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| Since people have been telling me to update this pathetic thing here it
is. Xanga is really gay and annoying. It is only cool when you have
absolutely nothing to do. People who are obsessed with myspace or Xanga
are retarded losers. There you go everyone Enjoy reading this. I hope
you are reuniting yourself with the middle school days
Peace
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| Hmm since my last entry I have done alot of stuff... My summer finally
turned around in a very positve happy way. My talk with father went
over swell...I finally admitted to Amber that I like her... and ummm, I
saw Wedding Crashers. That was a great movie, let me tell you. Of
course if any of the teachers of WCS heard that I saw it, I would
probably be banned from the school forever. I got Id twice to get into
that movie...as if my liscence isnt real proof that I am 17....stupid
losers. I wouldnt recommend this movie to any people who are sensative
about the topic sex...this wouldnt be a movie for you to view. Hmmm
what else, I hung out with Amber twice since then. It is nice just
being able to talk to someone for hours on end without even getting
bored once. She is an amazing girl...and she isnt retarded like most of
the female race. Whatevs she is a very cool person, who I am quite fond
of. This senior year isnt going to be the hell I thought it was going
to be. I think it is because my attitude on life has changed alot and I
am not a mean angry creep anymore. Four classes that is all I am
taking, I know I say this every year but this year I plan on doing well
in school...because with four classes I can focus better. This past
year I took like 8 so yeah that explains it for you.
I cant wait for senior year of varsity soccer to begin...I am excited
alot. It is weird how fast time goes by it just seems like last week we
were having our awards banquet....I have already completed 3 years of
highschool . All three sucked alot, so I
am not ruining senior year no way jose. I think Junior year was the
hardest by far. So good luck upcoming juniors you are going to die...
I think i should set up a school that would teach blind kids how to
read, and deaf kids how to hear. And on wednesdays there would be a
special class for retarded people to overcome their retardedness...I
think i would make alot of money...alot.
I think Kmart is going to die, now thay target is set up. This week has
been very sad in teh store as no one is in there. I dont care that much
because that way no one bothers me. Target was gay though why build a
target in webster when there is one right in Penfiled...not to bright
if you ask me.
I almost died the other night too, but that is another story. OMG these
nutty bars are going to make me so fat, they are going right to my
hips...wow I am glad I am not a girl and I dont have to worry about
what I eat. Must suck to be a girl, I was just thinking... Girls have
to spend so much money to maintane themselves. They have to buy
tampons, make up, clothes , etc...guys well we dont need to worry about
that at all. Sorry ladies...I would hate to be you. Oh yeah and you
girls worry about the most retarted things in life that dont even
matter to anyone. I just get frusterated with the female race because
most of you are so moody it isnt even funny. Oh well that is enough
bashing on the female race tommorrow I will bash the italian race.
Oh I got a yellow card yesterday night. That was two games with back to
back yellowcards...not cool. I hope Amber doesnt became a I hate
Broghan person because of it. As I told her I wouldnt bea a loser head
like that anymore. Some things in soccer you just cant help though. She
wont hate me though because only a shallow loser would be like
that and she is far from that...and it would be wrong to bring her name
up ever again when that is mentioned...so her and shallow loser dont
belong in the same topic ever.
Well I think I am done rambling on and on and on about nothing...
Well I think I only wrote in this just so I could update it... my real
thoughts are on a piece of paper in my room...I dont keep an organized
journal at all...it just consists of random thoughts all over the page.
Peace
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|  The night I cant Sleep
Hey Xanga dude...I am writing in you, because I cant sleep. It is weird
dude...I have always been able to sleep, I have never laid in my bed
like I just did for the past hour thinking. I always fall asleep right
away. But tonight I cant fall asleep, so I decided I would use you a
bit and write some of the thoughts that have been keeping me from
sleeping, not all of them of course. Hmmm I think for 30 straight
minutes I thought about a certain topic. I just was wondering how I
ever made such a great friend. Like I have had good friends in the past
but they all became gay and loserish. I just cant understand why I
think about her so much. It is very weird... I have never ever thought
about a friend so much as much as her. It is not like I am an obssevie
weirdo, and I am a loser like that...because I am cooler than a loser.
It is just that I never ever can get her out of my head. It is weird.
Obviously she isnt my thoughts 24/7...but I always think about how I
met her, and how I have had a lot of fun with her. I know she is a
person worth keeping around. Majorly! My other thoughts that were
currently jumping in and out of that major topic i just listed,
were...me dying and seeing how many people would come to my funeral,
Wedding Crashers, Fantastic 4, Charlie and the chocolate
factory...actually how Johnny Depp made some weird faces, this upcoming
school year, all my friends that are leaving me for college, stupid
mistakes I have made, and finally coming down here to write in this
retarded thing. Hmm maybe I should try this again...going to bed
thingy, as I have to get up early tommorrow to talk to Father ...that
should be interesting...hope I like the result.
*If anyone is currently up reading this right now...you need some help
like me with sleeping. On one more note I dont care who reads my Xanga
as I mean everything I say in it...so if you dont like it or flet it
was boring...deal with it *
So long and goodnight
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|  Summer is Loserish...
I think now I officially hate the summer more than
anything...Having/Being made to live in two homes is just unreal. Maybe
i forgot how old I am, maybe my dad has... it is sad because I get
along really great with my dad...but he has a very controling
personality. Instead of every other normal 17 year old with divorced
parents, I am made to come out to my dads. I wish I could go whenever I
wanted too, but obviously that isnt the case. I am almost ready to just
stick my foot down and not budge, but I dont feel like dealing with the
whole mess of that. I really hate this alot. I dont mean to sound like
the loser-head kid who complains about life and is depressed and wants
life to end. I am no wheres near that. I think I am officially sick of
hiding behind a mask of happiness. I think I am tired of trying to be
the best at soccer. I think I am tired of alot of stuff, but I dont
have a cure to fix any of them.The onyl cure that makes me happy is
being around friends. Amber helps out alot, because i dont think I
could ever be mean or rude to her. She seems to bring about a positve,
easy going ness attitude in people, at least for me she does.So
therefore she makes me happy and she is mad cool along with all my
dorkling buddies. I just pray that this loser summer would end very
soon, or having two homes will turn into living at my Own...Summer is
suppose to be the best ever and be a blast, and yet every mornign I
wake up in a bad mood... or it is has only been the past week.
Whatevs.....
Our concert thing went ok I guess...could have been better but oh well. I think I should find a happiness somwhere....
Peace Out Nerds
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|  A face I havent had in a while...
I have decided I should try and be happy more often...Maybe it will
work maybe it wont. We won today 7-0, it was a very boring-Easy game. I
felt bad because that team sucked so bad...I hate playing those kind of
games...after the game I was so down... and I didnt even care but I
should have a better attitude my gramps said, so I will try from now
on. Also I have had a pretty bad mouth lately...I shoudl try working on
that too...I will only produce filth out of my mouth, when it involves
the stupid loser faggot Derek...Anywho... I have been running alot
lately too, and lifting, and playing soccer alot! Varsity starts in
like a month... and then after that sad story is over... i will never
play highschool again. I must make it a great success. I will not make
it a crappy year... It hasnt even phased me yet that I am a senior...It
might later, but who knows. Soccer camp with J-mister will be awesome
and fun. It was a blast last year, so hopefully it will be again.
Whatevs though
Kmart is cool, sometimes it sucks but it is worth going when you know
the people you work with are completely cool. And breaks are great when
people you like go on them with you. Peach Snapples are great too.
This Sunday we play our "show" at the church. I hope we dont mess up,
as I will feel like a loser. Well this whole week will be pratice
pratice so we dont suck, oh well.
Guess this journal is over...
Peace
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