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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Come away with me
where time
and distance mean nothing

where you don't blame me for my age
I want you but not now
what a cliche
you deserve more
you deserve someone there
weather you think you need someone or not
you held me together
you always knew what to say
you were brief yet perfectly wonderful
I never thought such an encounter would still effect me this way
I wish I had more to remember you by
more Sundays in bed just talking
more early morning workdays in which we played with the time
more time with you before I left you
my sorry isn't enough
cause it's an empty feeling that I still hold on to
I think my heart will break when I realize
you might not be there in the end
I'm flying on my own but in the end hope
to nest with you
the odds are laughed at
but in the end I hope it us

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

toxic

lush
smashed
blitzed
tipsy

get yourself

pull yourself together

once was fun

second time a blast

but everyday

shut down the party

close your bar down

clear your mind from your hungover mess

rinse your mouth from your foul speech

find your bra

get out of this room that smells of dirt and jock strap

do the walk of shame

pull your hair back

look in the mirror to reconfirm

the hott mess staring back at you

lush
smashed
blitzed
tipsy

get yourself

pull yourself together

once was fun

second time a blast

but everyday

shut down the party

close your bar down

clear your mind from your hungover mess

rinse your mouth from your foul speech

call your friends

piece your night together

wonder if anything happened

besides your red face and the absence of your underwear in the morning

cigarette smoke lingers on your clothes

on your breath on your fingers

lush, smashed, blitzed, tipsy
call it what you want
Picture of my past

i saw a picture of you

and your masculine demenire

which faded away with what was left of what I felt for you

I see you for weak and standing on your tall stories you tell alone

I once said you were a singers CD

full of songs of angst you caused

you have no idea what I think of you

nor do you care

this just feels good to let out

you are just another thing I chalk up to

having wanted for so long

but happy I never got

oh so happy

you are nothing but a poster board

of the bad seed of men

the bad seed of souls

that only teenagers with innocence so blind

that they try to fix

the naive is what you feed on

I wrote kind words to you once

I fell for you deeply and crazy

with no control

It makes me sad to think of that girl

you are the person that makes me wonder

where does the fucking love go?

Damn Fergie for causing a cheap laugh when I ask

Where the fuck did the love go?

Its long sailed from here

faster that the enter moving us on to the next line
I hesitate to erase

I sit in a new place that I know for the first time call my own

fearless of the new

almost feel renewed youth within me

like the youngster once again

I did it

I'm here and I love it

I went away from it all

all I wanted to be away from

I don't want to bother with explaining

miss and love those I should

wonder and ponder of those I should care less

I breath in and barely feel it's importance

I mumble and moan my hopes and dreams

my words and desires get lost in the translation

I read back and wonder the cohesion of what I just thought

what I just wrote

but I hesitate to erase

and hope I get back on the train of thought that I left behind

tell me what you want

give me proof as to how

show me the sweat from your brow

show the muscles in which you carry it all

I will give you all the time you need to answer

I will give you all the time you need to show me

as I sit here in my new place and

miss and love those I should and

wonder and ponder of those I care less

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I wasn't the one

the day you told me it was over
i was too young
i wasn't the one
i wasn't the one for you

i was so and so
i was etc.
i just wasn't the one for you

all not true
refused to believe i wasn't

and just stayed there and listened
holding your massive hands
over my face that held what was to be my last tears

you were so unwillingly
you carelessly held my heart
I thought you were dumb
an idiot
a moron
mental
even sick
but it was today
on this Valentine's Day
that I realized you were wise
you woke up one day and you were wise
not blind by a love you wanted
clear headed and away from the clouds
you woke up and you realized
that if you let me love you
I would have eventually left you
cause I would have eventually known to leave you
I'm better than you
and I may have thought you were the dummy then but you were oh so wise
ahead of your time
thank you for letting me know i wasn't the one