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go to it and leave me sum comments bitches!!!

luv ya all!!!

<3<3<3

*muah*

~mandy~

sooooo yesterday was fuckin 420 ... and fuckin awsome!!! did everyone have fun??? i sure as hell did... haha!!!

soooooo...ya... havent talked to eric today or yesterday... dunno why hes not answerin his phone???he better call me tho... i miss him soooooo fuckin much... seriously  i do... i want to be with him still... but ya... it fuckin sucks...

soooo lacey i love u sooooooooooooooooooooo fuckin much!!! seriously!!!

ok... well thats all i gotta say...

luv ya all!!!

<3<3<3

*muah*

~mandy~

bored so i jus found sum pics...

haha.... that shit was funny!!!

HELL YA ITS FUCKIN 420 TOMORROW!!!

hahahaha... that shit is fuckin funny as hell!!!

nuthing really to say about this one...

~*~*~*ITS STILL MONDAY... JUS KINDA LATE*~*~*~

sooo... i havent wrote for like a week... so much shit has been goin on... everyones jus been pissin me off... and ive been really depressed lately... i dunno whats goin on with me and eric still... i jus kno that i miss him sooooooooooo fuckin much... and i jus want things to go back the way they used to be...i still have the exact same feelings for him... i still love him... seriously i do... but theres nothing i can do about it... i dunno what to do anymore tho... i dunno what to do without him... ive been INSANE for like the past 2 weeks... and i cant make myself stop... i really wish that i could tho... FUCK... i miss him sooo much... hes all that i can think about... seriously... EVERYTHING reminds me of him... like every song i listen to... and everything i see... and jus the fuckin people i see... i cant get him off my mind for two fuckin seconds... and i wish i could... i hate this fuckin shit... seriously i do... i jus want him back... and i kno that i cant have him and it fuckin tears me up... i jus need like 5 1/2 months to go by... so i can fuckin move out... and shit will get sooooooo much better after that... it will... my life will be awsome when i move out... and me and eric could finally get back together... if he would even want that... thats why ive been tryin to keep talkin to him... cuz i kno that when i get older... it wont matter if we r together and when i move out... it wont matter either cuz i wont have my fuckin parents bein bitches... but i jus miss him like HELL... and i dunno what to fuckin do with myself... i really do still love him... </3 </3 </3

pom tryouts r next friday... im really nervous about them... i dunno if ill make it cuz sum of those gurls r sooooo good and sooooo much better than me... but ill jus do my best.... im gunna go now tho....

luv ya all

</3 </3 </3

*muah*

~mandy~

soooo... its still sunday... jus really late... so if everyone didnt kno already... me and eric broke up... it really sucks... cuz i really miss him... seriously... i still love him... i really do... im jus tryin to tell myself that us breakin up was for the best... but right now i cant believe it... im jus bein a lil fuckin emo gurl right now... seriously... FUCK i always have to fuck everything up... i dunno why??? someone please HELP me... i need it right now... i dunno what the fuck to do... i miss him... and i love him... and i really dunno what to do... i dunno... im soooooooo fuckin confused right now...i cant talk about this anymore...

???WHY DOES A ROSE PRESENT LOVE WHEN A ROSE ALWAYS DIES???  will some one please please answer that for me???

i dunno what to do so someone please tell me that too...

</3 </3 </3

><mandy><

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So it's over now finally
I'm beneath
And I'm crawling out
On my knees
I can hear what you said
Echoing in my head
I'm losing myself
Now I'm cold on the floor
And I don't care anymore
Cause its over...it's over
I can feel
Like it's real
Now I can finally feel
So I guess it's over now
And you broke me down somehow

Now I'm faltering
I can see I can be
I can leave and shut you out
So I'm leaving now somehow
Underneath
As I slowly drown
Finally
I can hear what you said
Echoing in my head
I'm losing myself
I'm shaking deep inside
I'm having trouble breathing
I need somewhere to hide
Away cause I am healing
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