How is everyone? I hope things are well.

Do you ever feel a certain way and not know why? Maybe it's just me...This morning I wasn't looking forward to doing much of anything at all and I don't know why. Then by band it was like I didn't have a care in the world. Maybe something physically or mentally changes throughout the day that you don't have control over.

Have you noticed that every rule or law has a least one exception. I've noticed that....frequently actually. Think of anything, anything at all and I'm sure someone else in the world can tell you one way to get around it.

Life is full of 'buts' 'what ifs' and 'only if this turned out differently' From personal experience, it's not healthy to live life wondering the possiblities of something that didn't go the way you wanted it to or turn out in your favor. Your whole life you'll be questioning the past, and not dreaming future.

I was just sitting in Geography this afternoon and a million different thoughts ran through my mind at once. A million different questions and beliefs and theories all at once. Sometimes the greatest thoughts one can have occur in the most unexpected places at the most unexpected times.

Thanks for taking the time to listen to my different topics of today's entry. Enjoy!

<3

even if her plane crashes tonight
she'd find some way to disappoint me
by not burning in the wreckage
or drowning at the bottom of the s.e.a.

Rachel and I were rocking out to some Brand New on our way home from the Band Compition. I know I'm a little late to be talking about something that occured on Saturday, so I'm not going to. All I can say is...what would be an awesome day with friends without 'drama' ughhh

I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in awhile. I've been so busy lately with band, school and other things. I promise to update more.

We have a compition this weekend at Blue Springs and I'm working the 'photography' section. I'm not sure what that jobs entails, but Micheal said it's the worst one to pick. Grreat....thanks for telling me now.Hah. It seems like all I can talk about lately is band this and band that. I'm sorry if it bores you into a deep slumber, but it's really important to me. Like Rachel said on her site. Children at a young age are taught that being passionate, or deticated about something is wrong. Along with our peers...They'll laugh and poke fun at you if you show interest in anything that may be 'different' or 'atypical' Which is really screwed up. Why should someone be laughed at or ridiculed for loving something. So to make a rather long rant short. I'm very passionate about band along with other things, and I'm not going to let people tear that away from me, and neither shouls you.

I heart Mr. Wilhoit! He is so funny and is logic is so cool. I don't know how else to describe it. Oh, for those of you that don't know who he is. Mr. Wilhouit is our assistant band director this semester. He is so cool. He likes jazz!! YAY!! I'm going to miss his when he leaves.

Everything is going fine...really it is. I'm happy, content and right now I have high self-esteem, which is a really good thing. I still haven't seen Corpse Bride yet though. ughh..I've been waiting sooo long for this movie to come out.

Tim Bruton and Johnny Deep= Cinamatic Geniues!!!

I have a shout out for Taylor Christmas!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA SHMUCK!!!! Love you!!

OMG!! Homecoming was a blast. Well, up until my dress broke....ughhh..I was soo mad. The strape suddenly snaped and my dress wouldn't stay up without it. After many strenuous minutes we finally found a safety pin. That's my wardrope malfunction of the evening...haha..There is always one, right? Everyone looked gorgous. Rachel's mom thought I looked like I was 18....haha...niice I know. I must admit, I looked hawt. teehee....and of course all of my beautiful friends were hawt as well.

Rachel and I had an after party, well after homecoming. It was sooooo much fun! There were 25 people there, a ton of food, a ninja, a big black man, and I huge blue furry....thing that ran through her yard. If you're pondering about the ninja, big black man and the huge blue furry thing...There is a simple explanation for it. Sam Martell, my other neighbor, decided it would be a grand use of their time to dress up and run around our party...haha..It was HILarious. If you don't believe me or you weren't cool enough to go, don't worry....I have pics.  There were also the....drum role please.................................. Ta da!! THE BUTT SEX MONKIES!!!!!  Then Mark threw-up next to the tomato plants after chugging a whole 2L bottle of Diet Coke......awwhh poor Mark. I hope you're stomach feels better hun. I loved the whole tearing of the shirt deal...haha..that was hot.  Overall it was a great night. Hope everyone has a great week!

love always

I have found the perfect dress!! YAY!! Way to go me! Everyone can see it on Saturday....yay! I got mine at Dillards and it was around $90. Anyway, that's enough about my FABulous dress. teehee. I'm going to look GORgous!!

So much to do, so little time. I've homework, marching band practice, parades, homecoming, after party  Well, to make a long story short, it's an effing lot of stuff. I can't tell you how excited I am! I'm not going to go into too many details here, but Rachel and I are throwing an effing party!! WOOT!!! Our first party for no good reason! YAY!! I feel so grown up...haha..well I did before I said that. Some of our awesome clarinet upperclassmen might come! YAY!

Sorry that I never got around to updating more on my last entry. Like I said...no time, nor ambition.

I felt so stupid in band today. We had a memorization test on the ballad that I totally wasn't prepared for. So right now I have a big, fat 0...ughh..I felt so irresponsible and a lack of effort ran through me. I can tell that Dr.A was kind of dissapointed in us. Non the less...I felt bad. Then I thought that I forgot my dotbook. I was freaking out, because I need it, first of all. If we don't have it I would have had to run tow laps around the track, which me being me, I really didn't want to do. So I came home and practiced really really hard, like a good little student...haha...right...

I want Rachel to come back!!!!

love always

P.S Today was my dad's birthday, so took 10 mins out of my busy schedule and figured out how to play Happy Birthday on the clarinet! How cool am I?!?! Haha. Then I played it for him when we gave him his present and all that jazz. YAY MOI!! 

I'm going dress shopping tomorrow! YAY! No one is coming with me either, I want it to be a suprise for everyone. Bwahaha.. Still no invites..sheesh guys, what's taking so long. Are you guys shy or something? Haha...no kust kidding. I'll probably end up going with the girls again, which is ok with me. I'm really excited too. For awhile I didn't think I was going to go, but then I'd be missing out on a lot of fun things.

We've got family over so I'll update more later.

love always