All I want....

Understanding: Verb. to accept tolerantly or sympathetically. to grasp the significance, implications, or importance of.

This is all i ask for.

all i want. all i ask for. is understanding.

from my friends.

from my family.

is that too much to ask? seriously.

i look for understanding from people who i think will have it

nope.

ive found it in one friend.

my other friends.....i love them to death.....i just dont think they will understand.

but hey, maybe im wrong.

i sure hope i am.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

Praise You in this Storm....

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
And stepped in and saved the day
Once again, I say Amen, and it is still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
As your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll Praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
You are who you are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will Praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find you

I lift my eyes into the hills
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of heaven and earth

i really think i just might burst.

seriously.

i dont know if i can handle this.

i need something strong.

i wish i could have something strong.

urgh

whatever.

I have a situation

and i cannot think of a single person on this earth that would understand.

not a single one.

well, ok. one. but she works a lot and doesnt have AIM or anything.

so yeah. newsflash a little very frustrating.

very

I have no idea what to do. I really wish i had someone to talk to about it.

but i know that no one would understand.

all i can do is give it to God. which im trying to do. not as easy as it sounds people.

but it would be nice to have someone to vent to. talk to. something.

but trust me, nobodies gonna understand this.

and that ladies and gentlemen, SUCKS

Wheres this college experience thing im supposed to be having?....

so the other day i was early to my psych class. the other class had gotten out a little early so i went in the class and sat down. people started coming in shortly thereafter. the teacher comes in and is unable to get to her powerpoint, she asks us to wait a bit while she uses a students flash drive to get it off her computer

your probably wondering why im telling yall this, it is kinda boring....just a preface....but i have a point

while the teacher was out everyone starts talking to their friends. chatting about other classes, room mates, goings on around campus. what am i doing you ask? im sitting there. talking to no one. why? well, i dont really have friends at my school. sad, i know.

but its hard to have friends when you dont live at wesleyan. i commute. im there for class and then i go home. in warner robins.

ok, i have friends in some of my classes, but we talk in class about this and that. and thats it. we dont hang out afterwards, we dont hang out at night. nothing.

i have no idea whats going on at my own school. so what am i supposed to talk about?? everyones talking about what happened the night before or how much fun they had at some club or something that happened in their dorm. i have no clue what they are talking about.

i feel like an outcast. and it sucks. i drive my car around campus and see people walking to class together, talking, laughing. i walk to class alone.

i long for the college experience that everyones been talking about. i hear people talk about how great college is and how much fun they have and dorm life and all that. i dont know anything about it. i wish i did. i want a chance to actually enjoy college.

all my of siblings...every last one....got the chance to go off to college. where am i? at home with the parentals. and im not gonna lie, it sucks sometimes. i want the opportunity to go off to college!! why am i being forced to stay at home???

it just doesnt seem fair.