yenna116's Xanga

Monday, September 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 13:42:30 GMT

ummm....i just wanted to add a special friend to one the coolest/most gorgeous/funniest girls i know thing.....even though i dont live with her or see her that much....Laura Gillaugh, i do love and will always love ya....!!! muah

Friday, September 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 13:44:00 GMT

its been awhile......not much has happened....o wait..it has. im pretty much loving my life living w/ 9 of the hottest, funniest, sweetest, and coolest girls i know. i have so much fun that sometimes i forget that i dont have enough money for the frickin rent. o well....anyway, i've been feeling really selfish lately and i feel like i might be ruining my life. i'm not living for God the way i should. I'm being materialistic and stupid. i'm worrying and not trusting Him, and then getting frustrated when things dont work out. i'm pissing myself off. do you ever get annoyed of yourself? yeah, thats me right now. o well...i just remembered why i dont like xanga..i ramble on about dumb-A stuff that no one cares about.

Friday, March 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 04:02:08 GMT

Purposely Ungrammatical Love Song

There's many and many, and not so far,

Is willing to dry my tears away;

There's many to tell me what you are,

And never a lie to all they say.

It's little the good to hide my head,

It's never the use to bar my door;

There's many as counts the tears I shed,

There's mourning hearts for my heart is

There's honester eyes than your blue eyes,

There's better a mile than such as you.

But when did I say that I was wise,

And when did I hope that you were true?

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 16:37:32 GMT

At the Party

W. H. Auden

Unryhmed, unrhythmical, the chatter goes:

Yet no one hears his own remarks as prose.

Beneath each topic tunelessely discussed

The ground-bass is reciprocal mistrust.

The names in fashion shuttling to and fro

Yield, when deciphered, messages of woe.

You cannot read me like an open book.

I’m more myself than you will ever look.

Will no one listen to my little song?

Perhaps I shan’t be with you very long.

A howl for recognition, shrill with fear,

Shakes the jam-packed apartment, but each ear

Is listening to its hearing, so none hear.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 03:42:28 GMT

I LOVE MY GIRLIES!!!

OH!! does anyone need a cat....i have one! his name is pumpkin...he's THE friendliest cat EVER! but i already have two others (who are women and HATE men, rightly so tho! guys can be jerks) ANYWAY, he really needs a home..soon, otherwise my dad is taking the poor thing to the pound..and we all know what happens there! i dont want to even think about it..i'll start crying again... Anyway, here's his adorable pic...i know u want him!

HE'S FREE!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PPPPPPPLLLLLLLEEEEEEEAAASSE KEEP HIM!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 04:02:40 GMT

my christmas was awesome! i hung out w/ my bestest friend, my sis, my FAMILY!!! my HS friends...had some wild parties and a bunch of laughs! i miss them...i totally missed my friends from college, tho!!

Friday, November 12, 2004

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 12:46:55 GMT

Brittany Traeger gave me the best quote that described everything i was feeling yesterday!! Thanks, girl!!

"you adore the ones that ignore you and ignore the ones that adore you"

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 17:57:19 GMT

Why is it that we want what we can't have...or once we get it, we don't want it anymore? I hate that...we're never satisfied. OR...is it that we're scared of what we have...so if we don't have it...it can't hurt us?... so we try/dream for the things we know we won't get...then there's no disappointment. Even more so, what about wanting something only because u once had it...didn't want it anymore...lost it, and now you want it back? Maybe my thinkin is just screwed up or something. I just dont get why life is so complicated....well, y humans are so complicated. We make simple things so....huge and difficult.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 16:27:07 GMT

Lodged
by Robert Frost

The rain to the wind said,
"You push and I'll pelt."
They so smote the garden bed
That the flowers actually knelt,
And lay lodged -- though not dead.
I know how the flowers felt.

"Observation" - by dorothy parker

If I don't drive around the park
I'm pretty sure to make my mark.
If I'm in bed each night by ten,
I may get back my looks again.
If I abstain from fun and such,
I'll probably amount to much.
But I shall stay the way I am,
Because I do not give a d***!!!!"

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 13:39:12 GMT

Wasnt yesterday's weather so beautiful? The stars were even so incredible!! Anyway, last night i went to the movie Grudge. so dumb! i hated to ending!! Who thought of that anyway...but i guess i was scared so that was the point. Anyway, i had so so much fun.....FINALLY!!!

Anyway, i'm hangin out w/ my mommy today!! and then tonite...who knows what, but i'm sure it will be awesome and i'm kinda smellin some rain! heheheh