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Is this a good thing, or a bad thing?

I utterly enjoied your away message.
-staying out of trouble
-stay in school
-say no to drugs unless it's free
-don't let my dad piss me off
-don't be too much of a flirt muffin
-relax a little
-read
-take a nap
-i love you

i'll be back.

anyways. I have two perverts subsc.ribed to me. how gross. & I taked to Missa about it. And she told me this
Missa: when you wrestle with a pig, you both get dirty, but the pig likes it.

DISCOVERY ZONE dang. that was so long ago.

Currently Watching Shaun of the Dead see related

It's been raining for a couple days.
Yessssss.

hiyahn toki: rock you like a hurricane

oLikeLightningo: your awesome!! and dnt EVER believe otherwise!!

hiyahn toki: yo' ill shoot you.
my deep midnight: psh
my deep midnight: weak
hiyahn toki: OMG NO YOU DIDNT!
hiyahn toki: hahaha
my deep midnight: haha
my deep midnight: lol
hiyahn toki: yeah?
hiyahn toki: let me see you "ganster" picture.
hiyahn toki: psh..

my deep midnight: ill shoot yo ass nigguh
hiyahn toki: woah....
my deep midnight: haha
hiyahn toki: omg ok ok you beat me so bad. it's not even funny.
my deep midnight: hahaha
my deep midnight: yes
hiyahn toki: woah that is almost scart.
hiyahn toki: y*
hiyahn toki: dang..
hiyahn toki:  ok ok
hiyahn toki: so ganster april

I'm in a bad fucking mood & I feel like RANTING.

-I hate how sexist seaworld is -I hate Thom -I hate how Thom did what he did to me, FUCKING TWICE, and yet I'm the bad guy of the house -I hate the fact that my family always gangs up on me and picks at all my flaws -I hate the fact tat Jeremiah is disabled -I hate Cancer -I hate tumors -I hate the fact that my mom is obsessed with Thom -I hate the fact that my mom takes pride at how similar Thom & her are (like they empty their bladders at similar times) -I hate the fact that my mom works at night -I hate the fact that there is nothing to do -I hate not having someone to listen to me -I hate crying alone -I hate seeing the walls move -I hate the fact that I think too much and it makes me sad -I hate the fact that my dad is gone -I hate how Jeremiah doesn't even acknowledge me in a kind manner -I hate living in San Diego -I hate my grades -I hate crying -I hate how everytime we talk I always seem angry or full of hate -I hate how I bottle everything up and act like everything is okay -I hate labels even though I label -I hate how my mom is living her life through me -I hate how my mom compares me to evey DAMN living organism -I hate how I cann't talk to my brothers about anything or my mom because they just tell me to suck it up -I hate the fact that I'm moving -I hate the way I hate petty insignificant things -I hate my pessimism -I hate how I read my brains out and I still cann't spell -I hate the fact that cancer is hereditary in my family -I hate the fact that Thom's family doesn't know anything -I hate the fact that I don't know how you feel about me -I hate being sick -I hate hate -I hate thoms fucking porn movies -I hate the fact that mom praises thom because he printed a stupud design on a cd and when my piano recitles come around she cann't make them -I hate all the secrets I keep -I hate the slutsfaces and the whores at work -I hate how I try to be happy when really I'm sad. -I hate hospitals -I hate saying things at the wrong time -I hate how when I tell my mom things she has to tell Thom, and then Thom uses those things against me -I hate the fact that I go to school to escape home, & I go home to escape school -I HATE BAND -I hate playing the damn bass clarinet -I hate how Mr.O'neil is a huge fag and he thinks band is god -I hate how my mom can turn anything into a lecture -I hate how I cann't do the things I want to do, or say the things I want to say because It's frowned apon. -I hate the fact that Ashley isn't my best friend anymore -I hate be walked all over -I hate giving in -I hate being called a liar -I hate having a menstrual cylce -I hate the fact that whne I'm being serious people don't pick it up -I hate the fact that my mom calls my music shit -I hate the fact that the only way to relieve my anger is to scream -I hate people with eating disorders -I hate people who cut themselves because it makes everything feel alright -I hate that stupid tsunami -I hate the fact that my god dad is who he is -I hate xanga -I hate being alone -I hate it when people don't have time for you -I hate it when people lie to me about major things -I hate surprises -I hate my phobias -I hate the fact that you don't talk -I hate my grades -I hate the fact that I should be grateful for what I have, when I don't know how -I hate the fact that my mom told me that if he touched me again he would go to jail, and he did it twice and he is still here -I hate my eyes -I hate how I've been in so many fights and every one thinks I'm a hardass -I hate being touched -I hate how I can't tell anyone anything -I hate being told to change something in my personality -I hate being compared to my damned to hell sister by Thom who doesn't even KNOW WHO THE HELL SHE IS, or what she has done to me, or why she is in fucking jail.

Thom's a  MOTHERFUCKER.

There's a lot more, but it's all stupid and I bet no one has even read this.

Currently Watching Pi By Sean Gullette, Mark Margolis see related

Yesterday was a good start for 2005, I guess. My favourite part was when I was on the phone and we read books to eachother. Game today. aw gawsh.

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