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Name: ++ KRYSYTNE
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Daytona Beach
Interests: hanging with my friends. movies. surfing. getting in the hot-tub. playing with boys. sleeping. eating. chatting. shopping. reading mags. playing gutair. tennis.shopping. visiting my friends in dacula, ga. talking. wakeboarding. skimboarding. checking out sk8ers. walking. the beach. boats. jetskies. tubing. swiming. chilling on the dock. food. fishing. ridding my horse. long walks on the beach. hotties with a tan. music.((punk rock)) greenday<3. yellowcard. linkin park. the killers. jimmy buffet. simple plan. bon jovi. jack's mannequin. my chemical romance. the used. the all-american rejects. fall out boy. ACDC. new found glory. foo fighters. relient k. hawthorne heights. bowling for soup. blink-182. linkin park. crossfade. breaking benjamin. nickelback. switchfoot. sum 41. gorillaz. coldplay. 3 doors down. dashboard confessionals. panic at the disco. hot hot heat. gravy train. motion city soundtrack. plain white T's. head automatica. riding 4-wheelers, talking to my b.f.f - bo <3
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AIM:  TRAGiC CRASH x3
AIM:  biLLiBoNgSuRf3r
AIM:  xox krystyne xox
AIM:  xlxkrystynexlx
Member Since:
3/26/2005
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bittersweet chaos 
well guyss. things are rather crazyy right now. things aren;t looking too great. but things will get better like always. im having boy trouble as usual.
yeahh. i broke up with allen. we had been together for a year. he was such a jerk to me. he made me feel horrible about myself. and it wasnt fair because no one should have to deal with it. he sent me roses on valentines day. and i hate roses. and valentines day. yeahh then i started dating my best friend chase. didnt work out. he got all mad at me. when he was just listening to his friend who liked me. go figure.
then a while later i had my eye set on this one dude. but...
naww. hes shy i guess. idk. but its not happening. so thats the deal. 
+ + today. 
+ + random thoughtss. 
BO & i okayy. dont laugh but my smile looks weird. and that would because i do not like to smile in pixx and ya'll all know parents. ""COME ON...SMILE!.....please?"" haha. yeahh. thats how it goes. 
these would just so happen to be BLOGS from my myspace. check it out. link at the top riiight. ktnx. "" it's funny how things work out. the ones we need, don't know we're there. if i were sand && you were oceans, the moon would be why you're pulled to me. i wake up and think dreams are real. i sleep so i don't have to feel, the truth that you can't ever be, the one person that won't forget me. i hope that dreams come when i die, so we can talk. i wont wake up. ill ask you how your life worked out. illnever know that im just dreaming. i wake up && think dreams are real. i sleep so i dont have to feel, the truth that you can't ever bethe one person that won't ever forget me. [let me sleep.] "" 
I don't need therapy. It's not my fault there's a disaster every time I blink. I want to fucking move on and leave it behind me. Now I walk around all the time feeling like everybody's gonna murder me. 
[[i dont blame myself anymore.]] 
R.I.P. Alexa Kim Tuesday, June 8, 2004 1/13/07 -  okayy. so last night was jan 13. && i went to charolette, nc to see senses fail in concert. with the sleeping, alexisonfire, saosin. it was totally kick ass. im so glad that i went. im still supper excited. and its the next day!! hehe :] i got home at like 2am and fianlly went to sleep around 3am. im so tired. i feel like i crashed a major out of control party. but its a good feeling. or atleast i like it. =D 
tangled hips, locked lips  
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and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right
Friday Dec 1
went something like this: + + i went to the career center today. let me tell you it was wonderful! i was late for school. and by the time i got to the high school the two busses to the career center were leaving. so dad went ahead and took me to the career center. i saw- joey. this dude that i've been talking to for about a month now. he's supper sweet! but yeahh i saw him and his build & construction teacher was like ""ya'll dating?"" we both were like ""nope"" his teacher was like ""mann you gotta. just date her. here- what are you doing sat. after joey's match?"" gahh it was supper funny. but joey is on his school's wrestling team. we go to different schools. but i didn't tell him that i was the manager for the wrestling team at my school! =] hehe. soo shh! im hoping to catch him on the surprise attack you know? maybe- or maybe he'll be with another girl. i hate boys. total hearbreakers. but i do prefer guy friends over having friends that are chicks. anywyas back on subject, we wokred on our resturant projects in culinary arts. then i went back to my school, and went to enjoy the extramly loud class we call- ENGLISH: with Ms. JOPLIN. haha. yeahh evan wasnt there today. but we were reading ""THE TRAGEDY OF JULIUS CAESAR"" by shakespher (sp?) anyays. yeah it's rather boring. well pretty much everyone in this tragic play dies. including the main character. [huge bummer] so yeah- either someone kills them or they kill themselves. [not bright] so yeahh well we're having a test so total reveiw day. && john ryan exclaims ""i know why the world is the way it is! its because of shakespher! see- in all his plays people kill people and people kill theirselves! thats why people do stupid crap like that today!"" yeah, funny stuff. blame shakespher for the the world's well-being in mordern today. uhmm uh. well, then i went to lunch and ate with jake, brian, charlie, and hashim. the wind was blowing really hard. and we eat on styrofoam plates. well teh wint caught jake's, the plate flew up and hit charlie. he had ketchup all over! even on his nose. it was suppper funny. i was laughing my buttoX off! after that i went to spanish 2. yeahh there was a substatue teacher and ms greene left us like 5 flipping worksheets. totally not cool. so yeah, mom picked me up adn we went to sears and bi-lo. 'cause today is my dad's birthday, and bo's! so happy birthday guys! 
never in my life did i expect to find someone like you; just waiting on my doorstep. could this be hopes and dreams set to high? or false emotions run dry. please don't become a terriable mistake. such a tragedy could break a heart or shatter bones. change is unique, never know which twist and turn could affect you future in a world so curel. ohh dear God, please help me out. don't let me fall. i'm crying pain, this bleeding wont stop, the nightmares wont fade. surrounded by total darkness. its a crime without justice. promises unkeep. 
 
 random things like = planes, funny faces 
CRASH thats what you and me started out so innocently shattered to the ground i here the sound CRASH ringing in me ears i still feel the sting of my tears someone wake me i cant seem to break free 
&& asking for the truth I know more than you think, the lies I see in your eyes, the fakeness in your tears, so help me God, to break free, things never seemed so right, you didn’t have to treat me the way you did. I’m terribly sorry for this in convenient truth, in your arms I’ll rest tonight, slit my writs and pray that I may forever escape, the tragic pain of teenage love. So much for the past year, I poured it down the drain With all the blood and pain I got from Your eyes, oh your eyes, I’m burning out my bedside, && I’m rotting out my insides slowly I was the hand that held your hair back from your face, Now one must forget the way you taste, I love you so damn much, I’ll even start to pray, I’ll put my faith in all your bullshit if it means you stay, 
Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."
One day she will tell you that she has had enough
it's coming round again.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough." -red jumpsuit apparatus
FROM FIRST TO LAST 
austin, ethan, && chase. it's the end of the morning what have i done? it's finally getting warmer oh God what have i done? prayers for your soul while hoping mine would leave this awful place sometime somewhere better with no more pain you won't love him you'll love me again i was the one the one who was always here fate seeks my soul and it's drawing near i'd die today if you could forgive me, dear i said that anything mattered... words i'd sing you a song i'd love you if i knew how it's too late to hold or kiss you now He wont remember were made perfect somehow "this morning is different" ... words i look down she's asleep in a place she can smile again the world will forget her as she disappears to them i swore i'd love her i'd rather pretend "all these tears are for you" ... words with poison within me and everything still i know now what i have to do (what i never will) i will lift up my eyes to the hills promises, promises, promises ... words -CHASE 
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a wishful thinker
with the worst intentions + + This Past Weekend okayy so this weekend was a 4 day weekend. yeahh. it was alright. a lot of stuff happened, && a lot of plans got changed. this is all that was SUPPOSE to happen. <friday> go over to allen's uncle's house to visit him and his cousins, matt && april. <saturday> maggie comes up from Atlanta.[[the ATL, baby!]] <sunday> church (maybe). hang out with maggie. <monday> maybe hang out with allen and also hang out with maggie. && this is what REALLYYY went D0WN. <firday> hung out with allen and his family. i find out that maggie isnt coming up. her friend got in a accident and died. my parents said that i should call her and talk to her a bit about it since i went through that too. <saturday> i went to a tractor show with allen up in Dacusville. it was a "all day sort of thing". <sunday> i got up and went to church with allen and then went to allen's parent's friends' house to eat some itlain food. uhmm uhmm good. <monday> i hung around the house with my parents. i fished a bit and rode the jet skis. kendal had her friends over. that was a little annoying. && then i went over to the barn and rode my horse. that was my weekend. 
© © © her heart finally realized.
what her head knew all along. 
Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel
I know exactly what goes on
When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
well which would you prefer
My finger on the trigger, or
Me face down, down across your floor
Well just so long as this thing's loaded
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
let's go...
Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
how about I'm outside of your window
Watchin him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker
for a sweet talker, yeah
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
I stay jealous
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life! 
THEY'RE ONLY CHASING SAFTEY.- UNDEROATH CAN YOU FEEL YOUR HEART BEAT RACING, CAN YOU TASTE THE FEAR IN HER SWEAT. YOU'VE DONT THIS WRONG IT'S TOO FAR GONE. THESE SHEETS TELL OF REGRET. I'LL ADMIT. I ADMIT, IM JUST A FOOL FOR YOU. IM JUST A FOOL FOR YOU. 
random thoughtsss am i honestly that bad of a person as you say i am. im not what you or anyone else thinks. trust me, this girl has had her fair share of the pain from a broken heart. and somethings changed me. a feeling from deep inside arises from unknown. im changing, the way i felt isnt there. the hurt is gone. but really how i see this world that we live in is in fact still just the same. maybe change is good after all. its help me through a lot of things. all i know is that therers another day ahead but for right now and at this very moment in time im wanting to show you, to tell you how i see things. trust me when i say, theres more to me than meets the eye. im not what you expect... september 5, 2006 theres nothing about september. it has nothing interesting about it. its just there. a month, a 4 week period in time that was given that name. i has no holidays, the surroundings do not change. the leaves are not falling like in Oct. its not raining like it would in April, and its diffenetly not snowing nor is it hot as july. its blah and boring. latly i've been thinking of the past. "the good summer" more than anything else. id have to say that: that summer, those few months, before i moved to the country was the best thing that could have happened to a girl like me. one day ill write a book. of my life. or possiably just my teenage years. i dont mean to complpain about my life. its great despite all the events that have taken place to try to bring me down to nothing. i guess i was a born fighter. in a way. it was a struggle alright. i think one of the hardest things a person could ever face is that person itself. emotions- thats what makes my world rotate. with out emotions. life would be boring. and without emotions i could write as i am write to you now. life would take a turn, change completly, its appearence would not look the way it should. but the one emotion that i hate.(or should i say hated?) it hurts, it kills. suicidal romance. its real. [[alex kim-RIP]] but people over look that asspect of life. those strong emotions that can take a person and make them thing completly different. to fight against it. its the hardest thing to do. to over look all the murderous words that people say, and all the horriable thoughts and feelings that come out of the things they say. but love- yes. it kills. love was said to be a beautiful thing. a gift. but i over looked that. i did not believe in love. and i was never the type of person to trust another with love or for that matter anything. i always was sure to keep my distance from guys. never get to close because the minute you decide to take that breathless chance. is the minute your heart breaks. and as you snap back to reality, you'll never be the same. but all these memories drift back. maybe they'll cause a nightmare or the past or leave me with a hunger to go back....thats all i've ever really wanted to do. i remeber my 1st year in the country. i cried and cried. all i wanted was to go back to Atlanta where all my friends had been. but i became friends with a guy named Drew. im prertty sure he was the only one that would even talk to me. but he reminded me of this guy i knew in GA named Colin. that friendship just seemed to click a bit like lego's. i called and talked to bo every night. && i would cry on the phone with him. i told them both how much i wanted to leave. but i didnt. and everywhere i trurned someone at my school reminded me of someone back in Atlanta. anyone and everyone. i guess most of all i miss bo. and how we hung out until 2 in the morning sometimes. but the past fades and time is always moving. and so am i. i cannot bare to stand somewhere and do nothing. give me a pen and paper- with that..my world opens and i can stay bussy for hours. but i think people have the wrong impression of me. im not who they all think. they're to quick to put a label on me. i remember how i had, had a ton of friends. now, theres none. i have angel, but as for girls...thats all. i desire for a friend, i desire to be loved, i desire to be myself, and i desire to let people know just who i am. so maybe thats why im writing all the numerous words to you. to let you know a bit more about this girl that tends to be pushed away to just about anyone that she turns too. or is it because i see the world and other things such as people differently. like for example... the language of a love letter is the same as a suicide note. this here, is a love letter. love, krystyne x0x0 R.I.P. - Alex Randall Kim  you were loved.
[[just look deeper]] && you'll see what im talking about. gahh- i swear- if it werent for these emotions id suck at writing this way. 
Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I've finally had enough."
One day she will tell you that she has had enough
he's coming round again.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I've finally had enough."
i started playing in the rain; i am who i am; && ill never change. and i hope lightining strikes me down. ill show you and this whole town that im one in a million. i never wanted to fit in any place except your heart. but we grew appart... now rainy days are all i have and i keep dreaming in the past. you keep me awake. no more i can take. keep me breathing, keep me breathing.... 
[[everyone has a story.]] [[each one is different.]] [[i have one.]] [[it'll shock you.]] [[so before you begin to ,]] +++++ STREOTYPE, me [[know it.]] [[know me.]] no ones perfect out of all people i should know. everyone is rejected once in their lifetime. everyone is put down. everyone has people that hate them. but for me... thats very different. maybe im weird. weird- different not the usual. just becasue something//someone is different dose not mean that they're weird. i dont like to see people jugde by the clothes they wear. the people they hang out with. or how much money they have. life is too short to hang on to the things that in the end will matter absolutly nothing. [[but my sotry...]] [[it's different alright.]] [[it's deep.]] [[ i don't trust people.]] [[i get heartbroken easly.]] [[but when i finally did,]] [[decide to love someone,]] [[and they actually loved me,]] [[in retrun.]] [[i was shocked.]] [[someone loved me..the girl]] [[that nobody could love..]] but it changed me. in my mind and how i feel about my world around me. the lack of happiness has faded to nothingness. and theres a faint smile on my face. deep inside im jumping as high as the clouds. and screaming because im happy...and have no idea what else to do when im happy. ++thats not a emotion that occurs to me a lot.++ but i believe that when a person becomes so happy that they have no idea what to do except laugh...its a great thing. and i believe that when someone falls in love woth another person, they're lives will change. and weather or not they are still together. they'r elives will remain changed. because love never dies. and the feeling will always be there. thenn.... appart of me is like..... damn. im going to get tangled up into a whirl of mixed emotions that play and torment the teenage mind. unreal and fake things said that sound so perfect..can, in fact, tear down a person to peices. when the end comes to a haulting stop...... such a beautiful lie. it kills. &&- it was just another teenage tragedy.___×0Xo  
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life itself. seems so overated. 
+ + last niight
&& you just got to meet these guys!! eric he's one of my best friends. love him like a brother. he's just so..so.....uhh so.. goofy and funny that you have to love 'em. he always seems to be able to make me laugh when im having the worst day someone possible could. drew [[ THE HORSE!! =) ]] this kid is one of my best friends in the whole WORLD! he's the first person in south carolina that actually cared to have a conversation with me! yeah yeah thats him alright. why the heck hes gone prep no one will ever seem to know. i think he hit his head in that last rodeo. chase
[[fatty mc muffins!!]] okayy guys this is like the ultimate friend. we are such a like its crazyy. like i use to think that nobody could possible be anything like me. well i meet chase and that was a wake up call. really guyys. he's awesome. we both like the same music - emo, and our personalities are just about the same. really. angel
angel is like my sister. sometimes i think me and her are complete opposites, but somehow we stick together and are the best of friends. we havnt hung out that much this year. but heyy its okayy. still love love her! braden he's like super tall. and super funny. i guess its like superbraden!! =] haha. kind of like "whats going on down there?" hashim okayy guys this is my little arabic friend. he's almost retarted sometimes. and bothersome. but who cares. he think's hes such a "lady's man". he's "pick up lines" are so corny!! tyler [[the COKE BOTTLES!!]] we give each other advice. i swear last year- high school 102 was like story time for us. especialy on mondays 'cause of the crazzyy weekeneds we always had. evan i guess that during the past years i jugded evan wrong. i got to know him more this past year and he's pretty cool. for a prep. i saw him in the hall one day and asked why the heck he was wearing a DC hoodie. he was like dont say it dont say it....so i did! =] i was like 'cause your a prep!! hehe but yeahh thats even with muh iPod! bo bo is like my ultimate best friend. i meet bo when i was 13 and he was 15. its been 3 years now, he knows everything there is to possible know about me. [[thats amazing- it took 3 years! lol]] he's going to be a senior next year, im not supose to remind him that. but then, he goes to college and hopefully he'll go to clemson!! or somewhere close!! *crosses fingers* he's supper smart and is in all honnor classes plus makes all A's, varsity football player [[like the star! uh DUH!]] runs track, somehow that boy manages to do it all. really. everything. 'cause you can do anything!  
 
my life is made of.
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