| summer is crazy... that is all.. |
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| My feelings have been hurt by the one that i love the most. I was called selfish today, which most people think i am anything but. To top it all off they wanted me to drive them to deep ellum this evening b/c they didnt have the gas for it, but they couldnt drive 2 minutes down the road to come see me. Interesting. anyways... since i'm selfish here.... the worst part is all i could do is sit there and cry, my whole body felt numb, and i could only cry. love is... painful and crazy. |
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| Ok... i'm stressed out to my max. I'm going to scream! I put money in the bank, but they dont have it yet, so now im in the red. I'm freaking out. And I dont have any gas money... AGH.... and I'm supposed to go to Dallas tomorrow and to TYler on Friday, but i have an 1/8 of a tank of gas.... I'm gonna cry.. |
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| OK. Something really touched me last night and made me SOO appreciative of my relationship. It broke my heart to see the struggles that some people will go thru for the one they love. Its sad to see people hanging on when they get no help. To pour your heart into something just to have it rejected. To me, that would hurt worse than breaking it off all together. To continually give, and get nothing. Why do people hang on when there is nothing left to hang on to? Is it the fear of what will happen if they dont? Is it the "hero complex" and if that is the only reason, then is it really love? Maybe on your part, but not on theirs. Love is a battle, and sometimes you have to know when to forefit. When to throw in the towel to save yourself from the pain. If your not loved back, then what are you? A sap who has put your heart out there to have it torn up by the one you "love"? Its interesting, and quite simply painful. But there is a time when its ok to let go... not just ok, but necessary.
"Its something unpredictable, but in the end its right, i hope you have the time of your life" |
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| Ok, first week of my sophomore year of college went ok. Lots of work to do this semester, plus im adding a job to the load... so i wont be around much... or awake, but eh, thats life!!!! |
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