what up.
ah. im bored. havent really been doin much. seriously...all me & jeremy ever do is sit around & watch movies. nothin wrong with that...but its not very interesting. =) today i cleaned my aunts floor. & by cleaned i mean got down on my hands & knees. & scrubbed the shit outta some tile. but i got paid so whateva. gotta work tomorrow. 1-5 prolly. i should start writin it down somewhere that i can remember. but i guess im gonna see what is goin on up stairs.
later. <3

gah. you guys suck. no comments...EVER.
today...cleaned. i even sorted out all my shoes...i know. i was proud too. then i watched 25th hour. went to pick up my check. went to see david...then home. now im @ brians. my computer was messed up so ronnie fixed it. tomorrow i gotta work from 1-5. but i am off friday. i think kelly might come over. yuh. we will prolly have TONS of fun. =)
but. im outta here.
Xo.<3amber

gah.
im in such a mood.
its been this way all day. i guess i woke up on the wrong side of the bed. my throat feels like i couldn't even swallow a tiny piece of rice. ugh. i dont wanna be sick. tomorrows another day.
maybe there will be sunshine. (on the inside too.) . damn this whole bipolar/manic depressant shit. i dont know what i need...but i need it SOON. sometimes i dont even know who i am anymore. i just get lost in this whole...realm of unhappiness. i dont know why it happens...or what i did to cause it. i need to cry...i need to bleed. i need to give up. i dont know how to do this...and i dont need help. i dont wanna put my problems on other people. i dont know why i even put all this on here...i guess im too lazy to write it all down. & too afraid to let anyone in. its like as soon as i think i have it all figured out...bam. suicide princess comes back to play. fucked up nick name huh.? yuh...tell that to the doctor. maybe its for my own good. everyone knows ill never do it. i love life...just not mine. well im attempting to sleep again. ill prolly be back later.