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Currently Listening Darkest Days By Stabbing Westward Darkest Days see related

Schizophrenia....New way to party.

It is you know.
Schizophrenia means never to be lonely.
It means never having to talk to yourself.
Even though technically you are.
It means your insane.
Means your in pain.
Schizophrenia.
New way to Party.
I envy all that you are.
Perfection to me.
Gorgeous, intelligent.
Nothing like me.
I'm almost scared I'd break you.
But I know your stronger then that.
Reason why I love you.
You'll keep me standing even if I'm falling.

Song I wrote for various reasons. I thought I'd post this while I'm still sorta content and sorta still happy.
Now I know for a fact people are going to ask "Whats wrong?"
Well, I'll tell you.
My grandmother may have breast-cancer.
For awhile I thought "She didn't take care of herself, what do I care?"
Until it suddenly hit me.
My family members are dying.
Just out of the blue.
My great-grandma last year, September 13th (I still miss you Gramma...)
and now possibly my Mom's mom...which is just my Grandma.
Breast-Cancer can be taken care of...however.
It is still cancer it can still kill you.
I don't want her to die, I love my family...most of them anyway.
This is such a fucking emo moment I can't even tell you how weird this is to me.
I used to be so Sick and Twisted.
I miss that about me.
I'm tired of writing, I don't need anymore stress and I don't want others stressing over me.
Love you Kenny...

I've sung this song for way too long

This love , This Hate
Is burning me away 
is burning me away
It's hard to face that we're all the same
This love, This Hate
Is Burning me away 
is burning me away
It's harder times like these that never change  That never change

Yep I psychotic, Mothers and Fathers...keep your kids away from this one. I have no idea why I posted that specific part of the song, in fact I was just scrolling through the lyrics and those words seemed appealing so there ya fucking go! I'm at my uncles house working on some new riffs and beats for this one song, I named it then I named it again...then I had to go back and RE-name it.....then I did it again! I'd write down the lyrics but I just don't wanna because it's all the way in the attic :/. Anyways! I have no idea....uhh.....I love you? I'm a confusing person, I'm beginning to scare myself...oh the ecstacy :P...jeez I need help. Haha! Don't you just love the fact you could go around smiling and being happy and shit but NO ONE knows that you just want to grab any sharp object and just stab them to death? I hate people, I mean really....I hate people Why do I even talk to them?
They hurt you.
They Lie to you.
They betray you.
They Use you.

Yet I still talk to them, it's weird and I don't like it....I just...don't. Oh and to those fuckers that wanna go and try to plan things behind me and think I don't listen, Try again bitches. I see and hear everything you fucking say, there is NOTHING you can get by me. It pisses me off to a great degree that I feel like everything is MY fault when I know damn right it's not, I'm not as emo as everyone thinks. Yes I can be because I just...can...and the way I dress doesn't help out much either haha...yeah. Grrrrowl...I'm just angry, angry angry angry angry homicidal maniac that needs her pills...even though she doesn't take any! Krystal! I hate you. I just..do, but not really...but I do. Yep I can't think about anything right now without wanting to scream....Oh! cept the fact I did NOT get grounded for grades, just got told I need to get my grades up or I will have one BAD summer...yep....woopidy fucking do. I'm gonna go now before I like...go off again....so...Shake dat ass Hollywood

<3, BynX the fucking JynX

 Let go 
I'll bring you closer 
Right now
I'll hold on tightly 
Let go
We're going no where 
Somewhere 
And things aren't over 
Harder times like these! 
Growing up on the streets! 
Harder times like these!
I'll put you back on your feet!

Currently Listening Vampyre : Symphonies from the Crypt By Midnight Syndicate All see related

I really don't like people....really.

....I really.....really....don't like people. Some can be Very nice to you...and others just need to fall over and have some weird ass disease that may just kill them the next morning. Why the sudden outburst!? Because I realized how cruel people are...how untrustworthy some people can be.....Take these words of advice my dears.....People are not to be trusted, watch your back.

Ok, I think Im alright now.....Wooo.....Now....in my friend's words....I'm going to go and have an 'Emo' moment because supposedly "i'm emo". I just really can't stand some people....Why can't they leave me alone?!