& i'm back...

hey guys

sorry for the absent, but my "friend" told my parents EVERYTHING so yeah for the past week or so i've been doing nothing but being "encouraged to eat" translated it means "ur not leaving the table till u eat" and seeing a theropist to "help me feel in control" but really all its managed to do is destroy all the controll i once had... but tat is all about to change. From this minute onwards i am back to my old ways. counting calories and losing weight. but i have to do it carefully, i dont want to worry David, my boyfriend!

CURRENT STATS:

height: 5ft3
cw: 104.5 [gross i gained it back]
hw: 121
lw: 97
gw 1: 100 [by 17 september]
gw 2: 97 [by 22 september]

David keeps telling me tat I'm perfect just as i am ... tat i dont need to lose weight. Everyone keeps telling me tat i'm still too thin. but i look in the mirror and i dont understand it, i cant see it. i dont know.

&& I will do this for me.

hey guys

MY PARENTS KNOW EVERYTHING thanks to a so called "friend" so i cant update... im writing this at my friend's house as we speak. I'm sorry! i'll try and get back here and explain everything when the heat dies down a little.

sorry girls

i luv ya all!
Take Care

&& Pretty girls show controll...

hey guys! lol sorry for the no update yesterday

Food has been nothing more than a few bites of this and that at dinner with the family today and yesterday but i'm not losing! urgh still at 104! i hate this... gona start upping my exercise. went running today for the first time in AGES! lol hope tat did something!

David and i are still going strong... plans for this weekend is; going to see a movie on friday night, then saturday morning he's comming to watch me play netball, then i have to go to a family reunion... urgh then i'm coming back and we'r going to river fest together to watch the fireworks! so we'r going to spend alot of time together!

school was soo boring... today but one thing that does come from your friends not talking to you is that u tend to get alot of work actually done, I'm so greatful that jess is still speaking to me. urgh

Intake:

B- nothing
L- nothing
D- couple of bites of vegies + a couple of wedges *180cals? just to be sure*

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&& there was a boy...

hey guys! how are we all?

sry no post yesterday i was soo tired i feel asleep right after talking to the boy on the phone! Thanx you all so much for all the wonderful comments!

OMG he said YES! lol David is now offically my boy, so yesterday jess, matt and david came and watched me play netball, then David had to go have lunch with his parents so matt, jess and i caught the train and bus into south bank, where we met David again. Then they wouldnt let me into Miami Vice because i'm less then two months younger than 15! how screwed up! so we went and saw You, Me and Dupree.

lol David and i saw very little of the movie anyway! i had soo much fun! but all the time i was rely worried about him touching my body... i don't know i just dont feel completely comfortable with my body yet. but he was lovely made me feel completely at ease!

intake yesterday was nothing but a powerade *189cals* and tat was so i didnt pass out! todays hasnt been so good but thats because my mothers here and is driving me crazy!

Intake:
B- a pancake with jam *urgh gross*
L- water
D- salad + diet coke

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Hey guys!

omg 24 comments! way to make me feel special! I'm slowly making my way through replying to each of them. yeah that is me in my profile picture!

Tomorrow Matt, David and jess are coming to watch me play netball then we'r going to the movies... OMG i asked david out... and now i'm playing the weighting game 2 see wat he's answer is... omg im so nervous! wish me luck!

i didn't weigh myself 2day... not sure if tat's a good thing or not. o well didn't eat anything so i shouldn't have gained or anything. cant wait 2 get a proper weight on sunday! hope its small!

Got new clothes last night... i love them but i'm not sure if i'm confident enough to wear them out yet. work was great 2day.

sorry this is so short but i just have a ton of stuff to do tonight. 

take care guys!

Intake:
B- nothing
L- nothing
D- Diet coke

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