| how was it that you were led to this?
-curiosity?-
Most likely.
Hearing about his struggles, and how is life was almost over...Some how that still made you want it.
you knew the reuslts would ruin your life, yet you didnt seem to car.
You, I guess, wanted to rebel, maybe fit in with certain people?
No one knows..well excpet for you of course.
you look and act normal, but inside, youre borken and bruised from the abuse, you want it to end, but you are afraid to ask for help, let alone tell people what you do.
Understandable.
But now youre stuck, stuck in what you wanted, yes?
I wish i could help, but it seems too far.
and wont accept.
You push away.
again...
Understandable.
just know this....this wont always be around.
Youre like a cat...Too curious for its own good. |
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| I did the stupidest thing.
i know i shouldnt have but it was all in fun and games..i didnt think anyone would get hurt...but someone did.
and i cant think that it isnt all my fault when it is.
i knew better and i shouldnt have done it.
but im paying for it.
never to be trusted by any of my friends [[certain ones]] again....
there are ways i could get out of it...but....id rather not make it worse.
I cant jsut blame this on someoen else...
fuck im fucked up.
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| People say that it must suck to believe in something so much, for it to disappoint you like that.
But really its not called faith if you only have it during miracles. You have to have with when there are none.
God works in mysterious ways, he must take a life for a new one to begin…I have realized that now.
My uncle left because it was time. It was time for a brand new life to begin, one that could be great.
I’m starting to get back into my faith more and more. My friends and people who I’ve barely spoken to are to thank for that.
Even though its going to be even harder than before to fully become one with him, because of my family, and certain friends. But I am willing to try forever.
Some of you might disagree on the whole God issue and stuff.
But that’s who YOU are not ME.
That’s what makes us so great, we are aloud to believe in what we want. <3 |
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| Well the first funeral was okay. i lost it when they talked about personal things.
but it was okay
Next thursday is the real funeral. for everyone.
and i am reading a poem i wrote.
i dont realyl want to but. okay =/
Such a joy when he arrived in this world
the thought of him leaving never occured
all his accomplishments will always and forever be remembered
A navy cheif at his greatest
A father, son, brother and uncle always there
He was rough skinned like a rhino
But his heart was as pure as gold
He lived his dream of building a log cabin
Yet it wasnt done when he passed
His presence will always linger
A sould watching over his loved ones
from his log cabin in heaven where we will rest peacefully for eternity.
<3
Well
i have to get ready to go to LHC, blahh
<3 |
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