Why does everyone say that we should all have hopes and expectations?
Is it really good to have hopes and expectations? Is it really the right thing to do?
We can never guarantee that the outcome... it's a fact that we cannot deny right?

If you have hopes and expectations for something but it doesnt turn out the way you want it to be,
wouldnt you be more upset than you would be if you have no hopes and expectations?

If the answer is yes, then why should we have hopes and expectations? Doesnt it just mean that we're just hurting ourselves? 

今日收到消息我o係Dubai最好既朋友訂左婚
一方面戥佢開心，一方面又有唔開心，因為佢番黎之後我地兩個唔可以好似以前咁close
呢排成日覺得好悶，成日都係一個人...
雖然話自己變左，唔再咁計較一個人...但係始終想有人陪.....
好想番屋企架其實，但係為左事業，我仲想係度學多d野先..
仲有好多野可以學，但係佢地會唔會教我呢??
依家做緊既野已經開始同finance冇乜關係....做黎做去都係秘書做既野
話就話升我做Analyst，但係稔黎稔去都唔覺得自己有做過d同Analysis有關既task
咁點叫做Analyst呀?!?!?!?
心情好差，好想搵個人係度陪我係度同我傾計.........

 Sometimes... even I dont understand myself...

明明知道有d野係無可能發生仲係要等
明明知道有d野知道左真相之後都唔會改變任何事實都仲係想知
明明知道身邊有d真心關心我既人都仲係唔肯去信佢地

Why do I have a high EQ? is it a good thing or a bad thing?
Acting in front of everyone on a daily basis isn't fun at all....
But at least I know I'm doing a good job because they all think I'm over the sad things that happened since 2007, even the 2 persons who are supposed to understand me the most in here..

呢幾日心情又開始唔好...個腦冇停過
因為monthend?因為work pressure?定係因為其他野呀?
好想同人講，但係同邊個講? 好多人同我講係dubai唔可以信人.....
連自己做咩事唔開心都唔知咁可以同人地講咩呀??

尋日同同事傾計，佢話我睇落係一個好簡單既人但係其實我好複雜
因為我成日稔野喎..係咩???

One week's gone, finally I finished the course! The test was cancelled in the end, so they just handed out the certificates..hahahha... and I spent the whole night revising =.= so now another membership to pay for apart from HCIMA... they said we can now use the designation on our business cards.. erm... thats if I ever get one! The course is quite good actually but the attendees are all so professional anyway I couldnt explain why they had to spend so much money for this course - just to get the designation?!! The institute offers many more courses. I really want to go to the Financial Analyst one.. but I'm sure my boss wont spend that amount of money on me.. oh btw, I forgot to mention that I was just a substitute as my colleague couldnt attend! just in case you guys think I was nominated to go..hehhhe

Learnt a lot of F&A skills which is gonna help me with my work, but my body is telling me to slow down... Month end's starting this weekend and I have to cancel my off on Saturday... how can I slow down?!?! tell me.. I really hope the visa for the new MT will be processed soon, so I can pass on a section of my work to her!

Woohoo!! Internet installed at home FINALLY, after 10 months in Dubai! still dont understand how they suddenly manage to connect broadband to the building when 10 months ago, they insisted the building is too old and there's no coverage~ but well, the main point is I'VE GOT INTERNET NOW So happy, now I can chat with Daddy Mammy and my cousins a lot more!

Been thinking a lot though... kept thinking how would my life differ if I managed to get internet 10 months ago.. will everything still be the same now?! I dont even know why I'm thinking about it, but I just do.... Friends and Colleagues said I think too much -  I do admit it, but thats my character I suppose.... Will be able to blog a lot more from now on.

Thought of a lot to write when I was on the way to Madinat this morning, but now it's all blank now.... Anyways, time for bed xx