hmm its been awhile since i left a blog thingy on here. hmm...whats goin on lately...oh yeah, durr. JASON is being an A**HOLE...totally. dont wanna get into all that crap, but it has to do with SOMEONE who was supposedly a friend of mine. riiiight.

the whole lucas deal: hahahaha. he knows i really like him and stuff, and right now we're just hanging out and what not. nothing really interesting. but i did get a big hug from him yesterday!! (thanks to blaze and brooke!) lol...mander and travis are "a couple" now. they dont officially go out, but they are so googly-eyed that its actually really funny! ha. no more core shows till june 10th =( so not cool.

my dad actually called the other day. thats totally a first. now hes even saying he'll finally send our stuff back to us, but i dunno. i mean, hes had it for almost a year now. why is he waiting so late to send it to us now? not cool.

IM MOVING SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yayness. its only about 20 minutes from where i live now, and its 5 minutes away from my school. thats weird but cool. i'll live right down the road from my friend matt huffstutler. ha! thats gonna be fun. lol. plus its not far from jamie either. shes a loser. lol. im leaving brandy here all by herself! hehe. shes got her loser boifriend whom i just met yesterday...another matt. matt huckabee. (i dont know how to spell his last name!) but he has a REAL MOHAWK, not a fohawk, so thats cool. ha!!...bleh.

what else.....nothing really...

wow, yesterday was a lot of fun (the core, of course). ARH played really good, but i stayed outside after they played. we found a buggy from k mart, so raven and chuck would get in it and will ran them into the wall. tazz went all the way down the tunnel. we bought a jump rope, so everyone was jump roping in the parking lot. that was fun. chuck got first, travis was second, and chris was third...lol. mander and will rode with travis, and lucas brought me home...haha we beat the others! but we all sat down and ate pizza and talked, like last weekend, until they had to leave after midnight. so, that was my night.

oh yeah, and for whoevers reading this that doesnt read my myspace thing, i did break up with jason thursday. he was cool with it i guess, and we're still friends.

life sucks.

i cant break up with jason. i dont know why. i freakin wrote a note to him today, and its still in my notebook, but i cannot freakin give it to him. when im around him....i dont want to break up with him...and when im not around him...thats when reality sets in, and i realize i need to do it. but i cant. lifes not supposed to be like this dude!! it sucks royally. plus it doesnt really help when you like someone else, too. i really do care alot about jason, but, i know that this will not go on much longer. it wont be for this other guy, cause i doubt that i could go out with him if me and jason break up. but still. its really frustrating sometimes.

Oh dude. I wrote that from school today, and i just got home from church. i cannot believe jason. see, supposedly, today is national weed smoking day for all stoners (4 20). jason promised me he'd quit when we started going out, almost 3 months ago. but no. he blew church off (and me off) to go get high with james...at least thats what i think....why else would he choose this day to 'play halo' at james' house, even when he has it already?... i cannot believe this. thats it, if i dont get to talk to him tonight, im ending this in the morning. this has made me soo mad!!!!! i cant believe that jason would do that....but he did. thats it. i just hope im not wrong.

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last night was really fun....me and my brother stayed after school for the talent show, which didnt start until 7. me, travis, aj, and betty played runescape on the computers for like, 2 hours. then we all went into the auditorium to get good seats and what not. in the end, i ended up sitting next to lucas. james rocked on the drum solo. then it was all crap until the end, when our forgotten past played. i was like, "yeah, josh!!" it was awesome, except for the fact they turned off alan's mic!! i hated that, cause i love his screaming part. well after that, i had to wait for josh to take me home, but he was talking to alot of people, so i just hung out with lucas. he almost left, but traffic was too much. so we just talked and what not until josh came over, and we both left. all in all, it was an awesome night.....