ive gotten to the point where i want to stop dreaming.
i want to stop sleeping because in my dreams, all of my worst fears are coming true.
and these dreams are so realistic.
i wake up crying or trembling.
its rediculous.
and then i have to spend all day convincing myself it wasnt real.
but it feels like it is.
and its hard to trust the people its about or believe it never really happened.
or that it wont happen.
i just wish it would stop.
i cant handle it anymore.
i bet that i probably wont go to bed tonight.

::_**_:: Basics ::_**_::

01.)  The Name's: Lauren
02.)  Middle Name:: Jennifer
03.)  DOB:: 6.13.89
04.)  Age:: 16
05.)  Location:: ohio
06.)  Eye Color:: hazel
07.)  Hair Color:: blonde
08.)  Hair Length:: idk.. kinda long
09.)  Height:: 5'7
10.)  Shoe Size:: 6 or 7
11.)  Glasses or Contacts:: nope
12.)  Braces:: on the bottom for one more month
13.)  Single or Taken:: Taken
14.)  Bad Habits:: biting my nails, worrying.
15.)  Fears:: the dark, being alone. tons of things
16.)  Screen Name:: dark9star999

::_**_:: School ::_**_::

17.)  Where Do You Go to School:: WCHS
18.)  Whats Your School Mascot:: Warhawks
19.)  Whats Your School Colors:: black and silver
20.)  Whats Your Favorite Subject:: english or history
21.)  Whos Your Favorite Teacher:: king
22.)  What Do They Teach:: history
23.)  Who Sits Next to You In Math Class:: lehne and kyle

::_**_:: Love Life ::_**_::

24.)  Do You Have a Boyfriend/ Girlfriend:: Yes
25.)  If So, Whats There Name:: James
26.)  If So, How Long Have You Been Together:: almost 2 months
27.)  Do You Have a Crush:: i guess
28.)  Do They Know:: Yeah..
29.)  Have You Ever Broken Someones Heart:: idk maybe
30.)  Have You Ever Had Your Heart Broken:: not reallly

::_**_:: Favorites ::_**_::

31.)  Animal:: giraffe
32.)  Color:: brown
33.)  Person:: james
34.)  Subject:: already answered this
35.)  Season:: fall
36.)  Holiday:: halloween or christmas
37.)  Hobby:: idk
38.)  Sport:: swimming
39.)  Feeling:: loved
40.)  Saying:: idk
41.)  Word:: idk
42.)  Month:: june?
43.)  Clothing:: jimi's jacket
44.)  Jewelry:: ring from jimi
45.)  Food:: idk
46.)  Snack:: idk

::_**_:: Friends ::_**_::

47.)  Best:: james
48.)  Daringest:: leighanne
49.)  Funniest:: most of them
50.)  Tallest:: james
51.)  Shortest:: kevin
52.)  Loudest:: kim
53.)  Shyest:: ian
54.)  Smartest:: james
55.)  Blondest:: me
56.)  Craziest:: most of them
57.)  Nicest:: quite a few
58.)  Sweetest::james
59.)  Weirdest:: ian
60.)  Flirtest:: nick?

::_**_:: Have You Ever ::_**_::

61.)  Had a Wish Come True:: yes
62.)  Had a Dream Come True:: idk
63.)  Broken a Body Part:: no
64.)  Fallin’ in Love:: with james.
65.)  Done Something You Regret:: yeah
66.)  Tripped and Fell in Public:: yeah
67.)  Sang in Public:: yeah
68.)  Cryed in Public:: when i was younger
69.)  Kissed Someone Besides Family:: yes
70.)  Been in a Car Crash:: nothing serious

::_**_:: The Last ::_**_::

71.)  Thing You Did Before Getting on the Computer:: get water
72.)  Person You Yelled at:: i didnt yell, but at my parents
73.)  Person You Hugged:: james
74.)  Person You IMed:: james
75.)  Time You Cleaned Your Room:: week or so ago
76.)  Song You were Listening to:: a who song
77.)  TV Show You Watched:: idk
78.)  Movie You Watched:: day after tomorrow
79.)  Time You went to the Movies:: long time ago
80.)  Time You Cryed:: weeks ago
81.)  You Took a Shower:: im going to sooon

::_**_:: This OR That ::_**_::

82.)  Coke OR Pepsi:: i dont care
83.)  Tall OR Short:: tall
84.)  Flowers OR Candy:: flowers
85.)  Math OR English:: english
86.)  Blink 182 OR Sugarcult:: idk
87.)  Mickey OR Minnie:: Mickey
88.)  Middle School OR High School:: High school
89.)  Boyfriend OR Girlfriend:: boyfriend
90.)  Single OR Taken:: Taken

::_**_:: Word Association ::_**_::

91.)  bead:: blue
92.)  bed:: blanket
93.)  sexy:: james
94.)  phone:: silver
95.)  tough:: weight lifting
96.)  neato:: skip it?
97.)  leather:: black
98.)  weird:: ian
99.)  so:: crazy
100.)  easy:: not math
101.)  test:: sucks
102.)  nerd:: glasses
103.)  falling:: stairs
104.)  air:: wind
105.)  hot:: oven

::_**_:: Random ::_**_::

106.)  do u sleep with a stuff animal:: yeah
107.)  do u like snowballs:: no
108.)  are u in school:: not right now
109.)  do u like to swim:: yeah
110.)  are u funny:: idk
111.)  wut do u think of water:: its good.
112.)  are u a blonde at heart:: yahh.. whats up with all this blonde shit.
113.)  have u ever been to maryland:: no
114.)  have u seen “chasing liberty”:: no
115.)  are u happy this survey is over:: yah

Your Room-
How many windows are in your room? one
What color are your walls? light blue
Hardwood floors or carpet ? carpet
Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? both.. mostly room.
What does your bed look like? its white.. with yellow sheets and a light blue blanket.. +more blankets.
What does your comforter look like? lt. blue with stars
How many pillows do you have? 2, but i sleep with one
Do you have your own room? yeah
Is it big? its not big.. but not tiny.
Is it clean? not really
do you have the following in your room:
[x] desk
[ ] more than 3 sources of light
[x ]Phone
[x ] chair
[ ] book shelf
[x] dresser
[xx ] TV
[x] CD player/stereo
[ ] bean bag
[laptop ] computer
[x] posters/paintings/pictures
[ ] walk in closet
[ ] large mirror
[x] bed
[ x] twin sized bed
[ ] queen sized bed
[ ] King sized bed
[ ] double sized bed
[ ] bathroom
[x] clock
[x] clothes on the floor
[  ] box of tissues
[x] Lava lamp ((night light))
[ ] smoke detector
[x ] a garbage can
[x] a locking door
[  ]cans of water or soda
[ ] a recycling can
[baskets of clothes]mess under your bed
[x] night stand
[ ] some sort of exercising machine

Looks

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[sometimes] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ x] have/I've had braces.
[ ] wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[i chipped my finger] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ]I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Experiences

[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ]I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.

Drugs/Alcohol

[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ x]I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.

Death and Suicide

[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] I've held someone while they died
[x ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.

Materialism

[ x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[some people] I open up to others easily.
[ sometimes] I watch the news.
[ x] I don't kill bugs.
[x ] I curse regularly.
[sometimes] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[when i played sports] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ sometimes] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.