At The Moment:: Feeling... Mature.

i've just had 3 of the most intense conversations ever. but.. i came out alright. and i'm really thankful for the outcome. i have to admit... i didn't think i'd be able to be that strong but i guess i underestimated myself =] i really appreciate all of the friendships that i've had and still have. i cherish all of you guys so much.

hugs and kisses

At The Moment:: Overwhelmed.

Jeez.. its been like.. YEARS! since i've last been on here. why did i decide to come back? i dont know. boredom maybe? i could've just blogged on my mypace.. but i don't know.. myspace is starting to get on my nerves. plus.. here i have my pretty already-made layout =].. i guess i'll just come back later.. lol i wanted to come back here to write, but i have nothing to freakn write about..

At The Moment:: Offically Single. So Not Ready To Mingle.

I think for the first time.. im actually ready to take it slow. lol i know that sounds ludicrous..

"kayla tran? staying single? but wait, we've all heard this before"

indeed we have. but this time.. its for a totally different reason. i think before it was more of a "i dont need a guy, i dont want a guy, dont want to be tied down" scenerio. but now, its more of a "im looking for 'the' guy, so dont waste my time" kind of thing. okai maybe not "the" guy. but im tired of the "couple of months, not so serious, just for the moment" deal. i want a guy whos gonna mean it when he says i love you. a boyfriend, thats more lyke a bestfriend. a man whos willing to make a real commitment.

am i asking for to much? then i guess single is the way its gonna be for awhile. dont get me wrong, im not looking to settle down, or any of that nonsense. but i want a relationship thats more. more what? i dont kno.

i want someone i can run to when i feel lyke crap. a guy that doesn't care whether i do or dont have makeup on. someone whos gonna bring me soup when i'm feeling sick. someone who genuinely cares about my well being, and looks forward to our future together, no matter what the outcome may be. a guy who'll get jealous when i decide to go to the club without him, but understand that i need my space. he'd have to put up with the little episodes that i have, be able to comfort me in my bad times and be the reason for my good times. he needs to be able to handle my crying, whining and complaining with a smile; but at the same time, have enough backbone to point out when and where im wrong. im interested in the little things. a random hug in the middle of the mall. a kiss on the head just because i happen to be in his arms. an 'i love you'  note just because its tuesday.

so for all you fellahs out there who are STILL trying tah hollar atchur girl. slow your roll. you gottah make sure you can be the guy that can supply all that i'm asking for. and if it seems that thats to much..  turn around and walk away.

For this guy... i dont mind waiting.

.Destiny's Child. .I'm A Survivor.
I'm wishin' you the best // Pray that you are blessed // Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness // I'm not gonna blast you on the radio // I'm not gonna lie to you or yo family, yo // I'm not gonna hate on you in the magazine // I'm not gonna compromise my christianity. // You know I'm not gonna diss you on the internet