comments pleaseee!
hope everyone had a great thanksgiving break...
i'm headed back to school tomorrow.
love you girls (:

Monday, November 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 00:26:28 GMT

and i hate how much i love you boy
i can't stand how much i need you
and i hate how much i love you boy
but i just can't let you go
and i hate that i love you so

while you're sitting around thinking
about what you can't change
and you're worrying about
all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count
cause you can't get it back

and you play it coy
but it's kinda cute
and when you smile at me
you know exactly what you do
baby don't pretend that
you don't know it's true
cause you can see it
when i look at you

i remember the way you made love to me
like i was all you'd ever need
did you change your mind
well i didn't change mine
now here i am trying to make sense of it all
we were best friends
now we don't even talk
you broke my heart
ripped my world apart

and believe me.
i did not want that because
i had a good life before you.
well not good.. but it was okay.
well, it was empty actually.
but at least i was blissfully unaware
of how miserable i was.
whereas now, because of you
i am acutely aware of how
completely and totally unhappy i am.
thank you for that.

baby why'd you leave me
why'd you have to go
i was counting on forever
now i'll never know
i can't even breathe
it's like i'm looking from a distance
standing in the background
everybody's saying
he's not coming home now
this can't be happening to me
this is just a dream

you think that you can use up your love.
i think that you can blow it all on one person.
you can love so much, so deeply
that there is nothing left for anyone else.

didn't you know how much i loved you
didn't you know how much i loved you, baby
i gave you everything
every part of me
didn't you feel it when i touched you
didn't i rock you when i loved you, baby
baby tell me
didn't you know how much i loved you

i'm pretty numb at this point.
i figure any other horrible thing he can do now
won't affect me.
you can't break a heart that's already broken.
at least, i hope you can't.
but if it's possible, then at least i know what's next.

there's once in a lifetime
and there's once in awhile
and the difference between the two
is about a million miles
oh you might get lucky
while the moon is looking on
but in the truth of the morning
the stars will be long gone\

i make mistakes.
that's what i do.
i speak without thinking.
i act without knowing.
i drink so much that i can barely walk.
i'm a fantastic lover though.
and an amazing friend.
god knows i mean well.

i can't get you out of my head
i still feel you in this bed
left me all alone
you couldn't be more gone
from falling apart to fighting mad
from wanting you back to not giving a damn
i've felt it all
i've been to the wall

the truth is, there is no line.
there's only your life,
how you mess it up,
and who is there to save you.
or who isn't.

you can hold any girl that you like
fall in love when it's easy at night
but you wake up wondering why
she ain't ever something better
when you're lost and you've run out of road
find what i already know
in the end close is all there is
oh, in the end it's me you're gonna miss
cause you won't find this

i believe in pink.
i believe that laughing
is the best calorie burner.
i believe in kissing, kissing a lot.
i believe in being strong when
everything seems to be going wrong.
i believe that happy girls
are the prettiest girls.
i believe that tomorrow is another day.
and i believe in miracles.
[audrey.hepburn]

my eyes have seen more than they want to
my heart has scars that run so deep
there's tears that i've had to let go
and there's dreams i told myself i'd keep
now i don't give up easy
i have many miles to go
but i can't wait to get to
what i see down this road
and all my life i've learned to
just take it day by day
i'm not there yet but i know i'm on my way

change.
we don't like it, we fear it
but we can't stop it from coming.
we either adapt to change
or we get left behind.
and it hurts to grow.
anybody who tells you it doesn't
is lying.
but here's the truth:
the more things change
the more they stay the same.
and sometimes, oh sometimes
change is good,
oh, sometimes change is everything.

i told you so
oh, i told you so
i told you someday
you'd come crawling back
and asking me to take you in
i told you so
but you had to go
now i found somebody new
and you will never break my heart in two again

soul mate:
two little words, one big concept.
a belief that someone, somewhere
is holding the key to your heart.

sorry again that it took SO long.
i've just been really busy with school and all.
leave some comments
and let me know how you girls are doing!
love you all <3

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 18:51:00 GMT

Hey girls!!

I am SO SORRY that I haven't updated in so long.

Junior year in college is seriously kicking my ass, but I'll be home for break tomorrow til the 25th, so look for updates!!!

I love you all sooo much for sticking with me... just a little bit more til a new post, hang in there!

Hope school's going awesome for you all!

Love, Andie <3

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 01:26:53 GMT

drove to your house in the hills
where i wanted to be
all the lights were on
and i knew you were waiting for me
and that road became familiar
like the mystery shape of your heart

how did we go wrong
it was so good and now it's gone
and i pray at night
that our paths soon will cross
what we had isn't lost
cause you're always right here
in my thoughts

and people ask how i'm doing
but every question still has you in
i say i'm fine and
i never think about you
but you're always on my mind
i'm getting over you most of the time
if i say it like i mean it
then maybe i'll believe it like it's true
i'm getting over you

the fog in the morning
clouded the world that we knew
it was almost enough
being lonely and living for you
and the rain came to our window
and i wish i could have stayed
you were asleep while
i gathered my things in the dark
the burns on my fingers
were all that was left of the spark
didn't want to wake you
cause i knew i couldn't stay

somebody wants you
somebody needs you
somebody dreams about you
every single night
somebody can't breathe
without you it's lonely
somebody hopes that someday
you will see that somebody's me

i know our love has ended
and we should be apart
but how can you live with
an almost mended broken heart
i'm almost sleeping like a baby
i almost make it through the night
i'm ready to accept it's really true
i'm almost over, i can't believe it's over
i'm almost over getting over you

i heard you say
we are one in the same
well wrong again
i could never do those things
you did to me
i will be okay
in time you will fade
into the nothing that you are

maybe you were right
but baby i was lonely
i don't want to fight
i'm tired of being sorry
i'm standing in the street
crying out for you
no one sees me
but the silver moon

you're not prepared
to be in love with me so soon
cause you've been through enough
to have something hold you back
we don't need to go that far
let's hold on to where we are
if it's real we'll make it through
cause all i need is you

this is a delicate unraveling
now and then i find pieces on the floor
tiny little bits that tell me
maybe i shouldn't take this
or love you anymore

no ending can be right
because it shouldn't be over at all.
the magic is not supposed
to go away.

tried to take a picture of love
didn't think i'd miss him that much
i wanna fill this new frame
but it's empty

cause i wanted you the first time
i loved you from the second
i don't know how that ever goes away
as far as i can tell
you're really good at talking
so i think it's time you let me know
i'm just your latest mistake

people are always shouting
they want to create a better future.
it's not true.
the future is an apathetic void
of no interest to anyone.
the past is full of life
eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us
tempt us to destroy or repaint it.
the only reason people want to be
masters of the future
is to change the past.

even though i love you
i can't help thinking about
if i'd be better without you
if we stay together
it could get worse, then again
maybe it could get better
something's wrong we both know
that you and i still got a long way to go

you did everything i asked you not to
look where it got you
i'm sure you heard it before
"how could you"
"baby why would you"
goodbye sweetheart
countdown started
words are heavy
but i'm far from broken hearted

there's a reason why they say
that we should give it time
but time is not enough
and that's the reason why
when you're young you fall in love
standing still i'm waiting
to see if this is real
cause i feel like i'm asleep
i'll open up my eyes
cause you might be the type of guy
that makes me dream when i'm awake

well i put so much thought in the getting ready
now i know that was the best part
it's so easy to get caught up
in what i'm regretting
forget what i got from a wounded heart

comment and subs.
hope you girls had a great summer
<3

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 00:31:21 GMT

you had and lost the one thing
you kept in a safe place
remember the face of the girl
who made you her own
and how you left her alone

from the moment that we met
my world was turned around
upside down
to some degree i still regret my memory
for keeping you around
i thought you were mine
but my broken heart's been shattered
one too many times
and i don't wanna see you anymore
i'm just not that strong
i love it when you're here
but i'm better when you're gone
i'm certain that i've given
and oh how you can take
there's no use in you looking
there's nothing left for you to break
baby please release me
let my heart rest in pieces

so i will head out alone
and hope for the best
and we can hang our heads down
as we skip the goodbyes
and you can tell the world
what you want them to hear
i've got nothing left to lose my dear
so i'm up for the little white lies
but you and i know the reason why
i'm gone and you're still here

late night liquor blue
will lead me to the floor
can we fake it
can we make believe
i'm so full of love
it deeply sickens me
but all i could do
was close my eyes
and cross my heart
and hope to die
cause you don't fucking listen
when i'm around
the least you could do
is take it back
all the vicious remarks
and verbal attacks
cause i can't fucking stand it
when you're around

baby said he couldn't stay
wouldn't put his lips to mine
and a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
i said, "honey i don't feel so good
don't feel justified
come on put a little love here in my void"
he said, "it's all in your head"
and i said, "so's everything"
but he didn't get it
i thought he was a man
but he was just a little boy

it's not easy not answering
everytime i want to talk to you
but i can't
if you only knew the hell
i put myself through
replaying memories in my head
of you and i every night
don't waste your time trying to fix
what i want to erase
what i need to forget
don't waste your time on me my friend
friend, what does that even mean
i don't want your hand
you'll only pull me down
so save your breath
don't waste your song on me

i finished crying
in the instant that you left
and i can't remember
where or when or how
and i banished every memory
you and i had ever made

so much to say
but no words to convey
the loneliness building
with each passing day
but i'm getting used to it
you have to get used to it
i'll devise the best disguise
a brand new look
and take them by surprise
they'll never guess what's not inside
i'll express myself with ease
with confidence and character complete

the man said
"why do you think you're here"
i said, "i got no idea
i'm gonna, i'm gonna lose my baby
so i always keep a bottle near"
i don't ever wanna drink again
i just, i just need a friend
i'm not gonna spend ten weeks
have everyone think i'm on the mend
it's not just my pride
it's just til these tears have dried

i don't need your sympathy
there's nothing you can say or do for me
and i don't want a miracle
you'll never change for no one
and i hear your reasons why
where did you sleep last night
and was she worth it
was she worth it?
cause i've been losing sleep
and you've been going cheap
she ain't worth half of me

but katie's young and man she just don't care
she'd follow tommy anywhere
she's in love with the boy
and even if they have to run away
she's gonna marry that boy someday
her daddy's waiting up til half past twelve
when they come sneaking up the walk
he says, "young lady get on up to your room
while me and junior have a talk"
mama breaks in and says,
"don't lose your temper
it wasn't very long ago that you yourself
was just a hay seed plow boy
who didn't have a row to hoe
my daddy said you wasn't worth a lick
when it came to brains
you got the short end of the stick
but he was wrong
and honey, you are too
katie looks at tommy like i still look at you"

hunger hurts
and i want him so bad
oh it kills
cause i know i'm a mess
he don't wanna clean up
i gotta fold cause these hands
are too shaky to hold
hunger hurts but starving works
when it costs too much to love

and i'm not jealous no i'm not
i just want everything she's got
you look at her so amazed
i remember way back when
you used to look at me that way

baby don't you try
to hold my hand
maybe you should keep your eyes
on your new girlfriend
don't know what i saw
but i'm not seeing it now
woke up this morning
bitterness in my mouth
guess i fell too fast
guess i learned my lesson
so much for true love
i'll take this chivas
instead of your bed
it wasn't even good, trust me
i must have been
so so so so lonely

oh but i know what you're doing
and what you hope to find
i've seen it a thousand times
all the fire we had before
are now just bitter ashes
scattered on the floor

i'll start this broken heart
i'll fix it up so it will work again
better than before
they'll star in a mystery
a tragic tale of all that's yet to come
fingers crossed there will be love

my leg's going up for
keeping my phone on vibrate
to hide the fact your boyfriend
keeps texting me
and i've been trying to
never mind it man
but everytime i get a new number
he finds it, damn
and you thought you had it
sewn up too
until right around amazing o'clock
when i showed up

my heart is broken.
again.
comments please.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 00:46:26 GMT

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do
reminds me of you
and the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you

it's not easy not answering
everytime i want to talk to you
but i can't
if you only knew
the hell i put myself through
replaying memories in my head
of you and i every night

a few questions that i need to know
how could you ever hurt me so
i need to know what i've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
was it that i never paid enough attention
or did i not give enough affection
not only will your answers keep me sane
but i'll know to never make the same mistake again
you can tell me to my face
or even on the phone
you can write it in a letter
either way i have to know
did i never treat you right
did i always start the fight
either way i'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
i have to find

forget what you feel.
and remember what you deserve.

today was the worst day
i went through hell
i wish i could remove it
from my mind
two months away from you
but i couldn't tell
i thought that everything
was gonna be just fine
the post card that you wrote
with the stupid little note
something wasn't quite right about it
it smelled like cheap perfume
and it didn't smell like you
there is no way you can get around it
because you wrote
i wish you were her
you left out the 'e'
you left without me
and now you're somewhere out there
with a bitch, slut, psycho babe
i hate you why are guys so lame
everything i gave to you
i want everything back but you

i wanted you to fight for me!
i wanted you to say there is
no one else you could ever be with
and that you would rather be alone
than without me.

you're with me
til the bitter end
what we had transcends
this experience
too painful to talk about
so i'll hold it in
til my heart can mend
and be brave enough to love again

so you want me to tell you
something about myself?
i don't have anything to say.
even if i did you'd be wrong to believe me.
trust is a lie.
nobody ever knows anyone.

i couldn't give a damn what you say to me
i don't really care what you think of me
cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
there's nothing you could say that would hurt me
i'm better off without you anyway
i thought it would be hard but i'm okay
i don't need you if you're gonna be that way
cause with me it's all or nothing

i can't believe i believed
everything we had would last
so young and naive of me
to think she was from your past
silly of me to dream
of one day having your kids
love is so blind
it feels right when it's wrong
i can't believe i fell for your schemes
i'm smarter than that
so dumb and naive to believe
that with me you're a changed man
foolish of me to compete
when you cheat with loose women
it took me some time
but now i moved on

i'm not crazy
i'm sure i ain't done nothing wrong
i'm just waiting
cause i heard that this feeling
won't last that long

truth is still absolute.
believe that.
even when that truth is hard and cold
and more painful than you've ever imagined.
and even when the truth
is more cruel than any lie.

you held my hand
you held me tight
now you're gone
and i'm still crying
shocked, broken
i'm dying inside
where are you
i need you
don't leave me
here on my own
speak to me
be near me
i can't survive
unless i know you're with me

even though i kinda knew we were a lie
it was like a pain reliever.
i mean the pain was still there
but i didn't feel it for awhile.

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now
when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the words i need to hear
to always get me through the day
and make it okay
i miss you

maybe it's a lot like your world.
maybe it's nothing like it.
but if you look closer
you might see someone like you.
someone trying to find their way.
someone trying to find their place.
someone trying to find their self.
sometimes it seems like you are
the only one in the world who's struggling
who's frustrated or unsatisfied
or barely getting by.
but that feeling's a lie.
and if you just hold on
just find the courage to face it all for another day
someone or something will find you
and make it all okay.
because we all need a little help sometimes.
someone to help us hear the music in the world
to remind us that it won't always be this way.
that someone is out there.
and that someone will find you.

rough couple days kids.
leave some to cheer me up?

Monday, July 02, 2007

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 01:06:00 GMT

i like where you sleep
when you sleep next to me
i like where you sleep
here

i'm just your latest mistake
i wonder what will make you happy
i wonder what you'll do with it all
i have a map in my head
somehow still don't understand
why i always have to miss you
why i have to make the call

stay up til four in the morning
and the tears are pouring
and i wanna make it worth the fight
but what have we been doing for all this time
baby if we're gonna do it
come and do it right

"i'm not cold" he said
but he's shaking
as he's lying next to me naked
pulled the hair back from his face
to let that smile heat this place
and this feels so far from real
i'm lost and i love it

it's so easy to get caught up
in what i'm regretting
forget what i got
from a wounded heart
i'm the one who likes gardenia
i'm the ones who likes
to make love on the floor
i don't want to hang up the phone yet
it's been good getting to know me more
i've been seeing all my old friends
in the city
walking alone in central park
doing all the things that i've neglected
traded them all in
to be in your arms

lost inside of my head
empty side of the bed
i fill this place without you
i keep pushing the blues
cause i don't wanna lose
what i loved about you

i watch you from a distance
i remember all of those instances
when you smile
when you laugh
when you crash
when i'm there to catch you
when you fall

the miles are getting longer it seems
the closer i get to you
i've not always been the best girl
or friend for you
but your love remains true
and i don't know why
you always seem to give me another try

what if i had a thing on the side
made you cry
would the rules change up
or would they still apply
if i played you like a toy
sometimes i wish i did act like a boy

do you remember
we said we'd run away together
holding onto one another
i'll steal the car, steal the credit cards
we'll run forever
holding onto one another

she likes chocolate in the morning
she drinks her coffee late at night
you can sense that she is guarded
but that's alright
she'll fall asleep while you're still talking
with unfinished books beside her bed
she'll cancel all of her appointments
and go shopping instead
and in spite of what is right
far beyond what she'd accept
when the moon begs the question
will you have the answer yet
can't you just adore her

so here we lie in this beautiful mess
of tangled sheets and beads of sweat
with my heart in your hand
my neck in the other
should i be scared
or should i come closer
but it's still beating and i'm still breathing
you haven't hurt me yet
morning always comes too quick when you're around
when you're around
you leave me lying here
so they don't find us out
they'll find us out

i don't wanna know it's over
so save your goodbye kiss
i don't wanna know it's over
cause ignorance is bliss
i can hardly see what's in front of me
cause the vodka's running on empty
i can't stay sober if it's over

there in the summer of my new obsession
when all of my dreams started in the depression
eight in the morning and i got your letter
sealed with a kiss
p.s. things will get better
and i never say no to you
get me up early, so motivated
life as we know it is so overrated
you are the best thing that i ever needed
safe in this world that is restless and greedy

keep a straight face when you tell a lie
always keep an airtight alibi
keep it hid in the dark
what he don't know won't break his heart

it always seemed that i was sorry
for the things that i did
but never did a thing about it
til i let you in
it's kinda funny about the time
that i was falling apart
you came and put me back together now

i guess i feel alright
but it hurts when i think
when i let it sink in
it's all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
i'm watching you sleep
it hurts a lot
and all i know is
you've got to give me everything
and nothing less cause
you know i'd give you all of me

and i miss you
and i wish you were here
i stopped breathing
when you said you don't care anymore
and i'm scared
don't... don't leave me alone

it's okay to need each other.
that's what makes us strong.
that's what makes us human.

be careful what you wish for
cause you just might get it all
you just might get it all
and then some you don't want

there is a part of me that wants an answer
and part of me that doesn't want to know
part of you that i am in love with
and the part that i am willing to let go
this is a delicate unraveling
now and then i find pieces on the floor
tiny little bits that tell me
maybe i shouldn't do this
or love you anymore

your voice was the soundtrack
of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other
you'll always be my thunder
and i said
your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
i don't ever wanna love another
you'll always be my thunder
so bring on the rain

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