He smoked again yesterday....that was the third time i saw him smoke in my entire life....Cant help the faster beat of my heart...maybe i like him alot

Hes cute, cute and cute....i luv to talk to him...perhaps it isnt luv, its just wat i think it can be...dont smile becuz ur smile can make my heart melt.....That is not luv, i can tell....but u know, when u cant have somethin u really like in life, it'll become more like star-in-da-sky....why cant i be with him? why? am i dare to step into da game again? probably nope.

  => wat is he thinkin of

Those above were my thoughts, messed up and its hard to engage...is it a game of puzzle?

I know i dont luv him.. .but i try to make my heart fallin again...luv luv luv ...try to find someone is one of my missions/goals of life since i gave up the luv for MOP. Mop, i  miss him so much, cant help the sadness comin erytimes i think of him. Hes gone and forever plus. The guy is him right now isnt him yesterday at all.

        => smiley cup!!!

 My friends really hate smokers, they think they cant have a bf is a smoker. However, opposite me! When im quite and watchin him smoke.. .really cool, is anythin on his mind now? hhihihi just try to satisfy my vision....never mind. he was, is and will be the cutest thing in life. Hopin i aint gonna forget him....becuz he is my beautiful memory

                  => smiley weather!

Sometimes its kinds scared to look at ppl gone. They came and gone, just like a party, its really fun, really. but it has to end. no matter wat. the end...damn, lil fucked up....and oneday he will leave....my good thing in life will once again, come to an end...hihi life is fun

I miss my mom again....miss so bad....badly badly badly...mom....from the bottom of my heart, u r the only one whom i trust in life....no one can get close to my anymore....they r all lies...and ima be a liar in front of them just like that way they treat me...hihi life sux huh

school stuff is so hard, i have to think about somethin alot....money money money $$$$ is killin now...luv luv luv is killin me now.....dont believe that i can face against thost obstacles which i encouterd. damn, comedy life...

Peter called me, a comedian. Yes, tease me. becuz i luv makin fun of myself...try to bring back some happiness i lost while i was growin up. haha funny me, yes yes yes.

Bye me, again, this is my personal blog ever, u dont need to read or comment....

              => smiley moon or sun??!

luv life, smile on monday.............................................. <3

Ive just realized that my attitude changed. No more innocence, i wanna be sexy instead. now i can understand why many celebrities show their boobs off, lolz.  Plz, dun say that im cute, >< uh ohh, thats just a small aspect of my character. say hey there, u r so damn sexy, lolz u got wat i want. i didnt change, just found out who i really was. im not grown up enough, but at least im mature to be dare to face n solve my obstacles by myself.

i got some pics to share, take a look at that....peace

  u can see, i got alotta stuffs

sry >< my messy room, actually i cleaned it up 2hours ago. can u see my Spongebob blanket????

view of my windown

  i drew it when i got class visit in Tacoma art museum. i just had about 5' to finish it. my instructor said its so cute ^^. u can see  me n chicken on da hill on da windy day....luv it

some slogan i made.

  spring class 07. i luv my instructor, hes so nice. i got classmates from many countries. this is just my S/L class, so no American.

 girls gone wild lolz....

bb spring quater, hello summer quarter ><

i got couple parties last season. so damn fun! From housin parties wit Chinese guyz, they r absolutely OK to Indonesian guy's bday party in a big huge boat wit da hottest dj boi ever. damn!  have my eyes shocked blind. Housin parties r lil bit 'beep' nasty to me. we drank n then....blah blah....we did wat ppl r gonna do when boiz n girls r drunk lolz....shhhh secret guy...im 18. i cant wait to be over 21 to drink alcohol man. its still illegal in here, but anyway doin wat is banned makes me feel funny n how cool i am. hoho lolz, btw dun tell anyone ok, ima straight to jail like Paris Hilton if u confess this secret to anybody...lolz jk.  now i am 18. i dont expect permission from anybody else. got it?

talk about Indonesian guy's bday, keywords r so fabulous! We hang out couple tyms to downtown Seattle. He picked me up in da black Limosine n wit his own driver. His bday party is in a huge boat. Everybody got into da boat n went around Seattle, sight seein. i even saw Bill Gate's house. lolz. Dis Indo guy is professional. u know wat. Bad bois have several kinds. lemme tell ya some type of those...

               da first one i think u all know is Players r da guys who always have a number of girls around them. They r good lookin n know alota stuffs. Nevertheless, they have no idea about the definition of luv. they hook up with girls is just for fun n to let their frienz know how cool they r.