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Name: yen
Country: Malaysia
Gender: Female
Interests: sleeping, eating, shitting
Expertise: shitting, eating, sleeping
Occupation: Government
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
5/20/2005
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| series 1as empty as i feel..i can't get over you.. everything i did seem to bring up a split second memory of us. I should move on, get on with life. Thats what i tell myself each morning i wake up. With only a few close ppl supporting me, i drag on with life. The people that brought me fun, were'nt there when i needed them. Now i doubt their sincerity when they were mixing with me. Was i their rebound at that moment? The people i rejected stayed by me however. I wonder why or how i did it, to reject so many hearts in the past. Now, being like them, i realise how it feels. **** I took a stroll out my house. It was already 10.30pm. The roads were dark but yet, i had to go. I was curious by this guy that had to meet me. Somehow no one knew we were going to meet..as i passed the road, i saw a girl smoking. Under the little moonlight, i made out her features and she was indeed someone i knew. I startled her when i walked up and said Hi. Too late. She tried to hide the fact she was smoking..and acted normal. But seeing that i knew what happened, she begged me to keep it a secret. I smiled, she didnt know that i was hiding a bigger secret from her, it was just luck that i discovered hers before she discovered mine. -to be continued- | | |
| A life of ChoicesThere are choices for us to make. Options to choose. For some it's either a yes or no. For me, its always a choice. Either i choose if i want it or not. My life is just like a checklist of choices.. ticking yes or no as i go along.. it;s like a long list of questionaire : If you chose yes, turn to page 4. If you choose no turn to page 3. And how often we take a peek at both pages to find the shortest way out of the survey. If only life was that simple. If only one option did not lead on to another question. If only we could see and choose what lied ahead, maybe we would've selected a different answer then. If only our answers were not affected by our emotions, or by our peers, but because it is..It has become an asset to marketers.. But this is only human nature.. why am i so emo....sigh... ahaha | | |
| It's toughwe're night birds... why...how can we younger generation stay up so late these days.
but glad to know we have the stamina..however these late nights..eat into our electric bill.. blah.
I;ll be slugging at work tmr..wishing time passed very very very quickly.
shit. Work again.
i just wanna stay burried under my sheets..
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| 나는 그에게 사랑을 주었다 그러나 아무것도 그 답례로 얻는 나는 다시 사랑할 수 없다 나가 당신 같이 남자를 만날 때까지 ok.. tell me, does this make sense ? ahah | | |
| If i had to chooseIf i had to choose.. It will be between you or God. No one else.
I won't go for any other guy, because you are the only one in my life.
God knows that. He knows how precious you are to me. He knows how i high i have placed you in my life.
He knows, I've secured your position in par with his, in my heart.
He knows, that i know its not right.
I just pray God doesn't make me choose. I'd hate to choose. My heart and mind collide, and it's causing me to suffer.
Thats the only reason i suffer . I don't suffer because you make me
do. I do so because i can't find the guts to do what is right.
I just don't want to loose you if i choose God. But at the same time,
don't want God to make me loose you if i decide not to choose Him.
I want both. I need both.
You are my everything.
I'll keep praying, and ask God please, to keep you by my side, while i will turn to Him.
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Grow old together with me, the best is yet to be.
Thats the only assurance that tells me, it's a sign from God, asking me to trust him in everything.
I'll take that little step of faith. I'll have the patience to wait.
Because only You understand how i feel, and since the first day you blessed us with this relationship, i have done nothing but thank you each day for it.
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