| Tonight marks my last night of normalcy until the end of August, and I must admit, I feel a unprepared. The end of normalcy means the beginning of camp life for the next few months, and it's like taking a step outside of the world and into a haven/refining fire/breath of fresh air all at the same time. It means eating, sleeping and breathing creativity, energy and excitement. It means living with animal [un]friends, bug bites and sweat stains. It means being stretched in ways I didn't know I could be, learning things I didn't know that I didn't know and having to tangibly trust the Lord every second of everyday for strength and sustenance...because truthfully, that gets sucked out of me like week one. And although I don't feel prepared or adequate or like I've got my mind around the fact that I will be leading hundreds of young people this Summer...I am excited. I'm excited to run this race and to hear His voice and to follow His lead. I'm excited to use my gifts and to make new friends and to catch up with old ones. I'm excited to minister to young women and to set the best example that I can and to be pushed to be better. Truthfully, I don't know what this summer will hold. I don't know what it will look like or where I'll be when it's done...BUT, I do know the One who holds it all in His hands. He is already at the end of this Summer. He has already helped me through every trying time and every hard decision. He has already taught me new things and brought me to a greater understanding of His character, and now I've just got to catch up with him. I've got to walk every second with my hand in my Savior's, trusting that He will lead me to the place of perfection at the end, bringing glory to himself through it all. I'm excited to read this post in two months and to be able to fill in the gaps. I hope to God that He is pleased with the way that I spend my time and the studies that I lead and the girls that I minister to. And the cool thing is, I know that he will be so long as I'm walking where he leads and doing what he instructs. God, give me strength. See you in two months with the answer to all of these unknowns and with stories of God's faithfulness. |
