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State: Singapore
Birthday: 12/31/1968
Gender: Male


Interests: reading, watching movies, writing, chatting online & making friends, watching TV programmes & movies. my idol is bruce lee .. oh btw this is real important: i m straight & homophobic. if u r that which i m phobic of then we both can do better by keeping a very very far distance ..
Expertise: i play around with html codes, have tried doing short films (very tiring), want to try my hands in writing whatever genre short-stories & am back to school now ..
Occupation: Student
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Member Since: 1/4/2004

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

200406072225AUME96419807ADMIN: The Move

Another announcement. I will be 'moving' to another username. The present one gives away too much of my identity. Am still thinking of a username. Currently I am for 'banyantree'. None of my relatives or personal friends would know it is me. Well the move will be after 22 June. The relevant users will be informed.

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Right I am moved. I have made the relevant updates on subscriptions. I managed to get a real obscure name. Haha ..Ok, this is absolutely gonna be the last entry in this blog. Stay cool guys.


Monday, June 07, 2004

200406072040AUMEL96415375MEDIA: A Star For Reagan

It's been so long since I last did this. I am doing this again - contrary to the earlier announcement that I would only 'come alive' after the 22 June - because I figure there is enough room for a breather from now until 17 June which is the due date for the next 'big event'. So much boredom and so much to comment urge me to find time for one more entry, and possibly a few more from now until the next important date. Well, so here's the rant and the grouse, yet again.

Ronald Reagan just passed away, aged 93 and of Alzheimers. I am always interested in obiturary news, don't ask why. I have done the same for Kurt Kobain, for Leslie Cheung, and just missed Anita Mui although I did keep the newspapers articles at home and think will one day revisit news on the diva, and will try to do one on her. Somehow the fact that people come and go, and that life is transient, just generate much interests in me. I have even thought that perhaps the Gods in heaven are playing chess, and we are the pieces. So when one piece is captured by the opposing side, then the analogy in real life is death. Such a concept appeals greatly to me, rather than the models advocated by all the religions, just because in my 'chess model' of life, there is no moral, no judgement, no one to tell us what this is so and what that is not, and it also gives insights to death that differs from what religions say. It is nothing to do with doing good or believing in a faith to gain salvation, but life and death is merely about existence and the lack of it. At the end of the journey after playing our parts, our utilities are dissipated and spent, and we become a prisoner-of-war and belong to the other side (in the analogy to real life the other side could well be virus, diseases or a suicide or murder attempt). We become inactive and indeed nonexistent on the chessboard, and that continues until the game is up and the players play the next game.

But why? This 'chess model' is also consistent with our real life experience. All of us, at least me, have always thought life was so transient and time passes so fast. Well, the gods' moves are timed and governed by the rules of the game. Damn the gods must be having a good time playing this game. Oh, the 'chess model' also assumes that there is more than one god. Here I have deviated from many religions that claim unitary devinity. Well, that's just an opinon and thought. And anyway, no mortal can prove me wrong or herself or himself right. So what's the harm in hypothesising?

So let's get back to the main character, Ronald Reagan. I have to say after browsing through his pictures in the web, my feeling is that that guy is first and foremost a sportsman. But I remember he has a unique style of delivering his presidential speeches that enarmoured a generation of people all over the world, myself included, a style which is not seen in the presidents post-Reagan. Well we had the senior Bush, followed by Bill Clinton, and followed by the present president the junior Bush. I must say in comparison, Reagan's style comes across as much more exaggerated, as if the important part about making a speech is the showmanship and presentation. Well Reagan has been called the showman umpteen times whilst he was the president. It does not surprise me, him coming from a background of broadcast journalism and an actor. But perhaps what strikes me as most characteristic of his style is his tall stature, and the fact that he seems to be putting on a wide grin all the time. Well, that to me just reflects the make-up of a sportsman. He is certainly no Bill Clinton who is the shrewd and intelligent politician and lawyer, neither is Reagan the matter-of-fact type of person that Bush junior is. Nor is Reagan the intense and deeply pensive type of character of Jimmy Carter. Reagan is simply and plainly sportsperson in comparsion to all the above presidents. But Reagan is also one of the few presidents in his time to be able to gain support more than one term of the presidential office. It shows that politics is such a diverse entity that it accommodates all kinds of traits and professionalities.

That said it is not difficult to be swayed by the Reagan's style of politics and to miss an enamoured president who has mesmerised a whole generation of people in the world. Reagan ended the cold war, a feat unthinkable then of anyone, even the U.S. president. Indeed U.S. and Russia pre-Reagan were building up nuclear arms, not depleting and disarming them. Reagan was also able to persuade the Germans to unite and now there is no more East and West Germany. And the younger generations now, for example my nephews and nieces, would have to dig history books to learn about the Berlin wall. Nobody thought such a thing was possible, just like no one now thinks reconcilation with or complete destruction of the terrorists are any possible now. When one compares that kind of political achievement in this sense, Reagan stands like a giant in the history of American and indeed world politics. But his political achievements are certainly beyond the tangibles. Reagan also brought home to the Americans and the world alike the message of the will and courage of his public servcie. Reagan publicly announced his diagnosis of Alzheimers so that the knowledge of disease be made aware for the beneift of the public.

The moral of the story is really death is not a scary thing. It completes the process of biological ageing, and it brings to a closure the themes that one advocates in one's lifetime, just like the fact that the bell has to go for every interesting classroom lesson and any course one attends, and that every good chess game has to have an end. Nonetheless it leaves no doubt in people's minds of the spirit, will and the character of the star on tv, the star in politics, and the star now in our hearts.


Friday, May 14, 2004

200405141310AUMEL89005673WORK: Hibernation Starts Again - This One is Serious 

From the header above, you should have no difficulty concluding that this is about another 'hands-and-fingers off' announcement. When can I get a life!??!

And same goes for comments for bloggers whom I regularly visit & make comments. Now even comments are luxuries I can't afford. You are talking about an impoverished impecuniary here. How I wish I could have my say on so many things. Now I can only read with envy works of blog writers, news journalists and newsletter article contributors. The point is the lesser interaction with the outside world now, the better it is for me. Poor soul!!! There is no one out there who is less pathetic than me!!! My own last wish: that there is still some room for reading of the aforementioned stuff. Take that away, and you must as well take my life away. If I can't talk, at least let me listen and watch. Take away my mouth but let me have my ears and eyes. What I am asking is only a little leeway, I am sure that is reasonable in the circumstances.


Friday, May 07, 2004

20040507AUMELB86936290ADMIN: Just Watching Clock Tick Away

I am disappointing, according to my own standards. I can set out to do something, but looking back it's sure not done. So better not have resolutions. But isn't that weak? I have set out to do such and such, but there will always to intervention. I mean, how many opportunities will come knocking? I am utterly annoyed & disheartened. So many less fortunate people in the world have even stronger wills. I just think I am a whiner. And since this is supposed to be MY journal and I have kept my identities secret except to couple of personal friends, I am not ashamed to admit it. I am so disgusted. I think I am corrupted and if I had the chance to be the president/premier of a state that state is going to be in ruins. How sad can I get? I am even more pathetic than ants. At least ants and bees wake up in the new day full of zest and energy for a new day. And at least pigs have a mission in life - to grow fat so that carnivorous, sly and lazy humans could benefit. At least a dog knows how to chase after a flying freespree even if it was to reach to shallow parts of a lagoon and even if it was at the expense of the possibility of being killed by sea predators e.g. sharks. At least the wind by moving and not keeping still takes the heat & dullness off animals and humans alike. So what good am I? I am just a self-centred slop who used to think in my youth (some half a decade or so ago) that nothing was insurmountable and that I could live up to every challenge and who in his middle age live to know the horrible truth of the falsity of that assumption. Now I really feel like I am useless. And all that I have just said I was referring to the essay that I was supposed to work on.


Tuesday, April 27, 2004

200404271310AUMEL84017140WORK: Doing The Dash

Dear personal friends and interested readers,

This is to announce a period of silence until 7 May 04 as I just discovered of a dateline I which initially mistook to be a few weeks later than that date. Don't think I can afford the luxury of blogging during this period, and I ask for your forebearance.



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