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Sunday, April 06, 2008

  • Today is a particularly gloomy day. Just sitting here thinking, again. Started cleaning the pool today after a long winter. Can't wait til it's warm out. Gonna be chillin in the pool for days on end.

    Listening to the best playlist ever.

    So I was just thinking.. where do I stand? I've been in this mood where I doubt myself a lot, not quite too sure why. All these insecurities; it's really weird b/c I should be the least insecure person you know.

    I guess life doesn't work out that way.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

  • Haven't been keeping up with my Xanga. I tried to hide my other post w/ all the photos from my UVA trip & the DestinationImagiNation event back in February. Didn't work too well.

    So anyway, March came & went with swiftness. It's crazy how fast my Senior year has gone by. No lie. As a side note, I just want to add that I officially have my prom date. And my prom dress. Those are two things I don't have to stress about, now. Brandon asked me. I'll add on with that later... So it's April now. I heard back from all the schools I applied to. As of now, I'm considering UVA, the College of W&M, and Virginia Tech. Still can't decide, though. I'm hoping to visit all three in the next few weeks (I haven't been to Tech yet, so we'll see how that goes...) College is pretty daunting, and I really don't know what to expect. Actually, I have a general idea of what college will be like, as Governor's School at the Univ. of Richmond was pretty much a taste of college. I'm not saying it's going to be better or worse, but I am definitely looking forward to what is to come. I just hope it comes soon.

    For the most part I'm just trying to find my place in the world. This past week has been pretty interesting, but not anything I can't handle. If it is possible, I may have cried at least 3 or 4 times this week. Why? B/c sometimes crying just works for me. Call me a crybaby, I don't care. I'm a human, and I cry. That's that. I'm not quite sure what it was about this week, but I do know that it's hard to find people you can trust nowadays. I just didn't know I'd have to learn it this way.

    Oh, and I'm writing a book now. I really hope it turns out well. I'm going to publish it. It's going to be a collection of thoughts, and heartfelt, comical, and even depressing stories. All from experience I suppose. It's kind of like a journal, except I feel like I want others to read it. I'm not quite sure why, but for some reason talking to people isn't working. Writing it down allows for me to expand and eliminate the necessary and unnecessary. I want to write when I'm older. A journalist or novelist or something. Who knows. [& BTW, I'm going to San Diego. I can't wait to see all of you guys! After 6 years, it feels like I missed out on a big chunk of your life, and I anticipate drinking it in over the summer. I love & miss you guys, and I'll see you soon.]

    And so I continue on my search for enlightenment and happiness. I'll let you know where I stand in the future.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

  • Like a common thread, oh you're pulling me

    Hmmm, I realized that there are 48 days of Lent this year. Unless Lent ends on Palm Sunday, instead of Easter. I'm not too sure with the actual calendar year, so you'll have to excuse my lack of knowledge on the Catholic faith. All I know is that I was already confirmed and since then, I haven't done much with the church. I feel bad, but thing happen. I need to do something to show my love for Jesus again. Aside from the winter shelter I helped out at earlier this month, I need to serve God more. Is this a religious blog entry? Probably. Oh well.

    So, I'm done with 6 days out of the 48. Forty-two to go, kids. Forty-two. Lent ends RIGHT before Spring Break. I didn't know Lent would be so long. But if Jesus can go 40 days & nights into a desert, fasting the whole time, I think I can go without Myspace, Facebook, etc etc etc. Okay, The ROTC Military ball is THIS WEEK. I didn't know I'd be so hyped. I've got it all ready... let me be materialistic for a minute... my dress is AWESOME :) Well, at least I think so. I know it'll come and go sooner than I hope, but that's how it always is. Lets hope its a great night, and not a repeat of last year's Ring Dance fiasco. If you haven't heard that story, I'll be glad to retell it. Actually, how about I just give you the gist of the story:

    Ryann + asked out date + he said yes + they went to the dance + he was cool but didn't dance b/c of lame excuses + last 10 min of dance he was grinding on someone else = sadness for Ryann + broken, now awkward, friendship.

    And that's the end to that story...

    On a brighter note, I've vowed to ignore a select few of people for personal reasons. Let's just say, I'm tired of being stepped on. I had a similar epiphany, like this, in early January. I acted upon the epiphany, & it ended poorly. But hey, let me just say I'm taking up my past resolutions.. just to a lesser extent. It's gonna lead to ultimate happiness. For me, of course. At least I think it will. Okay, enough. I'll post tomorrow or something.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

  • Let me just say I was an incredibly confused child...
    I read some of my old entries & they made me laugh.
    I'm kind of mad that I deleted some of 'em. Oh well.

    I sat by a fire today. How sweet is that.
    Pyromaniac? I think so. Sat outside for over an hour..
    Adding wood to the flames & soaking in the warmth.

    I want summer to come so I can hop into my pool
    & just float there with some shades & sunscreen.
    Oh, and a pina colada.
  • Currently Listening
    Graduation
    By Kanye West
    Good Morning
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    Since I've given up myspace&facebook, I figured I'd come here...

    The 2008 New Year has been pretty interesting so far. I have to say,
    high school comes at a price. It really does. Nothing I can't handle,
    of course.

    Sent off all college applications & mid-year reports to my four schools.
    (Georgetown, UVA, W&M, & VT) So stressful! We'll see how that goes...

    This week is going to be interesting. Valentines is on Thursday.
    Not that I care, honestly.. haha. But Friday is the ROTC Military Ball.
    That is certainly something to look forward to.

    Oh, be sure to buy the VA-Pilot for the next few months or so.
    I'll be in it. Hahaha.