Its Venting Time

Since no one reads this. .  Yeah.

I have been pretty good about eating healthy and now. thats totally down the drain. I feel like a mad woman. I drink 2-3 cups of coffee or some coca-cola type type of concoction and I feel horrible! And I had 2 Smirrinoff's (esp) in a row! Whoa! Whoa. Yeah, this is baby shiet but its major shiet to me.

Damn, the stresses of the last semester of nursing school. Its been one hellva ride. I can't believe its going to be over in 3 mths!! Omigolly!!

I know I will probably need waterproof mascara when I graduate!!

 I feel soo lonely!! Lonely. I used to be able to not see Ryan for 3 mths and be okay with that because I was focused and determined. Now that things are great, I just want to be with him more and more. And the sad part is I barely talk to him b/c of scheduling. I have this urge to just look around and fill this void of loneliness, but I know that if I did something remotely deceitful I could never forgive myself.

My nursing friends have their lovers visit them at least once this year. My lover, 2 times in 2 years. It hurts me soo much because I just want him near and he is soo busy.

Do you cry because you miss someone or do you cry because you're lonely and stressed and the one person to make it better is too busy to notice.

This semester I am rotating with a school nurse and children go to the nurse for the most mediocre illinesses. If they only knew what life was really all about.

In essence life just is.

Holla

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