Currently Listening Arriving By Chris Tomlin You do all things well see related

Well hello everyone. Supposedly I've been "tagged" by a certain someone who shall remain nameless COUGH COUGH brianna COUGH COUGH and I must update. Therefore here we go...

  First let me say that this week has really drowned me out. I took off of work tonight because I've been working myself so hard that it made me physically sick. After the drivers ed I had this morning from 8-12 I saw Glory Road. Ok... it was A-m-a-z-i-n-g. I love movies like these. These are the type that force me to fulfill my passions and dreams. Sometimes you know you get busy or what not, and you don't focus on the big picture. I use to go out all the time at night in my backyard and look up at the stars and talk to God. It was so great. Then things got hectic and I kind of put him on the shelf for at least a good month- so much that if someone brought Him up, I'd rather not talk to them then hear about it, because I knew I wasn't doing what I was suppose to be doing.

  When I was seven, this minister came to my elementary school and said some of you are born leaders, and when he said that I knew he was talking about me. Ever since then I knew that one day everyone would know my name, I just didn't know how or when or why. It gets frustrating because I want to do what I want to do, but also what God wants for me. All that keeps ringing through my head today has been "You're made for greatness". There's something BIG that I know is going to happen one day, something exciting that will take skill and courage, and I want to be ready for it. In Glory Road, the black people on the team that weren't accepted kept pressing on, no matter what anyone said or did to them and they were successful. I just want to tell all of you that no matter what's going on in your life, God loves you so much. And when you fail Him, He's always waiting there with open arms for you to come home, even if you have to do it 50 times, He accepts you the same.

  All I ever hear is he said, she said garbage. Everyone seems to be concerned about their own well being. There are so many BIGGER problems. Half of the world is starving, people are committing sui,cide daily, people are being the victims of drunk driving. I'm so sick of it, and I'm so sick of the lack of interest, respect, and passion that America's youth has right now. Where's the fire? Go PAST your imagination, go PAST the life you're use to, go PAST your wildest dreams. Waiting past all that is the reason God put you here. I love you guys. Sorry this was so long just hadda get it out

<<3 Faith

As I rest against this cold hard wall, will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun


Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again


Will my weakness fall and and now make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again

He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again

Currently Listening Back at One By Brian McKnight 6, 8, 12 see related

Merry Christmas everyone!!! Christmas is almost over. Got 15 more minutes until its officially gone. This was my last Christmas at home with mom and dad until I move out. That really made me upset, but I know that theres SO MUCH to look forward too. I'm so excited!! I didn't ask for anything because there was nothing I wanted, still I got a ridiculous amount of presents. I just read the first line of my christmas card before I started opening them, and the first line was from my dad it said "You'll always be daddy's little girl." I totally lost it. I still haven't read past that haha maybe tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow I start drivers ed tomorrow for three weeks and then I finally get my license... stupid Texas state laws. Well at least I'll have my car before I'm 18 lol. So I got really sick last night. I could stop coughing and stuffs. Today it got a lot worst, and I haven't been able to sleep really good, BUT I just took NyQuil... gahh gotta love that stuff!! and now im REALLY tired so im gonna go get some sleep. OHhh ohhh and I HAVE TO go see Rumor Has It tomorrow too. looks sooo good!!

----------stole the following from Michaldae--------------- 

FIRSTS

First Best Friend: Vanessa

First SN: Nsyncgirl1750 (haha whatever you know they rock)
First Pet dog name: Scruffy
First Piercing: ears when i was a baby
First Crush: Josh
First CD: hmm.. probably lion king soundtrack lol or nsync
First School: Faith Academy yeahh yeahh recognize ;)
First kiss: Ryan
First Friend on MySpace: other than Tom, it'd be Joe 

9 Lasts

Last Time You Smoked: lets not talk about that
Last Food You Ate: Lasagna! 

Last Car Ride: today with my dad around saginaw. cause there was not much to do otherwise on Christmas

Last Movie You Watched: I think it was Van Wilder... or maybe the In Crown 
Last Phone Call: im on the phone right now. and that would be with Jocelyn and Leah
Last Makeout session: haha... that'd be w/ my last bf 
Last Bubble Bath You took: few weeks ago. they rock yo
Last Book You Read: i think it was 1984. good book.
Last Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Chase
 
8 Have You Evers

Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: nope 
Have You Ever Been Arrested: lol no!!
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: perhaps
Have You Ever Been on TV: yeah
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: i dont regret anything. if i make a mistake i learn from it. trial and error 
Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: ha yeah right. Nope.
Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: well with someone i never met before yeah. and it worked out quite well let me just say
Have You Ever Been out of the closet: hahaha well i walk in my closet daily to get clothes, so in that sense perhaps. but the otherway.. mmm nope boys are my style

7 Things You are Wearing
7 Things you are wearing
1. AF polo
2. AF undershirt
3. polka dot socks
4. ring my gma got me for christmas
5. AF jeans

6. sparkly belt
7. a smile :)

6 Things You've Done Today
6 Things You've Done Today
1. opened lots of presents
2. cried when I read the first line of my parents' card to me
3. ate a massive amount of cherries
4. talked to this boy ;)
5. downloaded some more songs from itunes

6. thanked God for blessing me with an amazing family
 
5 Favorite Things
1.  acting
2. dancing- whether on stage.. clubs.. whatever

3. singing
4. kiissing
5. dancing in the rain


Four people you most trust

1. God
2. myself

 3. Jocelyn
4. My aunt Dawn3 Choices

Three Choices
1. Vanilla or Chocolate: vanilla ice cream, chocolate everything else
2. Hugs or Kisse: kiisses
3. Pens or Pencils: pens

2 Things You Want to do Before You Die:
Two things you want to do before you die
1. be famous for something amazing
2. fall in love and  get married to that person and have a great big family!!
 

1 person you want to see right now: now:
1. well after last nights convo... Luciano

Currently Listening Going Under By Evanescence see related

  Alright so Christmas vacation has just officially started!!! Yessssssss!! I'm so happy because I've been so busy lately and now I FINALLY get to relax! Yaa that Bible final was way easy. Im goin to see cheaper by the dozen in a few minutes haha whatever I love steve martin. Tonightss I got work and oh my gosh I get to sleep in tomorrow oh wow that just sounds way too wonderful. Christmas is soo soon and I still have shopping to do. Ohhh and i MUST go to holiday in the park at six flags again before christmas! so yeahh friday night is sounding pretty good. i got a bunch of 17 dollar passes so if you wanna come lemme know yo. k gotta go Pzzzzz.

Currently Listening What the Game's Been Missing! By Juelz Santana The Whistle Song see related

Hiiii so wow I got my first job yesterday!! He told me to come back in an hour and start working haha so im a hostess at Nick's Restaurant by my house. Come by and visit me!! Thing that sux though is that I cant go caroling with the musical gang this thursday cause of work blahh really wanted to go. Well I'm leaving for Six Flags Holiday in the Park in about 20 minutos then schizool tomorrow and getting my hair done... FINALLY! yessss heres a REALLY OLD PICTURE but i thought it was cute so yeahh.

                          Me     and     Jocelyn

Currently Listening Can I Have It Like That Pt.1 By Pharrell (Ft Gwen Stefani) Williams see related

  This morning, I woke up on my own, without my alarm or my dad gettin me up. When I checked my cell it said it was 7:45. Yessssss I overslept!!! Then my phone starts ringing. My friend said that we still had school today.RAWR. well i couldnt see why we wouldnt, there wasnt any snow or ice (like the weather forecast had promised me!!) 70%'ly anyways. Before I went to bed that night I prayed for ice pellets to fall from the sky lol. So yeah.. I was pretty disappointed about the whole school thing and my dad woke up five minutes later to just add on to everything. So I started getting ready... when I heard a wonderful sound... Drop-_-..Drop-_-.. could it be??!

  I looked out my window and sure enough ICE PELLETS !! yesssssssssssssss!!! I was so flippin happy, then my school called and said it was canceled. Thank God i overslept or I would've been on my way there. So yeah I was all happy and everything, but seriously wow today was so boring. There was absolutely nothing to do. My dad wouldn't let me go anywhere cause of the slippery road. So I didn't get to look for my job yet, I think I'm gonna keep that for friday.

   Now my dad is making me go to driving school for three weeks after Christmas before I get my license. see... i have a reason I dont have my license yet, its this whole thing with me moving from new york to Texas and blah blah blah. if you really wanna know just tell me some other time. So yeah... licence is on January 18th!!! Either getting a mercedes.. or a bmw... or perhaps a hummer. Not sure yet, but I found this really cute mercedes im leaning towards, but we'll see. anyways i found this and I really like it... not sure why, doesnt have to do with anything with me at the moment.. but its good

<<3 Faith

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way youre always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when youre not around,
and the fact that you didnt call.
But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

By the way- I have just been informed that LCCS has no school tomorrow. AGAIN! woohoo!!!