yelly's Xanga

nov08 101

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 09:02:54 GMT

i was reading frd's post, and well, this has been on my mind for long enough too
i wonder how many knots do i have that i need to untie
i don't even know what i'm confused about
what i'm deeply annoyed about
no, not the surface ones regarding me dissing things as from the older xanga posts
i don't know how much dust bunnies are bouncing around in my head now
weee
weeeeee
i look at others, i get envy/jealous
yes, i'll admit that
what is in my head anyway
electrical impluses
fat
liquid
more fat
ok, fine. lipids
neurons
and stuff
so, where to look for those dust bunnies, i wonder
even if you ask me what's wrong, i wouldn't be able to answer you
cause i don't know what's wrong with me
i would like to answer you, so i can figure out what to do
or maybe it's just because i'm thinking too much
haven't think that much lately, trying to purge brain
it'll be back
one day
one day
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nov08 000

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 08:49:43 GMT

It blew my mind
Into a million pieces
Pushed you aside
And still you got my back
Chapter one page one
This is the part where i got weak
Fell in too deep
Everyday and night got caught up in the hype
Started getting rough but cause you showed me love i'm gonna

Bounce Bounce back
Shake it off get right on track
I'm movin' on
Gotta put it in the past
Bounce Bounce Back
Snap my fingers and just like that
I let it go
Gotta let it fade to black
Like a river
Cry all my tears
I have to swim through it
Dry it off i'm outta here
Bounce Bounce Back
Shake it off I'm right on track
I'll be movin' on

Bounce Bounce Bounce Bounce Back
Bounce Bounce Bounce Bounce Back

Another day, still playa's out to run game
Trying to make me flow to places I don't roll
Chapter two, page two
Happening again, like dejavu, but its brand new
Testing my faith I won't make the same mistakes
So playa drop the drama
Flip the script and now I'm gonna

Chorus

Yo, You've been down since the day i found ya
There ain't no way that I can do without ya
Its off the chain the way I feel about you
I know I fell astray, believe me when I say
This time Lord this time i'm gonna be strong
This time Lord you know i'm gonna hold on
This time Lord When you forgive a wrong, I'm leaving it alone
Gonna be bounced, bounced bounced bouncin' back oh ya

wonder can i
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oct08 104/402

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 07:08:06 GMT

i think this is another recurring issue in my head
after ugly fashion and stupid behaviors
if there should only be one meaning behind the Bible
as in the interpretation of it
what is even the point of arguing what it means
when there's only one meaning
why do people twist things around so much
(ok, fine, i'll admit it. i twist words around myself, but just to tease people, and not to do anything malicious.
other than if you consider calling dinner lunch and lunch lunch and breakfast still lunch. that's another issue, but it's just hurting the head, and not the mind)
if it doesn't specifically say so in the Bible, people then take it every freaking way they want
no context, no proof
and then there's wikipedia, with no citation, you get yourself flamed
so, what's different with the Bible. it's not like it gets an exemption permit
just take something without knowing what it actually stand for and use it
fun

note to self
buy cd
look for old music vids
finish reading the book already to pass on to Om
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oct08 103

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 21:57:56 GMT

too bad durian cost a lot
otherwise, this would be good
chuck a whole durian at dumb kids that shoot fire crackers at cars
or maybe i should just run them over
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oct08 102

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 06:17:51 GMT

it's almost halloween
and how am i being reminded of that?
i can hear people blowing things up near my area already
a) stupid open school field
b) stupid people
c) why can't they be shipped off to middle east so they can play with some real explosives?
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oct08 101

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 07:03:31 GMT

we were created to be in a community
even God made Eve for Adam so he wouldn't get bored
but over time, what happened
humans are kinda independent and solo now
i'm not even referring to the whole ate the forbidden object, broken link with God thing for a bit
wake up, go work, he he ha ha (read it as chinese would. sorry), go back to empty apt, sleep
lather, rinse, shave, repeat til you plop
where did it go wrong
oh don't even say internet or television
they might contribute to it nowadays, but i'm talking about way from the start

onto another topic
HK people loves to suicide
but haven't heard much after the stock crash
they getting stronger, or just killing each other instead of jumping now
any one here that knows any stats on teachers suicide rate of north america/canada?

the 400 series might be taking a short break this week
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oct08 401

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 07:28:41 GMT

i should have posted this a couple weeks back
what is the first day of the week anyway
which one is the last day anyway
don't tell me the standard saturday, sunday or monday answer
the whole sabbath thing, a lot of people base it on the the last day of the week thing
but, didn't we just randomly assign what numbers mean?
the Bible doesn't even say what day is the seventh day
it just said, He chillaxed after 6 days of hard work
in a way, i'm mainly thinking about some religion/denomination of religion here
i'm actually curious as if people under those groups
when they're preaching on that everyone else's sabbath day
is that considered as working, since it is working
but then, i guess it's just leading the whole congregation in the worship of God
does that make sense?

the seventh day, after He has done everything, the Bible doesn't seem to have mention the night part
when does the seventh night actually start anyway
now, assuming it started after the fall of Adam and Eve, did they sleep at all?
(now i'm just going in really wild questions)
or maybe it's kinda like summer in the arctic, hehe
no night whatsoever, and then they got translocated

i just know, i need to get a sabbath day of my own

i still miss the old VHHH
gawd, i love the landing smack in the middle of the city
and yes, for those that follows both pages
i can't make up my mind on where to go
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sept08 403

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 08:10:40 GMT

finally started reading a book friend lent me on worship and how to get to people
actually need to get out of the house in order to start reading that book
one part that still that i read, and hangs in my mind
is that it's kinda a known fact that worship isn't meant to have a fixed style
but everyone seems to want it in a certain format
old style, new age, an hour long, time zone free
people are just focused on the event, and not the real thing anymore
maybe it is time, to just go back to basic
everyone kneeling (yeah, i know it hurts, i've done it before, so have a few others in my fellowship)
and just listen quietly
without any distraction
i mean, i gotta drive all the way out to UBC to read a book
granted, there was a reason why i was out at UBC already, but that's beside the point
must mean that TV is making my brain smaller
another point that the book take from other sources
saying that we need to water down everything now
including teaching the Gospel
just so people can handle everything
wonder how much smaller our brains are now
making us to can't comprehend anything anymore
not able to absorb the things the Bible are teaching us
or at least not able to remember things from 2 minutes ago anyway
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sept08 105

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 06:30:42 GMT

two questions that i get asked by ppl I know in HK
1) where do i like better
2) when am i going back for a visit
3) would i go back to HK to work
ok, fine, it's 3 questions
sometimes, i wonder if they actually expect me to know the answer to the second q cause anything can be changed at anytime
q 3 is easiest
q 1, you'd expect it to be easy to answer, right? nope

and then, here's one q i'd like to pose to those that actually are still reading this thing
for Canadians, do you know your SIN and driver's license by heart
for Americans, do you know your SSN and driver's license by heart
for HK people, do you know your HKID number by heart
ermm, i know there are other nationalities reading this, but i don't know what is the equivalent.
why do i ask
cause my soon to be ex manager said that everyone should know that by heart
so i'm now asking you, do you actually know it too
i know there are some of you that would have more than one numbers because you go between places, just pick one, and answer

watching SClub7's S Club Party
and it reminds me that they jump up and do the whole S logo thing
and i'm wondering
did the whole jumping picture thing started then, or later, or earlier
mmmm
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sept08 402

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 21:58:31 GMT

temptation against obedience
i know i have none of the latter, haha
been tempted to be a lazy ass all the time
ok, maybe not tempted, just been getting lazier all the time
but yeah, we're taught to obey things
obey the laws, obey your parents, it even goes as far back as God telling Adam and Eve to listen to him and not eat that fruit thingy
and then there's our standard sinful nature
to go against all that is good and do our own shiat
think about it
people now would go drink til they need a liver/kidney replacement young
think the older generation is the idiot bunch
we would just go in our own little world
and then maybe crawl back if in that much crap
but even then, i doubt some ppl would go back, thinking they're right, and just keep going
kinda goes back to the whole pride thing
i'm so smart. S M R T
it's those ppl that i wouldn't midnd just seeing their organs go into complete meltdown cause they're being stupid anyway
having fun, fine
slowly killing yourself, i wouldn't mind to assist in quickening up the process
and then there's when we listen and obey, we wouldn't doubt and grumble and just twist our brain into a mush just because we'd be trying to say i'm not gonna listen or second guess things and then grumble more cause we just don't know what's going on and question any and every damn thing possible

so what really is the point tonight?
obey stuff and die happier, unless you are that unlucky and get cancer or get kill by some jerkface that isn't obeying stuff
or be an idiot