ive gotten to the point where i want to stop dreaming.
i want to stop sleeping because in my dreams, all of my worst fears are coming true.
and these dreams are so realistic.
i wake up crying or trembling.
its rediculous.
and then i have to spend all day convincing myself it wasnt real.
but it feels like it is.
and its hard to trust the people its about or believe it never really happened.
or that it wont happen.
i just wish it would stop.
i cant handle it anymore.
i bet that i probably wont go to bed tonight.