jean loves puzzle

it 's been a long time, hi everyone!

work occupies a lot of me recently. but the satisfaction give me some comfort in return. Jean is growing, tak a look at her ballet dance class pictures:

she follows very well, just that she loves to get in front of the teacher to get her attention. it seems like she established some kind of way to build up a relationship with the teacher. well, at the same time, she is learning how to comply with the discipline in class

she is growing, as  compare the profile pic and the 2 pictures above, i just cannot believe it...........

a school bus driver used a 13 passenger van, in plsce of his schoool bus to drive the children home, because the schoolbus was taken to the shop to be fixed. a horrible accident occurred when an MTA bus rammed into the rear ot the side, rendering 1 little girl seriously injured.

there gotta be a reason why some rules and regulations are there. in this case, a school bus has what it takes to protect the kids from being injured in an accident.......so why take it so lightly, the driver knew it, yet , he chose to ignore it," probably it is not gonna be me........" he thought. 

there is a price to pay every time we take chance. if its not us to pay, its the others who paid for us.

i never thought i could get to this furious.....

we wer driving home, Joti said, the tuesday before 12/22/07, i should be rehearsing with the band. so, may be she can go to the Christmas party of the hosp network with co workers....... right at the moment, i did not feel anything, OK, i thought, if you want to go to the party, let's work it out, may be it's possible. few minutes later as we talked on, i felt sick, my heart raced and pounding, i went furious, thinking that she is going to the party with the coworkers, and she is going to have a great time and it's Ok that she will go without me.

it's been a long time since i last felt so angry about anything. i was really feeling sick at that moment.

well , ladies who are reading, i know you are getting judgemental already......

"why not? can we have a great time when you are doing something you wanna do........"    you must be saying,"alex you are so out and uptight!"

well in fact, the reason why i got so upset i guess was, when it comes to schedule and time use, we always talk, and to be honest, i am careless , she reminds me alot and she fixes things up for me, so , i am grateful and i have got into the habit of consulting before deciding. if she says no, i won't say yes. cos' she always ends up right. and we put our mutual willingness to comply to the arrangement first. this time, it seems to me, going to party, which is a happy thing to her and to me, and i will be willing to work it out,i was not valued appropriately. or simply say, i am jealous and i was put at second.

later she admits, she really does not want to go without me.she was hoping things will work out infavor of both. she probably was taking her chance in saying it. she say she was surprised how i reacted.

man, being angry is very painful, i really don't want another "test" like this.....

a week ago, we found out that Jean started to follow on the recording to sing ABCDEFG.....HIJKLMNOP....she doesn't really sing out every word, but does manage to at least get the 1 st and the last alphabet of each phrase at the right time. when prompted, she dosen't complete all the time, she is a little shy, but she could finish when she thought she was not noticed.....and everytime she does it, she got to grab a cylindrical object to pretend she is holding a microphone.

2 days ago, she started telling "stories".

Joti tells her story to catch her attention to try to put her to sleep. the 3 pigs and the big bad wolf is her favorite. recently when she was prompted to tell us a story, she went like:

豬豬.......uk uk (屋屋).........foooooooo(吹......)..........走呀走呀走呀走..........快d快d快d............

she really amazes us everyday.