| iiiii'm basically fucking stupid for falling this hard..
who ever would have thought i'd love you this much..?
definitely not me.. </3
you're the only one i would take a shot on
keep me hanging on so contagiously.. <33
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming
as the water filled my lungs, my lungs.
You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
But you don't care at all.
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.
Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here....
.. Hopeless love, why did you build your home in me?
loveyou. =\ |
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| PROM '06, CANT WAIT!!!<3
with my lovely tim dantin! =]
things suck by the way. never thought i'd fall this hard for him. never thought i'd fall for him, period. wow. this just sucks. =\
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| life completely blows. i'm done drinking around people i can't trust. you think i'd learn after the first time, but no. and it fucking sucks. i'm sick of being this completely different person when i'm drunk. it's so fucking retarded. i wish i could take back everything stupid that i've done in the past 8 months. i hate living with regret. it's possibily one of the worst feelings that you could ever feel. honestly. i hate it, i really do. i feel like such a horrible person. i hate when people deny shit too. like seriously, if you did something, OWN UP TO IT!! don't sit there and fucking make up lies just to cover up the fucking mistake you did. don't change your fucking mind every damn second and say something different! that's just being fucking retarded. don't put the blame on the other person either. k it takes two to tango. dont LIE! like seriously that's one thing that gets to me the most because then it makes me regret everything so much more! because i feel that you're ashamed of me. maybe you are, and that's something that i'll have to deal with. but don't make me feel like a worthless peice of shit. because honestly that is how i feel. i havent felt so low in my life. and when i try to be nice to you, don't be a fucking JERK!!! i don't deserve to be treated like that! no one does! i'm sorry if i'm not "up to your standards". maybe i made a mistake. maybe you made the mistake. whatever it is, WE BOTH FUCKING MADE A MISTAKE. you made me feel so low. i hate you. i hate everything about you. i hate your laugh, i hate your hair, i hate everything about you! i hate the way that you make me feel. this could be toward more than one person. seriously, in my life, only 2 people have ever treated me like this in my life. honestly. and it makes me want to fucking crawl in a hole and not come out. that sounds fucking retarded but thats honestly how i can say i feel. i dont understand it. i never have, and i probably never will. but i guess that's just a part of life and it happens to the best of us. |
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| She'd never lose her nerve
She's more than you deserve
She's just far better than me
So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you wont ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry
And don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind
How do you cope when the one you love
Is with somebody else and theres nothing you can do about it?
..how do i deal without you?
this sucks so unbelievably much.. |
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| pardon me while i burst into flames
i've had enough of the world
and it's peoples mindless games..
i have had enough.
i am so sick of this.
i'm done. |
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