well hey xanga.  i dont know how much longer i will keep you up.  the last couple months i have completely abandoned you and i don't even think anyone reads them any more, well atleast mine.  well summer is officially here and already a 1/3 of the way done.  me and cosmo just broke and i'm single again but i sure as hell am going to stay far away from relationships for a while.  pretty sure i'm scarred for life from italians to.  you have never been chewed out so badly until you are chewed out by an itialian that's for sure.  i guess i wish things could of ended differently and we could of gone our seperate ways peacefully, but that didnt happen and i guess that's just how things will be.  if things were meant to be neither of us should of had to try and change the other.  i don't want to bring anyone down though by reading this i'm just trying to get things straight in my own head so i can find some peace of mind.  once again i will be leaving to go veg at my dad's for about a week.  i've found out this happens every summer.  the going gets tough and i go to my dad's and things slowly, but surely, always get better after spending some time there.  i can say with all confidence now though that i am really excited for college and now nothing and nobody will be able to hold me back.  i have been spending almost all of my time with amanda, kelly, and angela.  they have been keeping me sane and i dont know how they have been able to deal with me because i am so unstable some times.  they're the best though.  mandy has been gone for a month now and ive never missed any of my friends so much.  she's missed so many things and everything will be different when she comes back from basic.  i got my first minor about a week and a half ago. it sucked bad, but thankfully i am still 17 and i didn't go to jail.  i also could of gotten a dui since my keys were in my ignition and i also could of gotten 4 para charges.  so actually i came away really good.  my birthday is in a week and i'll be turning the big 1-8. i will officially be able to go to jail and buy cigs and gamble and vote!  i plan on going down the ottertail that day so if anyone wants to come get a hold of me and we'll take a big crew down there! anyway i'm out of here.... take it sleezy!

well not too much goin on here other then im not single any more. i know isnt that weird? it's been like a year and a half since ive had a boyfriend...crazy stuff.  also we got our cap and gowns on monday. it's trippy thinking that graduation is only a quarter away now and i will soon never have to go to school again if i so choose. any way drop me a comment!

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