I'll never let this go.

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Things have been hella busy.

Mmm.
Spent the day/night with Mike.
I just love love love kissing him :)
<3

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01.
I don't know, it's like we're two halves of the same person, or something. And when we're apart we...we just aren't happy.- Desperate Housewives

02.
Why does everything feel so much better now that you're here? - Forces of Nature

03.
My point is, there are a lot of people in the world. No one ever sees everything the same way you do; it just doesn't happen. So when you find one person who gets a couple of things, especially if they're important ones... you might as well hold on to them. -Sarah Dessen, Lock and Key

04.
Well I'm battered down
I'm burnt out like a half of a cigarette
and I'm passed out on the floor
Thinking "am I happy yet?"

05.
i'll pull on your hair if you'll pull on my hips.
bring me closer because i need to feel you all over.

06.
"When the rich wage war,
it's the poor who die."
- Linkin Park

07.
Cause’ tonight’s the night
the world begins again.
- GooGoo Dolls

08.
She laughed when there was no joke. She danced when there was no music. She was elusive. She was today. She was tomorrow. She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting shadow of an elf owl. We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard, like a butterfly, but the pin merely went through and away she flew.
-Stargirl

09.
She was bendable light.
She shone around every corner of my day.
-Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli

10.
someday is now, and i love you.
please don't leave me again.
people always leave.
- One Tree Hill

11.
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
"Wonderful" - Everclear

<3

12.
Don't ever change the way you are.
I've never loved anyone more.

13.
how do you walk with your head held high?
can you even look me in the eye?
- Pink

14.
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me
And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
18th floor balcony by blue october

15.
We want a band that plays loud and hard every night,
that doesn't care how many people are counted at the door.
That would travel one million miles
and ask for nothing more than a plate of food and a place to rest.
They'd strike chords that cut like a knife.
It would mean so much more than t-shirts or a ticket stub.
They stop at nothing short of a massacre,
everyone would leave with a memory
that there was no place else in the world
and this was where they always belonged.
We would dance like no one was watching,
with one fist in the air.
Our area just basements and bookstores across an underground America.
With this fire we could light,
just gimme a scene where the music is free.

Step by step.

If there's one thing I really fucking hate is ignorance.
I'm so glad I'm not an inconsiderate, ignorant douchebag.

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01.
Cause I don't feel like I was real
until you were a part of me.
- Jason Reeves

02.
There's a part in everyday,
where I lie to myself and say that it's okay.
cause if I don't I think I'll go insane.
But the truth is, I only have myself to blame.
- spill canvas

03.
hello again, it's you and me
kinda always like it used to be
- Bon Jovi

04.
Because you take me away
from everything and everyone
That's held me back for so long
Heaven for a few days makes up
for all the hell that lifes dealt me

05.
"That's what I mean. You think about things that aren't important. Like who's got more status than the other person. And you make your decisions about that based on things like clothes and friends and where people sit in the lunchroom and who people hang out with. And if people aren't just like you, you think they're not worthy and that nobody else who matters to you thinks they're worthy. And so you write those people off. I remember when you weren't like that. I remember when you cared about things that mattered and when you weren't always sizing everything and everyone up all the time. And I liked you a lot then."

06.
Hello my name is “Payback” They call me “Karma” for short I’m the one we all rely on To settle the score…
Won the battle you may But the war is far from done And when you least expect it Is when it’s my turn to have my fun…
You’ll soon see what it feels like To have it done to you Humble I will make you Before this night is through…
So before you think of hurting Another don’t forget That it is “I” that they call “Karma” But it is “YOU” who will regret

07.
If you hear a song that makes you cry and you don't want to cry anymore,
you don't listen to that song anymore. But you can't get away from yourself.
You can't decide not to see yourself anymore.
You can't decide to turn off the noise in your head.
-Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher

08.
Just listen to me on one thing.
Everyday you wait is one day you'll never get back.
trust me on that.
-One Tree Hill

09.
I need a reason to stay here.
I need a reason to wake up
and not care that it's raining.
- Grey's Anatomy

10.
"It was only once it was finished that I was able to see that all along, I should have been taking my own advice. Not over thinking, backtracking, or obsessing."
-Just Listen; Sarah Dessen

11.
I've always wanted to be with you. I was just afraid that you would get tired of me. I wasn't sure I could handle losing you. Then I realized that I would rather spend five minutes with you than a lifetime without you.
-Revenge Of The Homecoming Queen by Stephanie Hale

12.
I like it when I look out of my window, and realize that I'm not going to be here forever.

13.
There's gotta be more to life than this.
Theres got to be more to everything i thought exists.
-youth of a nation by p.o.d

14.
You've got to understand that it took me a lot of courage to make myself come to the realization that everything that I've ever wanted & needed is found within you. And for me to put everything aside again, everything that you once broke, is a remarkable task that took a lot of strength & faith in me. They say sometimes people put walls up, not because they want to block people out, but because they want to see who cares enough to knock them down. You know me like no one else does because I never was able to let anyone in, & you don't even know how glad & thankful I am that I gave you the chance. You stayed at our best, yet you stuck at it at our worse, & proved to me what truth in love still has. The sky is the limit & true love really is forever.

15.
She likened it to a childhood crush, such strong almost obsessive feelings, but more, it had depth. She felt attracted to everything about him, the way he talked, the way he dressed, the words he used, his apparent innocence. Yet he was filled with a deep knowledge of wise insights. He always said the right things, even when she didn't want to hear them. The darkness lifted and she could suddenly see beyond. When he breezed into the room, he brought clarity and brightness with him. He was walking hope and she could tell that things for her be... not fantastic or wonderful or happily ever after, but that they could be okay. And that was enough. -Cecelia Ahern, If You Could See Me Now

ANTM:
I really wish Majorie could see how great she is. Her negative isn't annoying to me, but the fact that everytime she talks, it seems like she's gonna cry does. Samantha is pissing me off too. She's sucha douchebagel & dumb. I'm really surprised Clarke went home. Idk, at this point I can't see any of the girls winning. I still love Sheena & Elaina & Anna though.

I can taste it in your tears.

Man I have so much going on right now it's crazy.
I really have to buckle down on applying to colleges & doing my essays & shit for scholarships.
So I'll be updating as much as I can, but if I don't update everyday, don't blame me.

This post will mostly feature Leighton Meester icons/photos.

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Vivian: I appreciate this whole seduction thing you've got going on here, but let me give you a tip: I'm a sure thing.
- Pretty Woman

Vivian: I'm gonna treat you so nice, you're never gonna let me go.
- Pretty Woman

Edward Lewis: So what happens after he climbs up and rescues her?
Vivian: She rescues him right back.
- Pretty Woman

There's nothing to know, don't you get that?
You'll get to know me and then wonder why you bothered.
I'm not anything you think I am.
You're not going to break my defenses and find some sweet soft center

There’s a whole entire world bursting with beautiful language,
enormous, crushing emotions
and stories so powerful they break your heart in two
[ Innocence – Kathleen Tessaro ]

i miss you, i do. i love you.
everyday i wake up and have this ache in my chest.
and sometimes i just sleep in because
i know when i wake up you're not gonna be there.
-one tree hill

I don't even know what I want.
Maybe I just want to be someone's everything.
A good morning and good night

Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
- Honey and the Moon

he said 'i bet you don't remember me.'
i said 'only every other memory.
- Tim McGraw

You've had my heart since hello.
Nothing will ever change that.
Not distance, not time, not space.
Nothing will ever take my heart
away from you. [Jerry Maguire]

I woke up this morning,
I found that I had a smile on my face.
I asked myself, "Whats this for?"
And I remembered you.
And I thought of you.

cause I've never felt like this before
so take my lips and make them yours
- Ferras

I come in here and I sit in silence
and hear the echoes of who we used to be.
And so I wish for patience, and grace,
and strength to just let him be happy.
- One Tree Hill

I already forget how
I used to feel about you
- eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

"I never think there's a bitch,
theres a hurt soul underneath that."
-tyra banks

Politics.

Alright I'm absolutely fucking sick of people thinking they know anything about politics lately.
Everyone's either McCain this or Obama that.
Let ME throw out a curve ball ::

I SUPPORT BOTH PARTIES AND BOTH CANDIDATES !

How's that for a change huh?
Everyone thinks they know shit about what's going on when they don't.
McCain and Obama are GREAT candidates & whoever wins this election will be a great president.

McCain and Obama have good plans for each thing & I'm sick to DEATH of hearing people say that it's a whole race issue.
IT. IS. NOT. A. RACE. ISSUE.
Maybe when Obama first entered the running it was, but now the fact that he's black has nothing to do with it.
And I love how people think they know all there is to know about what he morally stands for.
The big thing I keep hearing is that he refuses to wear a flag pin on his suit.
DID ANYONE WATCH THE DEMOCRATIC NATIONAL CONVENTION?!
HE HAD A FUCKING FLAG PIN ON HIS SUIT.
Are ya'll that dense?
And so whatt if he wants to take "under god" out of the pledge & off of money & who CARES if he doesn't put his hand over his heart.
This country is based on freedom of religion & the reason he says those things because there are people who DON'T believe in God or DON'T have a religion.
I AM ONE OF THEM.
And if that is  what you're REALLY concerned with then you're wasting your time.
And he didn't say he's meet with Middle East leaders without precautions.
He CLEARLY agreed with McCain that precautions would need to be established, but that he'd still meet with them.

John McCain is a great Republican leader. He also is in the middle with a lot of things.
Granted, his VP pick would've been better if he chose Lieberman, but still.
He may have backed Bush 90% of the time  but he is NOT George W. Bush.
I am a supporter of Bush anyway.
He has a lot of different plans than what Bush would establish & I'm sick of people thinking he's just gonna be another Bush.
He's JOHN MCCAIN not GEORGE W. BUSH.

Everyone should fucking learn something about Poly Sci for real.

And if anyone has a problem with anything I say, take it up with me.
Go ahead and judge me, I fucking LOVE IT.
I know what the hell I'm talking about.
A lot of people need to do research on their shit.

If you support McCain over Obama, I support you.
If you support Obama over McCain, I support you.
I will defend both.

Currently Listening The Papercut Chronicles By Gym Class Heroes Papercuts see related

I wanna be loved by you.

 So today was a lot of fun.
I got to hang out w.Jessica, my best friend.
We don't get much time to hang out outside of school cause she's really busy with her boyfriend.
She came over, then we got italian ice & went to see Lakeview Terrace [which was really good btw]
It was so much fun.

I got this new birth control tonight called VCF.
It's the contraceptive film & Jessica says it works really well.
I'm gonna still make Mike use a condom, but yeah, it's always nice to be extra safe.
It's also supposed to increase yer sex drive & I'm sooo down fer that ;)
A whole bunch of friends & I are going to the beach tomorrow & I hope Mike comes.
I really hope we get back together, but I'm just waiting things out.

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I wish that you needed me, I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
actually I meant three. I wish that without me, your heart would break.
Yeah, I wish that without me, you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me, you couldn't eat.
Yeah, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.
Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen,
and I wish we could see if we could be something.

I never used to be able to understand how someone could be afraid to show someone that they care about them. The whole concept didn't make any sense to me. Now I understand it a little too well. When you care about someone, you give them the chance to hurt you. After the way you played with my head, I couldn't stand to get hurt again. I can't get too close. I'm afraid to care. I'm afraid to feel.
-» Talia

Somedays I hate everything, everyone & everything,
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now. -» Everclear

"You wrote that the world doesn't need a savior, but everyday I hear people crying for one."
>>Superman<<

He's got a big gold ring what says "Jesus Saves "
And it's dented from the punch thrown at work that day
When he smashed the metal locker where he kept his things
After the big boss said, "You best be on your way"

^^ I figured since the movie just came out, I'd put a quote up.

Your hands are on me and I'm pressing hard
against your jeans. Your tongue in my mouth
trying to keep the words from coming out.

I want you. I want all of you.
Forever, you and me, everyday.

We talked a little today. We shared some civil, almost light or humorous words. And yet it didn't feel the way it used to, I didn't get the feeling that I used to. Rather, there was a knot in my stomach. You looked in my eyes as we sat across from each other and I held it as long as I could handle, but this time, I was the first to look away. Nothing is the same anymore. The looks aren't the same, the bond isn't the same. Nothing is the same.

It was one of those moments that you wish you could just disappear. every particle in you shrinking. but, that I know, was impossible. - The Truth About Forever

And for some inexpeclicable reason, standing here on a mound of sweatpants mixed with t-shirts in his clothes, in his room, under these conditions, i couldn't feel more beautiful.
-Red is for Rememberance-

Sometimes its easier to just become what everyone expects of you.
-Red is for Rememberance-

I refuse to accept other people's ideas of happiness for me.
As if there's a "one size fits all" standard for happiness.
Regardless of your position in life, no one but you is qualified
to determine your happiness.
-kanye west

It's about quarter past eight and I'm waiting on the corner where you said we would meet. Well, it's about three hours later and I'm still standing in the rain. But its alright you forgot, because my hair needed washing anyway. It's alright, I'm completely over it. You must have just forgot it was tonight or maybe your grandma's ill or something, you broke a limb, got done in by a gang of angry muggers or maybe you're just a fucker.

Vivian: Tell me one person who it's worked out for.
Kit: What, you want me to name someone? You want like a name? Oh, God, the pressure of a name... I got it. Cindafuckin'rella
- Pretty Woman

^^ I got this postsecret when I was a virgin. but I was never ashamed. & no girl who's a virgin should feel ashamed of it either :)