| well well well, it's summer. freshmen year of college went by so fast. i can't remember a weekend the girls and the boys weren't sober. it was FAB!!! i learned so many things this year. it was actually quite emotional at times. i went through so much shit because of male problems in life. you know, yes, the relationships. i got fucked over hardcore. it was really depressing. it's even sadder cuz i fell for him more than 5 times over a span of like 4 months on and off. his dirty little teasing tricks. goddamn. i shouldn't have taken any of that crap, because in the end, who's the one crying? ME!! absolutely pointless. i had no idea this guy had a gf of 7 months (a senior in high school who later found out about me and bitched at me hardcore) and i SOOOO thought our relationship was on the right track. but HEEELLLLLLno. got fucked over. i think this was the first time i ever yelled and bitched slapped someone other than my brother. i was so upset at myself (he was pointless to be mad at because he thought it was ok to go with two girls at once and didn't understand how hurt i was. he just kept on pulling me back to him, thanks shitface) for letting such a high school thing happen to me! i mean look at me im almost 20!! i shud be thinking more about myself and the shit im getting myself thru. well, boys were a hopeless subject for me. anyway, friends. i made very good friends. three girls i hung out with were the best because if they didn't like the shit i did, they'd tell me and not talk behind my back. we were such sisters to each other. they were so honest with me and i liked that rather than being shittalked about. too many inside jokes and i found a girl that laughs so much louder than me. i had more guy friends tho, i mean it's cuz i am probably a male stuck in a female body. it's sad. they were so "chill". now when i define "chill" i mean "CHILLLLLLLLLLL". we'd do NOTHING and that was awesome. basically, we'd just sit in one room, doing our own business whether it be hw, watching a movie, talking, sleeping, farting, on the phone, smoking, drinking, whatever. it was just soooo chill. no one cared what each other did. and we'd always have this hang out room so you never needed to call up your friend because everyone will always be there lounging. davis is such a chilllll place, probably because we have nothing else to do like the big cities and stuff. i met good people that are my big brothers and my father now hahaha. they treat me like a little sister and take good care of us girls. i like that, i feel safe. i appreciate my parentals more. i feel like ive bonded with them more that ive been away and realize how much they mean to me. i learned so much in college lectures more than boring high school classes that don't teach you shit you don't want to learn. im more straight up now and i don't like to take shit from people because i did that last year and got skrewed over.
now im back in tino and i've met the friends i wanted to see in a long time. my gf's. they are good people and i love them very much. i know we both had our misunderstandings that we'd both be different after college so it would be hard to communicate again. but i mean, no fucking way! college life is college life and here is here. it's two different stories. we are all not that different before we left here and if we are, i think we changed in a better way. its so funny because the girls and i are the "rejects" ahahhaha and we get along so well cuz we are so "whatever" about many things. we don't like to make crap into big deals of nothing and so forth. good talk.
now, i need to take care of my NEW car yes!!! i love it. it's so adorable and bubbly. so, i have many concerts coming up and im stoked!!! good bye world. |
