Currently Reading The Novice (The Black Magician Trilogy, Book 2) By Trudi Canavan see related

Youth Day

To be stuck at home and study, mug, homework.
Yay. And I hate my brother for hogging my computer, like always. And like always, I don't care if he sees this. Wait - it's like as if he even cared? Yes, he don't, and he bloody well knows it.

Happy Birthday Chaohsien!

Leaving only 107 days to O levels scares me. :( The 100th Day really will mark the end of having fun, I guess... Time to work extra hard now! Soon, after I finishing reading The Novice and The High Lord. Really great books! I'm glad I bought them. :)

Go read - 1st book is Magician's Guild. & I don't know if I'd want to borrow anyone - unless he/she promise with SINCERITY that he/she won't make it torn or tattered or dirtied in anway. I know, I know. I'm just like that. But it isn't nice at all to see your book returned to you in such a nasty way - with all the torns and tatters around. & I realised some people has been taking my books for very long and I yearn to get them back. :(

I should stop lending people book except maybe if I trust them. Or know that they will know how to return my books nicely and quickly. At least. Haha I know I sound irritating and annoying but I just can't help it :x Sorry, no offence. I'm just saying in general alright.

Still, I hate my brother. :( Wish he goes to NS soon. HAHA.

Oh, perhaps I should think about what JC I want to go to before I even take O's huh.
Which JC which JC which JC which JC. :(

Smiley (or not) for the day: :( Sigh. On the plus side, I itch to shop, before I have to stop totally :D

WAKE UP LAR.

Happy Stuff first.
1. H. Clique, 404 :D & Bffs!
2. Red Camp at the end of the year?
3. Been studying (that's why no online shopping, msning or blogging!)
4. $1 Bubble Teas!
5. Netballsxz :)
6. Bought many many books yesterday.
7. Jingj, Debbie and I had $1 left each and we spent it on bubble teas!
8. Sitting beside Jingj can be fun sometimes. :)

Neutral stuff.
1. Sleeping in classes
2. Waking up late in the morning and rushing for school
3. School's booking place changed further in, and it sucks hell lot k. Considering the fact that I'm late three times already. GAH.
4. Mr H is "humorous" and "fast". Cough. On the account that we were let off only at 3 today, and one more thing - they are deaf too I think. Or maybe just don't want to think?

Well, weeks are pasting by like zoomzoomzoom and I know I'll have to work REAL HARD soon. Go xinyun. Go Nh. Go Netball. Go uhm whole S'pore.

Now, for the eh, weird stuff to remind myself not to be so helpless again
After two weeks of self-encouragement, self-helping, self-deceiving (perhaps), it all comes to a naught?
I'm afraid and tired to feel that way again.

It was like everyone leaving me behind, making me feel small and alone.
It was like feeling everyone didn't want to care anything about me at all, or anymore.
Or was it just me, oversuspicious?

Or was it you, who had the intention to make me feel that way?
I avoided because I thought you wouldn't want it.
I didn't dare smile again because I remembered the look of... contemplation? Shocked?! Disgust?!?!

Sorry, just needed to vent my frustration, or whatever.

How can someone make me feel so bad about myself? How did I let myself go into this state? This is bullshit, okay.

I can't believe I still let myself let you control my happiness and sadness.
It's just me, I guess.

Laggy BBQ Photos

Cousin Fiasco

We were studying okay!

But recently I've been slacking :( Really gah I must buck up to study at least a little everyday. Or else I think I'll be uneasy and everything. Suddenly I hear whispers, hissing to me the first thing I should do is to throw my computer away. Haha!

This week passed, and it didn't feel like the 1st week of school of Term 3. It felt like... Term 4 already. Common Tests are only barely two weeks away, prelims, then finally our final examination for our secondary lives. We met Kiank in the library today, and he asked us casually, "Are you scared of O levels? Have you ever thought if you'll get 30 points? What if...?" Gosh, I think he's the one who think too much, I bet! Hahaha.

We sort of studied to 6.50, and headed to IMM, and went home empty-handed. Haha. My ears still hurt :(

Now, I should get some study and sleep afterward. :)

I wonder why everytime I enter this page I feel I have no mood to blog! Anyway news about PSG essay competition. 1st prize is a whooping S$500 (of vouchers? Cash? $_$) Hahaha. "Fear And Success". For Mr K's classes only?! The other classes said it was fear OR success. Doesn't make sense.

Howeverrrrrr there's no chance of winning so shoot it :) And I can't believe Mr K make us write eight paragraphs on different emotions. Sigh.

Today Feini headed over to my house due to... impulse (?) and I taught her a little integration. Haha. Uh, we shopped online and due to... impulse (again? :D) we bought something. Ahhhhh! Hahaha. I've spent a lot of money, and I've been a spendthrift. I wonder how my mother will react. :(

There's Chemistry test tomorrow and I'm not prepared at all? Hahaha great. :( Very good. But I don't know what else I can study except for memorising things all over again - a bore, really - and nothing much else could be done. I hope I'll do well though, I never completed my Chemistry in 1 hour before. Or did, by rushing through. Yay.

Anyway Jingj had fun playing with my phone today. She used frames to take pictures and it was funny. Hahaha will post it up if I'm in the mood to have some mischief (because the pictures are funny)! & Rachel the Nerdy wore spectacles to school today! Hahaha.

I slept through Physics again. (Wow news mansxz.)
& I've decided to change xangskin soon! (If there's such a word, anyway.)
Bathe & it's Chemistry!

Phrase of the day: "Why you never praise me one uh?!" :D