I am who i am & i like
that alot.. don't try to make
me somthing that i'm not..

BEiNG ME.
LiViNG MY LiFE.
TRYiNG T0 PASS
BY & MAKE SHiT
RiGHT <3

theres this girl in the mirror, i wonder
who she is. sometimes i think i know her
and sometimes i wish i did. There is a
story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbyes
when shes looking back at me i can tell ..
x____________ shes hurting inside.

Don't be content with average
because average is just as close to
the bottom as it is to the top..

i lay here upon my blankets, & in the still
of the darkness i picture you & wonder where
you are & what you're doing right now wishing
whatever it is, i could be a part of it & in a
matter of seconds, just as quickly as the
thought came, the silence breaks as i begin to cry.. </3

You cause my death `You made me fall..
I take my final breath.;' I say goodbye to you all </3

Memories ``' No matter how hard
you try to erase them .
     they never dissapear. <3

D I R T Y  .  L I T T L E  .  S E C R E T
don't tell anyone or you'll just be another regret.

She felt far from okay
but sometimes the biggest
lies slip out easier than the
truth.. <|3

if words could kill,
i'd spell your name.

Love me, my razor blade.
Break my skin, make me scream.
Sink so deep, make me weep.
Cut my flesh, make me bleed.
Take my life, set me free...

suck in my stomach.
pinch my waist.
spend hours touching up my ugly face.
all these things i fucking do..
don`t make a difference.
i`m not perfect enough for you..

Before you
make that first cut, remember--
You will find the blood and
pain release addictive.

the only way to not get hurt
is to not give a fuck

telling a depressed person to be happy;
is like telling a cancer patient
to cure themselves

its boys like you
that make girls like me
want to kill themselves
over love ....

These bandages cover more
than my cuts & bruises..
These bandages cover my``'
regrets & mistakes..

::AND YOU MAKE ME SMiLE LiKE NOBODY ELSE EVER COULD - - - <3

Its not that i don't want to live with out you
Its just that i don't even want to try <3

&& she said,
"where have you
been my whole
life?" && he said,
"looking for you."

I hate how we don't talk for weeks,
But then all of a sudden you say
something to me again & it's like
as if nothing happened and I slowly
start falling for you ...all over again..

 

[good-bye for now.]
  i`m not the type to say,
       "ITOLDYOUSO."
[good-bye for now, SO LONG.]
  i think the hardest part
       of holding on,
     is letting you go.

 

i love him....
and the only reason i live
is to see his smile and hear his laugh
and i would die
without that.......

HERE I `GO.
 `scream my l u n g s out && t r y to get to you.
                 you are my `ONLY,
                     my  o n l y  `one._____x3.

 

 

just give me a little time,
     to figure myself out.
   i`ll find out who i am,
 i`ll find what i`m about.

 

 

the truth hurts,
lies/drama/rumors kills,
&& life never gives like
it takes.  x3

Never let go of something that feels right.
you might not find it again.

 

I wishhh,
You knew i liked you
I wishhh,
You'd hold me in your arms
I wishhh,
You'd be there for me no matter what
I wishhh,
You could be the one to open my heart...but it's shut...

 

dont give up when times are tuff
hold your head high when you think you had enuff
you cnt enjoy the good times if you havnt experienced the bad
you cnt truly appreciate happiness
until you have been sad..

Its not over when ur losing terribly... its over when you quit..

 

no matter wHat happens i`m gonna make it `and if i`m
not happy then i`lL just have to -» 'fake it .. i`ve been
through scumbags backstabbers++lies i got a whoLe
list of people i despise so if u got my truSt dont lose it
and if you got my love .. then don`t -- a B u s e it...

 

if you are lucky enough to find a way of life you love,
you have to find the courage to live it...

 

we ran_outoftime.and.i.cant.breathe.

sure. I don"T wear abercrombie,
  or deisnger jeans, i dont playy sportss    
  and, yeaa, i like to read..i dont idolize
  paris hilton cuz she can s.h.o.p.  i dont
  spend my life trying to impress, but i dO
  show myself that i cann bee my bestt..i look
  up to people who aren't on TRL and my most
  prized possision insnt my cell.. but at least ima
  real. im gunna bee on top of thaa world just wait && see
  cuz I am myself
  I AM ME;;  

It is alright to cry. Those who
cry are stronger than those who
hold all of their feelings inside..

she'`s all alone again
wiping the tears from her eyes;;
some days she feels like dying.
she just get'`s so sick of crying ..

 

have you ever felt so alone
that nothing makes sense?
well;; thats how i feel right now.
i feel as if im facing everything by myself right now
i feel as if im facing everything with nothing
but tears && a fake smile ..

too much drama in this fake hearted school.
the preps; the goths; the less than cool.
where it starts && stops.
who'`s to define? who'`s to be trusted
&& where to draw the line.
screaming && crying && all the useless chatter.
you live you die only life is what matters.
filled with smiles lies and fears.
welcome to the magic of highschool years...

not even makeup could make her
look beautiful;; because real
beauty is loving<333 yourself && that'`s something she could never do.

 

 

 

 

____so let's ignore everyone else,
because we have each other.    <33

 I'm holding out & i'm holding onto every letter
& every song. I pulled myself out of the day we
ever had to meet. Are you through with me??
-- Fall Out Boy --

 If we shared our lives together,
why didn't we share our lives together?
-- Little Black Book --

 Stacy: I should tear your eyes out right now, but how would you ever be able to look at yourself in the morning? -- Little Black Book --

[8] Because you just have to go with the flow.
Your life is not your own, with people comming
in & out all the time. You get mellow because you have to.
-- This Lullaby --

 a lonely girl sits in her room
the thoughts & memories are still
in her head. the very last words to
her he said "i think we're better off
as just friends." while she's thinking
"i think i'm better off dead.."

she ignores the ones who want her
because she's too busy waiting for him..

crying so deep
that i think i might die
your mistakes i keep in the back of my mind
So hard to let go but i'm comin' round
the scars are still fragile
don't let me down..

She's a typical teenage girl.
angry & insecure & confused. she
wants you to tell her things will be
okay.. but she hates being lied to.

she dosent want to say goodbye.
shes so sick of hiding her tears..
she wants to feel a happiness
she remembers,
but all she feels is tears.

tell mewhy i lost you
tell me that you lied
tell me that you loved me
or at least that you tried.

 i just want you to want me
like i want Y.O.U

Nobody will ever like you as much as i did ;
because nobody would ever want to waste their
time on someone like you.. like i did.. </3

Wouldn't it be so perfect if sweatpants were sexy, monday mornings were fun, junk food didn't make you fat, girls didn't cause drama, boys weren't so confusing, nothing was regrettable, & goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? .. to bad life isn't perfect..

 Nothing compares to the stomach ache you
get from laughing too hard with your bestfriends

Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain,
cherish the memories, ignore the pain, &
love and learn, forget and forgive.. because
remember you only have one life to live..

For the rest of my days, i want you by my side.
Tell me what i can say to keep you in my life <3

i wish i could show you how much you mean to me.. but there's just no way..

 Look at me, you may think you see
who i really am, but you'll never know me.
Everyday it's as if i play a part. Now i see,
if i wear a mask, i can fool the world, but
i cannot fool my heart.. </3

I'm sick of smiling, & so is my jaw,
can't you see my front is crumbling down?
I'm sick of being somone i'm not..

on my knees  screaming at the clouds.
tears fall from the dark sky. hate is a
four letter word. love is a four letter lie...

 How do i know i love you? It's a feeling i
can't hide. It's the way i always miss you when
you're not by my side. It's the warmth i feel
whenever i stop & think of you, & the happiness
i get from the sweet things you do. I know i
love you in a hundred different ways with all my
heart, i will love you for all of my days <3

 Maybe it's the way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me or maybe it's the way you put your arms around me. Maybe it's the way you look at me and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it's the way we can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing at all but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my life. Maybe it's the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal. Maybe that’s it, that makes me want you so bad.

 I knew it was love when I asked
if you would hold me in your arms
forever and you said yes.

Whatever our souls are made up of,
his and mine are the same.. <3

Do you know how it feels to wake up in the morning and under your covers feel so warm and comfortable? Like everything is so perfect nothing is wrong. Time is still and calm. Everything is going your way and you love this feeling, right? Well, that's how you make me feel.
-- Sara Mease --

you will be the answer
when someone asks me
what i'm thinking about.. <3


Rachel: Well that's okay, because his penis isn't that big and neither is his heart!
-- Real World Austin --

I don't care about a thing today,
i used to but i'm fed up, & i can hear
the words you say, i wish that you
would shut up.. -- Good Charolette --

What's the point of screaming?
No one listens anyway.. -- Goo Goo Dolls --

 There's nothing like being held <3
-- Saves The Day --

so just kiss me and let my hair mess itself in your fingers.
let me steady myself in the arms of a man who won`t ask
me to be what he needs, but lets me exist as i am *

she felt far from okay, but
sometimes the biggest lies
slip out easier then the truth..

kick and scream. bite && bleed
just make believe that it's all a dream*

i don't know why i still hold on
when you lost my grip so fucking
long ago.. </3

just because you're beautiful, doesn't mean
you can treat people like they don't matter.
 - 10 things I Hate About You *

in a few months, i`ll probably laugh
at myself for caring about him so much..
but i want a few months to turn into never..
i want to care about him always <3

Some people put up walls. not to
keep others out, but to see who cares
enough to knock them down...

i don't know what it is about you
but you got it
             & i want it <3

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Love yaa's..

Sarah