Hey eveyone what is up? Me not to much just sitting at Shannon's house seeing if Clinton is going to come on tonight... Well anyways I went and got Johnny today to bring him to his dad's well he got out of the car and I kinda said ( I wanna brake up with him) and he was standing right there but I don't know if he heard me or what not.. I really don't know what I wanna do. All I know is I really wanna talk to Clinton so I hope I get to tonight...  Yesterday I got my mastercad through the mail :) it kicks ass lol.. I can spend 800 on it THAT'S RIGHT lol.. I was thinkng about going back and seeing Clinton again but I really don't know what he wants anymore when he is never on to talk anymore :( ... I have been thinking about a lot the past few days.. I hate being a bitch to Johnny but the thing is when ever I am with him he acts like he is fucking two.. And I compare him to much to Clinton... Ya I know that's bad :( ..  

Today was really upseting for the fam.. We have had this cat of ours for 14-15 years now and we had to put her down today it was really upseting and I will miss her :'(....

I guess you could say that school is going pretty well for me.. ENG gets better every day with all the stupid people yelling at the teacher.. Ya I know that's bad but some times it has to be funny when a teacher can't even handel her own fucking class room LIKE COME ON HERE...

Dear god.. I know is the past year I have did alot of shit and I can't thank you more for being there for me from not wanting to be alive to everything else... I feel so blessed with the fam that I got.. I just ask one more thing for today.. Please have Clinton come on tonight so I can talk to him about him and I... And ask him some things that have been on my mined for the past two weeks.. Thank you.. Love always

.:*:.Sue.:*:.

Hey everyone.. I’m sitting in class right now. We just got back from the football game and it’s around 10 after 2 so like 2:10 lol.. Anyway the game kicked so much ass we won 37-0 but the bad thing about it is that it got kinda boring after a bit the other team didn’t even make it past the 50 yard line till about 1 min left of the game so lets just say they sucked really bad... I don’t think I have dressed up this much for a game.. Everyone went crazy lol.. I will have some pic’s up when I get Shannon to send them to me.. Anyway a few people we knew got caught smoking up at  Western how stupid can someone be? Anyway the bus ride there was pretty fun but on the way back Shannon and I were getting pretty pissed off everyone was yelling at people in car’s by us and being stupid.. Anyway some people I guess need to grow the hell up.

Today I woke up at like 6:30 to get ready for the game.. I went to start my car and my car was not home and neither was my brother I knew he had my car last night but I guess he didn’t make it home? Well I called him and no one picked up.. Then about 30 min latter he called and said that the car stopped on him ( The stupid ass ran out of gas) Well I had to take my mom’s car to school... No more then 10 min when I was on my way to get something to eat at school I saw my brother in the hall’s looking for me to give me my car and I give him my mothers car.. I don’t think a lot of my friends or people at my school have seen my brother before people were looking at him hard core LOL...

Anyway I can’t talk right now it hurts to damn much lol Thank god that I don’t have to work tonight :) I’m so happy about that.. I think I may be going to see Johnny tonight but I really don’t know yet.. Last night I went and saw him and went shopping... He gave me this really cute teddy awww You should all see how cute it is lol.. And then we did some other shit and then I had to come home...

The other night Cj came on the net and then got right off ( maybe it was someone else in his house hold) but it made me really mad I really wanted to talk to him... But there is nothing I can do now is there? I hope that he comes on this weekend or now that he is back to school ( college) he will come on more.

Tanya and I are still not talking and she got her so called new best friend to ask me some shit last night and it pissed me off cus she was playing the hole game of ( Tanya said you guys were not talking so what is the matter?) Well I know she knows what is going on do to the fact I seen Tanya’s E-Mail and how she was talking about I was mad at her and blah blah blah.. That is what pisses me off the most about Tanya all she does is bitch bitch bitch.. About everything she complain about everything all the time, I’m sick of her bitching she thinks the world oh’s her something.. And she thinks she is the only one with a problem and hates her job.. What she works on fucking weekends awwww pore little girl FUCK THAT I work like every night and go to school lets see if she could do that? Oh what the fuck am I thinking? She don’t even go to school she is always " SICK" Or just faking it and I know she is.. All summer she was fine now that school is back ohhhh she is sick again.. But then again she just wants everyone around her to feel sorry for her... I don’t feel sorry for her anymore It makes me sick.. All the time when we did or do talk.. The 1^st thing I ask is.. DID YOU GO TO SCHOOL TODAY... And I know it pisses her off but she needs to stop all this bull shit...

Anyway I should get going now see you all latter .:*:.Sue.:*:.

I'm still in class... Brandon and I are not friends anymore do to the fast that I'm sick and tierd of coming home from work and having him call me and wanting something from me all the time.. I'm sick of being used by him ( My so called friend) So if he can't stop with all the shit he is putting me through then I don't wnana be friends with that blood sucking ass hole.. He thinks the world ohs him something.. The world don't oh him anything he ohs the world something... He thinks that it's funny not going to work when he don't pay rent and don't go to school he just sits around on his ass all day and say shit about US? He has no right to talk about anyone.. He is living with Jimmy right now and I know Jimmy don't like it just the way he was talking about it with me the other night...

Corey and I are friends again we have started to work shit out after I don't know how long of fighting?... Him and i used to be the best of friends and then something happen and I don't know what it was maybe just coming to high school changed the way he acted I really don't know.. But him and I are back to being great friends... Corey is always looking out for me with the guys I'm with and I think that's sweet of him he will always be my best boy best friend no matter what happens and where we go in life!!

Well I should get going now class is over in like 20 min... Well see you all latter.. :) Love always ....Sue....

I'm in class again right now... I'm waiting for this class to end so then I can go home and eat.. I start work in like an hour and I will have about 40 min of class left.. This kinda sucks but then again this is my last day of work for 2 days and then I work sat, sun , mon and tue and then I have wed, thur, fri and sat off.. I can't wait to have the 4 days off... Tonight someone is getting trained so then that means that work should go a little faster tonight ( sweet) I have this project that I should be working on but I will do it tomorow and hand it in to her mail box by the end of the day... I don't know why I can't get into school as much as I should I really wanna go to college next year and be able to get into the ones that I really wanted to go to.. Well I really don't know what to wright about anymore... Johnny and I didn't talk much lastnight I told him I would call him after work tonight.. Clinton and I have not talked for a week and a few days now.. I wish I could talk to him and tell him how my life is going and what has been going on in my life for the past little bit.. Every time we talk it's always about sex I never really get to tell him how I have been... Well I do then we just start into sex... He asked me if Johnny and I had sex.. I don't know if he is mad if we did or do or what not he always wants to know and he always asks me who is better... Well I have had sex with Johnny and for reall I loved Cj so much that I don't think anyone could be as god as him.. I love Johnny but I don't love him as much as I loved Cj when we were together and I don't think I ever will.

I really don't know what to say to Tanya anymore she really did hurt my feelings and upset me... If she was really my friend I think she would have told me right off the get go what happen with her and Jimmy.. I'm not as mad at Jimmy do to the fact I know that Jimmy don't really care about the girls he does shit with.. Well I don't mean it the way it sounds.. He does care but some times he just does shit with girls just to get some when he really wants something. ... So whatever she can keep up with the lies she will just miss out on us being friends