Happy New Years everyone! Well this is more of a Chinese and Vietnamese new year! But I’m back yah! Well let start off that I lost my glasses two days ago! These are really my glasses those that are prescribe for you to see. DeDe is blind! Haha lol but from the bad to the good I feel more happy. I have my friends and family online and off. I love you my Fahrenheit and Lollipop girls! Today blog entry is simple it’s me wishing for the best. Yup I wish I can hit it big so everyone pray for DeDe that she can become a professional business women international wide haha. So yup let start of on saying what I want, I want to declare my hope and dreams into this small blog haha. Don’t laugh at me now. I’m going to start out with my friends and family first. Hm…who should I start with? I want to wish my god-sister Cherrie the best hope she get marry to her soul mate and a prince that can bring her sunshine. I hope Jo make it big with her stardom dreams and meet her love Calvin. Jolene to become successful at her job and for her dreams to come true. Yin my partner in crime, my wish for her is to meet her idol Chun and have a successful life. I wish Riane and her dreams on hitting it big and finally meeting Arron. Jwen and her emo self lol kidding I love her to meet Jiro and live a happy life. My friends on BBT fan club! I wish all of them the best of luck! My friend Bopha and Rina to find love and become the person they want to be. My Fahrenheit fan club friends to more successful and love Fahrenheit forever! I have more wishes to my friends but it would take up a lot of blog…but just to let you know if I didn’t mention you it’s not because I don’t love you I truly do. I wish my family and I can love and care for each other even though I know we have our differences no matter what I’m their daughter their blood runs through me and even though me and y lil sister argue I know she’s always my lil sister. Emily for keep on creating great wretch design for me haha lol and forever a Calvin lover!

Ok so I had my friends done already who am I missing? DeDe isn’t DeDe if she doesn’t wish her idols a happy new year. Let’s start out with Fahrenheit! I wish Chun the best and hope his gym becomes a success. I wish Jiro and his acting career the best and hopefully he comes out with a clothing line oh yeah and he can get rid of his family debt. For Mr. Sunshine himself Calvin…CAL lol I wish him on finding true love, a successful career, happiness forever, and a drama of his own where he’s the main lead. Then last but not least my hero Arron! I wish Arron to one day forget the sadness in his life, I wish his career as a singer will be a success, his eyes will always mesmerize the ladies, and hope he find his soul mate. SHE I wish them for a long lasting relationship and forever sing songs that represent us girl’s hearts. I wish Lollipop the best one their career I hope that these new group will shine and always shine! JJ-Lin I wish his drama to hit to the best ratings and his new cd become a success! Nicky Lee my Machi favorite I wish this Korean singer become even more famous then he is. SHOW and Xiao Gui the best couple duo in TV show I wish them the best! Tank hope he’s feeling better I wish that he have great health to sing to us. Danson Tang I wish he’ll receive a drama of his own. K-One on making another CD and appear more in dramas! There’s more but like I say before it will take me a life time to write all my thank you and wishes haha!

This Blog is getting kind of long stay with me now haha My last is my wish! My wish is simple I wish that all my hope and thoughts will bring people love and warmth. I might be cold but I know how to give out warmth. My wish is to successfully complete my dreams and go to Taiwan! I wish to laugh and enjoy my time as a teen. As for love that isn’t my priority because who say we need love to be happy? Why do we need to crave it for? Love is like a crystal ball it looks pretty but when you break it, you can never out it back together! So fly high and breathe the fresh air. Be free and forget the fears! Sing a song and dance around. Run wild and let your mind feel free and relax. Appreciate the stars shinning so bright, the moon up so high, the rain bring the lovely sounds, the sun giving us warmth, and the things in front of us because you will never know when the things will go away! So in many languages HAPPY NEW YEARS…Mandarin: Xin nian yu kuai…….Cantonese: Sun nien fai lok …..Japanese: Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu                       Korean:  Sehe Bokmanee Bateuseyo…….Vietnamese:  Chuc mung nam moi…….. Bahasa (Indonesian): Selamat Tahun Baru

A NEW YEAR!

Seasons change around the year
And brings forth love and hope
Yet brings fear, despair and hate
Leaving you holding on the rope

I was dumped on Christmas eve
And loved again on Halloween
Went to a funeral on Valentines
And a wedding on Friday 13

Days mean something different
For people of all shapes and sizes
The year brings forth the future
Full of all sorts of weird suprises

So irritated..I can't message CALVIN ON WRETCH CAUSE ONCE AGAIN HE FREAKEN...put it on VIP i mean I'm a 15 year old girl where the heck am I going to get money for VIP? Impossible rite lol so I have to post it on wretch to let my love out!

I have nothing to say but Poor CAL! Life as a celebrity I think it must be hard for him to breathe with all those people stalking him. But poor   DeDe Cal had put his guestbook on VIP so I can’t write to him again! Why are they doing this poor us fans in America who are young or don’t have the money to pay for VIP. I want to go on protest! Who want to go on with me? Haha! But this is the only way I can write to him. Sorry Calvin that you can’t read my poem I made for you and Poor him that he can’t get my message! I would post these words and delete it forever. Like I say if a poem dedicated to a celebrity and there’s no chance for me to post it then I’ll delete it because it was made only for them.

Our Cal is sad even though my favorite is Arron I also adore MR.SUNSHINE! Like I wish he live a happy life you know. Find his other sunshine someone who can give him warmth. Don’t look at me I’m too young for him hehe lol 15 year old girl like me would want a sunshine like him but he is reserve to another special lady. So I hope you guys the best and as well CAL!

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DeDe Message to Cal:

I hope it's ok that I call you Cal? How have you been? New Year is coming so what are your plans? I bet that you will surround yourself with your fans huh? Me let see I'm going to be with my family and after new years is a 2 weeks after my bf death so yah nothing fun. I read your blog entry. Aww CAL...I hope I can see you! I want to bring some Super DeDe love to you. I don't know how since I'm still young so you must wait for me in 2 years ok! Remember if your sad Super DeDe would fly over there and Kick your sadness away. Once again I have a poem for you but its different this time I wrote one dedicated to the world family! You can do it Cal! I'll be waiting to see you! Don't be shock to see me now ok hehe...hm...Maybe I should

Write a drama for you but it'll be in English since I can't speak

chinese well maybe I’ll call it Sunshine Love! >.< love always

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SuPeR DeDe

DeDe Poem for CAL ONLY: FAMILY

Is a group of people who love each other

In our own special way.

Yeah we may not agree on things,

But in the end we do agree, most times.

And again we may not be normal,

But that is what makes us closer.

We cherish the times and moments,

That we just get to sit down and talk.

And no matter what we say or do,

We still love each other

Because we are family,

And no matter what words are spoken,

Or gestures given,

It will always stay that way even after we are all gone.

Because we are a group of people that love each other very much!

I wonder why I can’t get over him. The more I hide and deny it the more he appears. My heart comes to pain when I realize But love who? Love a boy who I hardly talk to…love a stranger who never looks at me ONCE. It been 2 ½ year now and still I can’t get over him. Yes I know my ex.bf had left me for more then some time now and the person I’m talking about isn’t him but someone else. Don’t get me wrong I do love my ex.bf and I will always do because we never had broken up in my case. But for some reason in the mist of the cold another guy came along. He’s cold and quiet kind of remind me like Arron or defiantly my ex.bf  He made my world turn upside down and not many guys can do that to me. In my heart I think that he’s the first that had done to me after my boy friend’s death. I mean how he can do such a thing. He causes my life happy and then he destroys it. How can I be happy to see someone who never had even say two words to me? My life was happy and great but this fool…this stranger walk into my heart. Is it destiny and will it bring me happiness or pain? I ask myself softyl at night when I cry thinking about him. I wish I had my ex. boy friend by my side and give me advice or my guy friends who I grew up with. But all I can talk to is the air because they had slowly disappear from this universe. I look up at Arron’s image hoping he can give me an answer but I realize he’s just an illusion…that he don’t exist in my life.

Who can I run too? I’m so confuse I feel like a fool sure that he would like me. I’m like a fire without a flame because I don’t know how to be strong without my friends by my side. Tell me did I do anything wrong? I feel as if my life is cold and dark when they had left me into another world. I’m listening to JJ-Lin song that make me cry when he say I’m like a song with no soul and it kind of portray who I am right now. Where should I go? I can’t hide from him because it seem like the more I do the more I bump into him. I feel as if the world had taken me to a place where I can’t feel so great. I feel as if I live in an ice cold palace. Where do I still love a guy who I can’t hold? I want to tell myself to let go but when I do he come back to my life. Is he m true ice prince for this ice cold princess? People call me Super DeDe and yes I am strong but when it comes to love I’m weak. I’m like any other girls I need love and I fallen in love but sometimes love can be a painful thing you have to go through, but in my heart I remember the most valuable feelings of love. Even though it seem like a long time ago it will always stuck in my head because it’s in my heart for eternity.

I want to sink down to the ocean and look at the place where it’s peace. I’m standing on a mountain by myself hoping that one day I can get out of this world. I look at the calm land and water wondering why is I so cold? All I can hold on is my dreams and my goals. My heart is stupid to love someone who never notices me. My love is foolish to love a guy who loves another girl. My love is nothing it’s just a piece of cloud that will disappear when it comes the time. My love to him doesn’t matter because he never loves me. He will never be mine. So I secretly hold my heads up and put on this fake smile and laugh away my tears that I hold back because I know the truth he’ll never be mine. So…let….it….be….le me become this foolish girl…..a New poem…well two since one is more about ice princess haha…..

Ice Princess

Alone in her dark, cold castle
Abandoned and cursed for eternity
The Ice Princess lives, night and day
Left with no human emotion

Her empty, lifeless eyes
Once so sparkling, yet vague
Fell upon a red-coloured rose,
Placed on her ice cold bed

She turned around and remembered
The times when she felt alive
Suddenly, she sat down and trembled,
Her last human bit knew why

He promised a long time ago
He'd send her a single red rose
To wake up their undying love
To let her know he still cares

Though her love was frozen in time,
Forced to fade there, forever
For her heart was guilty for pain,
For falling in love on this day

So here she lingers, with fear
With her heart covered with ice
Afraid of emotions she'd feel
Accused of breathing a lie

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I really want to....

I really want to tell him, i really do
i want to hold him tight
i want to kiss him right
i want him to want me with all his might

but most of all i want him
next to me this lonely night
yet i spend not only nights
ignoring what i feel and

hiding whats inside me
of what i want to see
of what i want to be
for it to be just you and me.