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I chose a dark path about seven months back, strange, cuz growing up, I was shown the right track. An 03 grad, decided to be all bad, outta my parents pad, trynna be my own man. I left the pad, with 10 bucks, 5 shirts and 3 pants, stayed in a garage, slept on a couch, ruined by alley cats. I left my family hangin, like I had something to gain, attended trade school, and left with no trade, droppin out only added more pain, I was fannin the flames, which turned into a forest blaze, woke up every morning, feelin pain stream down my face. Once I put a revolver to my temple, prayers and faces of loved ones stopped something so simple. Made a mistake trynna live my own way, I found livin for me, leads me further from God's grace. To be honest my life today aint so breezy, yeah I walk with God but it aint dat eazy. But all the things written in the previous lines, the sin and torment that crushed my life, all the tears, cried in the middle of the night, were nailed to the cross, streaming outta every wound leaking from the body of Christ.

Man what a long, long, long, long, long day!! I had  a chance to check out a restraunt called Reinforest Cafe and it is THE BOMB!!!! They play raggae all day! well, a lil spanish music too but, Raggae Rules! I got to chaperone a bunch of lil kids. I love lil kids because they have so much energy and life in them. I think that's why they don't listen! Yeah, I love all my lil brothers and sisters that I spent time with today. I also got to kick it with my big sister Lo, I thank God for her and her family. I can't forget my brother Boden dawg! He's the reason why I call myself a beach boy! yup! We went to a volleyball tournament the youth was invited to. Made it to the finals, We lost to some professional fobs dude! They were all harsh on my brothers and sisters. It was crazy because the church my family attended when we came from Germany, were the ones who ran the tournament. Man were they determined to win, everybody had one team, they had three! Cheaters! I still love them though! GO IHOPE! I hope yall lost! N/K!! [not-kidding] lmbo! But yeah I see how much a ball and net mean in some peoples lives. Everybody that played today did a great job! but mayun I'm hungry like a mofo! aint nothing but a gang of apple juice in ice box! but Lord, guard my family and church family as we lay our heads to rest. Be with my pops while he's at work. The worship team and service tommorrow.........amen!

Well I would like to thank God for allowing me to experience his presence all the way out hurr in Palm Springs. I'm overwhelmed with happiness. I'm so blessed man I was in tears tonight dude. I'm lookin at the things I gotta do when I get back home. It aint gonna be easy but, someone gotta do it! I can't wait around for someone else to go out and witness I gotta do it myself. I can do it! I just gotta be prepared to do some bold and dagerous thangs! If no one stands with me God will stand with me like he always do. that's all I have to write cuz words aint enough to descrube how I feel right now but, I love the lord and he is good matter fact GREAT!!!

I was just another shadow in a cloud of purple haze, just another young buck searching for those better days. But my wicked ways, led me a stray, reaped what I thought I threw away, cried for days, over lost love that I was dieing to regain. My past no one will ever know, which I hope they never will, pullin triggers hopin I didn't kill. That's all behind me, my judgement for that is coming,over by then are the days of running. I've been signed, sealed and delivered, now I'm a fisherman for Jesus, seein the world as a river, they say advil works but Jesus heals quicker, no need to argue and bicker, no need to smoke or drink liquor, no need to curse, cuz all that makes problems a lil worse, like curves, a lil old like perms. {aint done but I'll be back}

Well PALM SPRINGS HERE I COME!!!!!!!!

Ha Ha For all yall not going!!!! Well I'm back from dovetail and man it was a bummer I'm straight tired dude. It was funny cuz all David and I could think about was PALM SPRINGS!! LMBO!! Yup. I heard we're gonna have fun dude! I heard some grown folk talkin like they don't want us to go but I think they're mad cuz they're not going. Oh God is good. This dude named Manny prophesied over jay david nick and I. He brought up my deepest thoughts so I know it was God. I gotta start witnessing to my homies fo reals doe! I was told that Jesus is building mansions for his people in heaven and, the more work we do for his kingdom the bigger our mansions get. I want a big mansion bigger than Bill Gates's house. Man I Love The Lord for he is the reason why I praise him. His love is better than any love on this earth. Well I'm going to sleep after I wash my funky body. peace.................psalms 1:1-6