I honestly do not know why I am updating this - but here goes - lately I feel like all that I do is go to school and work. It is really kind of frustrating - considering that everyone around me has summer and I just feel like it is any other time of the year (with warm weather that I cannot enjoy). I dunno - I feel like I need to be saving money so that I can do what I want with my life - but at the same time, I feel like I might be happier overall if I could have at least one day off during the week. Why does everything have to cost money? Ugh. Summer school is going well - I am learning how to use a view camera. I'm kind of worried about it - considering that the film is soooo expensive so I take extra long to make sure that everything in the shot is perfect - not to mention that I have like ZERO time to do any sort of developing/printing other than the days that I am at school. I have been able to see Kelly a bit more lately. She makes me happy, like - I dunno..I just feel like she is one of the only people around that understands me.
Everyone keeps telling me that I'm really white. I can totally tell how it might throw people off - because I am usually lifeguarding (which I now have no time for) so in the summer I am usually another race...but this year.. gah. I really wish that I could work at the pool..what a vacation that would be from all of this. :/ But I dunno, hearing that I am white as heck makes me feel kinda self-conscious. I dunno..I wish that I felt prettier.
I want to do something with me life! Like - I need to get out of here for a bit! UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHH
Sorry if this comes off as really whiny or something - I think that I just needed to vent or something.
I am going to bake cookies now for a friend who really appreciates them - then I am going into work at three. Ugh :( F my life, eh?
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I honestly cannot wait for summer school to start. I miss taking photos ever so much.
Can someone pleeeeease help me stop feeling like crudbuttz :( aghh sinus infection aaaaghhhhhhh. WAH
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
p.s. allergies blow ;[
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
life keeps on changin' tell it to stay still, but it won't listen i just want you near me like you are now for good i'll keep ya for good