Currently Listening Bittersweet By Apocalyptica see related

Holy Shit Guys

I haven't been on here in FOREVER.

Dayum...

So, to catch things up:

School started.

A: World Religions (sem1), Christian Lifestyles (sem2)
B:  AP English
C:  H. Physics
D:  H US Govt (sem1), H Cont. History (sem2)
E:  Creative Writing (sem1), Intro to Psych (sem2)
G:  AP Calculus
H:  Intro to Keyboarding.

I quit my job in late September.

I was a ROCK STAR in October.

I started dating Rax in November.

In December I got a PSII and KH1&2 so I could start playing (yay!).

In January I woke up at Mia's house after drinking with her and the girls.

I went to Katsucon in February and a week after Katsu I turned 17.

In March, Rax randomly stopped talking to me, I was sick but made it through the MUSICAL FROM HELL, and I got to see Rei and Chris (with an unfortunate side effect of Mia getting hurt and pissed off at me =_=)

And now in April, I was sick on Easter but talked to Rax and we might see each other sometime soon, which is good.

Yeah. That about sums it up.

Currently Listening Avenue Q (2003 Original Broadway Cast) By Jeff Marx, Robert Lopez, John Tartaglia, Stephanie D'Abruzzo, Avenue Q Everyone's a Little Bit Racist. see related

So... I haven't updated in a while.

Otakon was fucking AMAZING.

I shook hands with Yoshiki (X-Japan Yoshiki. You know, Jesus. [God is Gackt, fuck y'all who disagree])

Johanna moved into her apartment with Chole and Tiara and I now have my own room (meaning, I have my own room with just my bed in it, 'cause she hasn't really stayed with us in a while, but now her bed is gone so its official and my room is HUGE)

I found my dad's cassette tape collection and it has Simon & Garfunkel, The Eagles, and other great music, so I kidnapped it (Cassettes rock!)

Work at OCVRC sucks and I can't wait until I find a job so I can put in my two weeks notice.

We broke up on Tuesday morning, and I have been broken since.

I feel like I need her a lot more than she needs me, and that hurts a lot too.

Playlists are better on shuffle - w3rd.

Umm...

Thats about it.

I feel old.

I have two jobs.

And college shit going on.

And its weird.

I work GSH on Mon, Wed, Fri 8AM-2PM

I work OCVRC on Wed, Fri, and every other weekend.

On Wed, Fri, & Sat I work 3:30PM-7:30PM and on Sunday I work 10:30AM-3PM.

But I get paid for that.

I started training yesterday, and next Friday I requested off.

The uniform is so... man-ish...

At least my ID looks OK.

And I get a tie.

Which I like.

So.

Waitressing isn't like, really really hard.

But it is pretty damn challenging.

The worst part is being on your feet the whole time.

Four hours of standing and going back and forth and back and forth with heavy trays and slipping on the kitchen floors that are wet from the washer boys.

I think I'm going to stay on training until Sunday or Wednesday, so either Wednesday or the following Wednesday I'll try it on my own to see what happens.

Its not as hard for me, because the room I'm working is buffet style, so I only serve soup and drinks, and I bus the tables.

The thing I'm having a problem with is that people are arriving and leaving and in the middle of their meals all at the same time.

Not just at different tables, but all at the same table.

It just makes it kind of confusing when you're busing and bringing in new orders all at once.

People are nice though.

Iunno.

And I got a watch, which will be helpful.

<3 *end*

To Jean, Brianna, Ashpaz, Sarah, and Becca

Special notes for my seniors. CROSSPOSTED EVERYWHERE SO NOONE MISSES THEIRS!

Jean-
I'll miss you like crazy, but we still get to hang out 'cause you'll still be in-state so YAY! We're gonna hang out a lot this summer too, if I can manage between my work and volunteer shit. I love you and all of your crazy ways, and your incredible fashion sense XD. You can clash so bad but you still always look good. I wish I had your confidence <333.

Brianna-
You're one of those seniors, rather like Mikelle, that seem like you should always be at IND and just neverevereverever leave because thats just the way its been. We aren't the very closest friends, but you've like, always been there, and it'll be sad when you're gone next year. I love you <3 and I can't wait until your next sleepover party. Hopefully we won't be trapped with three-hour-long movies that end up having no feasible plot XD <33.

Ashpaz-
Its strange, but as much as I love you, I still have this feeling that I don't really know that much about you. Thats one of the great things about you though, 'cause its pretty easy to feel close with you and you're just such an easygoing person. I admire your strength, and your confidence and outgoing personality. You're just an awesome person <3. It'll suck when you aren't around anymore.

Sarah-
Wow... I'm sorry, but I don't really have that much to say... It was cool having you back after that year without you, and I'll miss your laid-back-ness next year when things get kinda stressed. I'll also miss you at lunch and stuff, well, the days when you were actually there <3, and I know Liko and Mooni prolly will too.

Finally, Becca-
I am so glad I won't have to be near you anymore, and I'm glad that I can finally say this: I used to like you, but I haven't for a long time and I probably never will again. You're a fake bitch who can't deal with her own emotions and makes shit up to cover them. Thankfully I no longer have to pretend to be your friend. Good riddance.

I'm a fuckin' mess

Been very sort of melancholy lately.

Everything is just irkin' me.

Its like, I want something, but when I get what I think I want, it just annoys me, and I'm left wanting something that I can't name.

So then, my frustration leads me into being sorta depressed and just... yeah.

Ugh >_< I hate this.

Its not even the usual detached depression.

Its depression being caused by something that I want but I can't name.

>_< !