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all ive had to eat today was a little bit of soup.

im not havin much of an appetite at all.

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its been foreverrr.

my bf & i arent together anymore. =/

hurts. </3

alott has been goin rong lately.

i hate not bein able to control things.

i can just feel ana creeping back.

mia already made her way back into my life.

& so hasnt the s.i. ; but hardly.

i cant believe britney shaved her head bald! ]=

wow. its been FOREVER since ive been on here. so much has changed. on the first note, ive gained. alott. i dont even knoe how much i am. but i knoe ive gained. prob somewherer around 170. i need to get back into the dieting, i realllllyyyy do.

on the second note ;; i have a boyfriend & tomorrow is our 2 month. hes the best thing to have everrrr happened to me. hes the most incredible guy. i love him soo much!<3 [= but theres this situation going on with him. hes someplace & we dont knoe wen hell b back. ive been seein him, but this situation is terrible. it hurts. but i wont bother with the story, if yud like to knoe, jjst ask & if i not too emotional over it, ill tell yu about it.

so i hope everyones been doing good! im gna have to start writing in here once again. im gna try to start my diet tomorrow. but im gonna need help! as much as i can get. please help me!

PS. if anyone has myspace, im on there alottttt more often! so add me, just dont mention anything about diets or anything in comments please. messages are good tho! [= www.myspace.com/xomelisserrox to add me, last name: A