deep thought of the month:

Stone, flesh & Wood

The hammer pounds again, against unbroken flesh. This flesh steels against the beating it is taking on. A heart as soft as pulp tries to squeeze itself together as chisels are now taken to the stoneyness of the exterior. Salty-water scarcely escapes from the two pools of brown swimming in white. Breath comes reguarly, but sometimes in gasps at the thought of becoming unstoney. The stoneyness is what has, for many years, protected the glass princess that resides inside the pulp-like heart. A helpless grasping at what once she knew.... a feeble attempt to stop the pounding. A warm hand moves away the desparate hands that try to hide her heart from brokenness. A strike, and then some chiseling. More pain is felt. Another strike- in anguish she longs to hold on to all she's known- afraid to know the true princess she was made to be. A fragile tear escapes an eye made of what she has seen in her lifetime. Words fail her as all she can do now is surrender each battle daily to her support to which she clings for dear life....

....and somehow wood is stronger than stone.

To quote myself:

".......it  is  better to  hurt and bleed, then to hurt and have  no outlet  but  salty water....."

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this is life.....unspoken for....respect it.

do you ever just feel like punching someone in the face?

......and then you think about it, and how they are probably hurting inside too...

dang it...... that's what I get for being a girl.

I'd like to think of this week as one major

SNEEZE.

I could cry.

I am at a loss of words as to everything that is going on in my life right now....and I have no right to be as selfish as I have been.

I wish that I could blink and make it all better... but it's not that easy.

I have to laugh at myself because God is so gracious to me. I almost messed up big time, and yet..... By His grace I didn't.

I almost hurt worse for my friends.....and what they are going thru. so much.

My life is nothing compared to where my friends are right now.

Oh to be in their shoes! if only I could trade.....

*if you're reading this remember that I love you with all my heart!! Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't love you still and always.