....but it's only because God first called me. I saw just a small glimpse of His love and want to give it all up and bow down, ze gadol alay.

"When you said "seek my face", My heart said to you "Your face, Lord, I will seek". (ps. 27)

He called me into intimacy and I shake out of the excitment of what this means. But even for this I need His help, His strength and courage "You are my rock and my fortress.....You are my strength" (ps. 31)

I love Him and He's taking me on saturday to Mozambique for more intimacy. Eze kef.

Knowing God personally doesn't promise we will always have the easy way. not at all...at least not for me. But it does promise we will be blessed in any situation. God doesn't help us escape from difficult times, but he helps us deal with them. He gives us tremendous grace and even joy.                 He glorifies himself through those hard times. that's what matters anwyay, right?! we are living for him to be glorified.                  I don't want to choose/ask for the easy life cause i want to be trained by Him. I want to be more than i want for myself. I want his calling for me. I'm sorry for being lazy...it's time for change. 

I am so gratfull for all this.

I'm not going to sit back and enjoy the breeze. i'm going to be a hard worker for him. It's not a piece of cake but it's for my abba.