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| | hii! i'm sorry its been a while.
): me & that guy broke up.
go figure. it always happens.
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Everything good in life is either
immoral, illegal or fattening.
   
From the first time I met you, I couldn't take my eyes off you. I'll admit that there was always something I missed. It didn't matter if you were sitting at the front, or at the back, or talking to the person beside you, or if you were just by yourself. I could always from a crowd immediately identify you, know your position, & know where you are. It seemed wherever you'd go, there'd be light. But I kept thinking; if I didn't say it, then the next time we met there could be no more chances. There have been many times I gave up opportunities to profess to you. That time I told myself; No matter what, I'm not letting you go.
When your heart breaks, it never fully heals.
It's merely just stitched & patched back up again,
leaving scars that stay with us forever.
I do not want to think about you walking towards me or taking me to places I have never been. I do not want to think about you at night, when no one is thinking of me. I do not want to love you, so I am giving you to the other girls; they can have you & the sun that smiles down on you, they can have you & the sky that opens for you, they can have you & they can keep you.
They say follow your heart,
but when your heart is in so many pieces,
which way are you to follow?
here are two things in this life that makes me cry.
The first is death, because it's a lost life;
the second is love, because it never wanted me.
The way you make me laugh, the sound of my name on your lips. My heart skips a beat & my mind races. I can feel your every touch & taste your every kiss. When you look at me I feel so beautiful, but then I open my eyes & realize you were just a dream. Now I'm back to reality without you.
I've never been in love, so I guess I don't know the happiness of love. I've never been nor am I now. I'm kind of afraid to step that deep into something, because I'm just tired of giving everything I've got. But it's hard, when you know that you could be giving more, but you're just giving what you want to give. Not because you're receiving less, but just because, just simply because, you're afraid to admit to yourself that you would give that person your whole world. And you're just afraid that your whole world or your everything just might not be enough. You just don't want to end up empty handed & admit to yourself that you wanted to give them everything.
Nothing is more disgusting than a boy
who lies & hurts a girl just to prove he's a man.
Everyone in their life will eventually say that love stinks. But for some reason no matter how strong the smell, people always end up following the same pungent odor of love <3
For those who have grown with me or watch me grow up, I have always been the same girl. More mature, maybe, more wise, but my core has stayed the same. The funky spunk in my step is still there like it was from my childhood years. My outright bluntness from my first sentence in meeting someone. Last, the choice to be different. Yeah, sometimes I think to myself, maybe I should be like you all out there, start dying my hair, waking up to straighten it, pounds of makeup, looking sexy 24/7. But nah, I'll stick to what I've got. Yes, you super hot girls make me feel pretty plain Jane sometimes, but for those who are understanding me right now;
I'm better than you.
Because under all that makeup, who's gonna want to look at you now? Now that everyone is so used to seeing you glammed up like a doll? Do you have as much as ambition & drive as I do under all that makeup?
| | | Posted 11/15/2007 4:29 PM - 5 comments
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