Yesterday was not a good day… I actually cried (shush, boys are not supposed to cry). I’m so scared about was is going to happen, my life is going so quickly in front of me and there is no way for me to stop it, it seems like when there is something good in my life, I find out something that brings me back down to the lowest of points that I have been…. I have been there so many times, it’s like second nature to me; I am so confused right now, I don’t know what to do, say, or even think.
*Tears start to fall* why am I crying right now, its not like I can do anything to stop it happening, its “nature” as the people say, it’s just not meant to be. BUT WHY NOT!! Why do all these things happen to me, I am alone with no family and all these things that occur are just eaten up inside of me.
Sorry Ambie, I said I wouldn’t do it again but I have, I started doing it last night 
I’m so weak... I try to overcome these emotions that I have buts its hard for a 17 year old to have to deal with this, to have all your family die expect your mother, be beaten when you was a child by your mums boyfriend and have the scars to show for it, have a father that you have never seen and left your mother when she was pregnant with you. How do you think that makes me feel? He doesn’t want to know anything about me I’m like nothing to him, I bet a piece of dirt from his shoe counts for more then I do in his eyes. Oh and by the way the list goes on and on and I am sure that it will get bigger when I get older.
I really need to talk to my mum about what I am feeling but I am scared of what she will say, she will try to see the bright side of things but there really isn’t, I mean how is there… nothing good can come out from this.
I’m gonna go, I am feeling so bad right now and I hate it. I have been so upset and crying grr
Anyway buh bye
I took a quiz to make me feel better
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mr andyru made a new one yep yep thats true indeed
SONNY THE MAGICIAN
