heyy guys!

new xanga....

http://www.xanga.com/notperfect_afterall_xx

well love ya!

raegan

okay so i went to sleep last night after talking to mikey. i love him sooo much. when i am around all my friends that is all i talk about is my baby. i want to wake up to his face one day knowing that he is just mine and no one else can have him. i love his family and him too. i just loving being part of his life. i love everything he does. he makes me smile, laugh, and do things i never imagined. i just love being around that boy. when i am with him i feel like it is only us two in the world and nothing can stop us from being together. he makes me feel sooo special. i am just the luckiest girl in the world. he treats me so good. i just wish i could do all the same things to him but i cant cause the guys can do more. well i think no wait i know that i am going to be with him for the rest of my life and i plan on being with him forever. i am just in love and there is nothing you can do when you are in love. he talks me through on things that make me sad. he makes me happy and laugh when i am sad or sick or crying. he can do so many things that will make me laugh and smile.

here are reasons why i love him...

1. he makes me smile.
2. he makes me laugh.
3. he loves me for me and not no one else.
4. his kiss.
5. his hugs.
6. his looks.
7. his body.
8. his personality. which i will never have.
9. his voice.
10. and last but not least.... the way he treats me.

i can go on and on and on but i dont want to...leave me lots of comments...

<3 Raegan <3

Edit.....

okay so i thought about and i dont want to die.

i love being alive just cause of all the people who care and love me.

most of i am in love with mikey and i want to go through birth and i am just not ready to die.

i love mikey.

thanks everybody for giving me your opinion....

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i want to kill myself.

i want to die.

all i ever do is screw up my parents life cause i am not as smart as they want me too.

i am just someone who is not what they want.

i was a mistake.

they dont want me.

maybe i should run away....

what am i suppose to do?

last time i brought my last progress report back my dad said i wish you were never born.

what am i suppose to do?

i guess to kill myself???

is that a solution?

i dont know what to do anymore.

i want to kill my self, but i also dont want to cause i love anmy and mikey and they makes me feel special.

i love them.

he is the only thing in this world that wants me to stay alive right now and he is the only thing that i care about to stay alive.

what do i do?

i think that i am just going to talk to mikey and see what he thinks.

i dont get biology and that is what is killing me and so is english...

i just dont know...

i try my hardest but its not hard enough.

thats all i ever work on when i am at home and right now i dont think my hardest is good enough.

sorry but tell me what i am suppose to do please!

comments please!!!

raegan

i had the best birthday ever!

it was because i was with mikey.

i got everything i wanted!

happy birthday mommy.

it is mikey's mom's birthday.

i have something that i think is cute and i want you to tell me what you think... okay?

my wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. you never need to carry more that you can hold and while you're gettin to where you're gettin to. i hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too. yeah, thats my wish.

leave lots of comments...please

i love you mikey!

i always will!

<3

heyy!

so i have exactly three hours and thirty-five minutes till my birthday... i want to tell sam and grady happy birthday too. i want to be nice cause i wont be able to tell them tomorrow at school cause i dont see them and i dont talk to grady in biology class. i am sooo happy. i am wanting people to text me at midnight. okay? okay...

so we had a soccer game tonight. we won it was three to zero. we have actually been winning games and i am happy about that but there is this one girl who can never kick the ball in the goal when she has the shot or ball. i get so mad. we have a soccer game tomorrow at btw. mikey and whitney are going. i hope we win too. well we better.

i love my baby, mikey. so much. you guys dont know how much but he knows cause i show it to him all the time... haha. well he makes me smile, laugh, and i do things i never imagined doing. but he brought this people out of me and makes me so much more to be around besides when i am on my period. lol. well i love him and thats all i can say and i can only show him. he makes me feel like we are the only two people in the world when we are together. i know i am young and all but i think, i know that i have found my soul mate. i love him.. thats all i can say to yall.

well comments please.

oh i want yall to text me at midnight if you read this... 378-2881... please and thanks..

<3 raegan