getting inchy doesnt mean you are having an excellent talent in debating.

its hurting people.no matter in what circumstances.

and its hurting other people as well.

just put yourself into other's shoes.己所不欲 勿斯於人2

dont think you are in such an authority and you are superior.others are much more higher than you.

and besides its soo good that i feel, at least i have more time and friends tahn u.who feel u are inchy like disc jockeys.

get along well with your own circle (the dot dot dot circle, which is so small compared with mine) as a reminder kind enough, or else i am afraid you wont have any companion in the future.

i feel bad that you make yourself not totally eligible to heaven.for those foul lanagages that you took for meals everyday.

and for the fakes that you pretend that you are good and kind and well-mannered.

i have been trying to be good to you.but i feel you just feel thats RUBBISH.

if you cant achieve them, dont expect people to achieve them.or else you will be just rubbish tht you cant achieve them.the so called goals that you think are rubbish.
and btw, shame on those people who ruined people's days off.and ruin (as in now continuous sense) still.

我自問.我已盡全力讀書.

為何我竟然達不到那最低標準?

難道我這樣的方法是不對的?

抑或歸根究底...我還是不勤力嗎?

now only 1 week for con law.

last time 1 week for prc.

if they get worse..its all to do with no time.

but how about company?

how about criminal?

if i say its because i have 5 law subjects + pth to handle.

why would others get higher than u could?

if i say i am lazy,

why would i not be able to go out even for 1 single night for 2 months since my birthday?

the reason left out is i played.i played computer games when i was trying to concentrate.but

after all it just contributes to a little amount of the time i have.and maybe u then say

u are sleepy and u sleep more and so u havent got more time than others

1. i have already got less sleeping hours than others~

2 others have other involvments too

3 its the only and the only relaxation i had--

so.

please

i am so unhappy.

can someone just teach me how to die?

when i just feel so desperate..i mean not good.not really very unhappy...

i realise.i cant be the little girl i always am.

i should learn from my mistakes.

coz well, no one is perfect to get A++++++++++++ all the time!and of coz thats not going to be me.

so.

add oil and just let things that happened already pass you.

for other stuff too.those that i hate.forget them.coz they are not you.they are not like you.they are not going to be feel pity for you.perhaps they will even laugh behind you at you falling down.roar to them!show them your strength!

i am recognised now.

finally

blessed.

at least my efforts are not dumped into the sea...

i really feel tired. really.

tired of life.tired of law.tired of work.tired of seeking things that i would not get anyway.

and sometimes i wonder what happen to my friendships.

are we supposed to just be friends at the certain stage of life only?

primary school secondary school university and even divide them year by year...

at a new stage we have new friends....

but are we sure to just give up those that are also your friends in the past or even at present just because you have new friends?

can u just deny and say you are busy and just dont ever care about them when they need help or just a simply hug?

its so fake when you say you want to see them but at the end its you who dont take the initative to find them.

all i want is just a simple hi

that i can feel i am cared at least when i need care.

thank you.